hardest of hearts.

cassie rhodes. 17. elastic heart. from the pain that you drive into the heart of me, the love we share, seems to go nowhere. and I've lost my light, for I toss and turn I can't sleep at night. once I ran to you, now i'll run from you. this tainted love you've given, i give you all a boy could give you, take my tears and that's not nearly all; oh tainted love.

[cxssierhodes]

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Declan: You didn't do it on purpose, babe. Sometimes you think you're past things that you're not. It's not like you intentionally hurt him or something, you shouldn't be so hard on yourself. You stopped it, that's the important part, and you were honest with him. That's the best you can do.

Declan: I don't know about you, but I do not have those restrictions. I basically live alone already. Been looking out for myself for years.

Cassie: I know. It also doesn’t help that I’m like, insanely happy and he’s still miserable. Though I’m sure he’ll move on soon. Not that it’s any of my business I just want him to feel the kind of happiness I feel when I’m with you.

Cassie: It’s because my parents are stricter than yours. But you’ve got my to look out for you now! Or you have had me for awhile now.

[cxssierhodes]

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Declan: Why do you feel awkward?

Declan: True. It’ll be really cool to be able to do whatever we want, whenever we want.

Cassie: Because when I look back on my relationship with Ryan it's just, me pretending like I didn't love you. Ryan didn't deserve that. I still feel guilty.

Cassie: And to eat when we want to eat, eat what we want!

[cxssierhodes]

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Declan: Maybe. It's not THAT bad is it?

Declan: That's fair enough. Only so much one can handle before having to just give up.

Cassie: No, not really. I feel awkward, but I think that's more me than anything.

Cassie: It'll just be nice to have our own space. Not worry about parents hearing us and stuff.

[cxssierhodes]

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Declan: At least your parents are more supportive than mine. Ugh. Why can't he just be happy for you, just one time? Shouldn't he be thankful that we won't be under his nose anymore?

Cassie: They're probably glad it won't be as awkward around the house anymore. :p

Cassie: Who knows. I've given up trying anything with Ryan, honestly. He was never gonna be happy cause it's with you.

[cxssierhodes]

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Declan: That's what I want.

Declan: Have you spoken to your parents about moving out yet?

Cassie: I told them yesterday, they were happy for me. Ryan just rolled his eyes, but I expected that.

[cxssierhodes]

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Declan: I don't really feel like drinking then. Just a night with you is all I need.

Cassie: Okay baby. Whatever you want.

[cxssierhodes]

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Declan: I dont wanna get drunk or anything. I just want you.

Cassie: We don't have to get drunk. And I'm all yours.

[cxssierhodes]

TEXT: CASSIE ✉️ DECLAN

Declan: Thanks, babe. I need it.

Cassie: Do you want any snacks? Beer?

[cxssierhodes]

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Declan: So yes to coming to look at places? I just want to get away from this shit hole.

Cassie: Definitely yes. We can have a movie night too and you’ll stay.

[cxssierhodes]

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Declan: I meant you show me photos so I could see you tonight. But yeah. We can definitely look at places on the weekend.

Cassie: I wanna see you tonight. I wanna see you every single night. And day.

[cxssierhodes]

TEXT: CASSIE ✉️ DECLAN

Declan: Okay.

Declan: I could come around and look at them with you?

Cassie: We could go this weekend?

[cxssierhodes]

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Declan: If you say so.

Declan: I don’t believe that, but okay.

Declan: Have you looked at places yet?

Cassie: I know so.

Cassie: I’ve got a few in mind. I can send them to you.

[cxssierhodes]

TEXT: CASSIE ✉️ DECLAN

Declan: So it’s my fault.

Declan: I’m sure there are people way less selfish than me that you know.

Cassie: It's not your fault. At all.

Cassie: Nope. Only you.

[cxssierhodes]

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Declan: Then why am I always the one that cops the blame?

Declan: I don’t know, lost count. Yeah, apparently.

Cassie: Because she can't blame him. Or herself it seems.

Cassie: You're the least selfish person I know.

[cxssierhodes]

TEXT: CASSIE ✉️ DECLAN

Declan: Feels like it’s my fault.

Declan: There’s no point getting mad, Cassie. It won’t change anything.

Cassie: None of this is your fault, babe.

Cassie: It's just frustrating. How many times have you had your ass beaten so she didn't? Yet she thinks you're SELFISH?

[cxssierhodes]

TEXT: CASSIE ✉️ DECLAN

Declan: When have her priorities been on?

Declan: I don’t know? But I gave her a safe option. She blew it off.

Declan: Yeah.

Cassie: ....good point. Very good point.

Cassie: It's not your fault.

Cassie: How dare she. Okay now I'm mad at her.

[cxssierhodes]

TEXT: CASSIE ✉️ DECLAN

Declan: Does she really love me though? Because if she did, then she would’ve cared more about me begging her to leave.

Declan: She’s not happy. She called me selfish.

Cassie: She loves you. I know she does. I just think maybe her priorities are a little off right now.

Cassie: Do you think she’s scared to be there without you?

Cassie: She called you selfish?! After everything you’ve done?!