“I can try,” he teased. A smile stretched out his lips when she caressed him, it was one of the best feelings in the world. “No no, I didn’t want space. I wanted to be with you, I just didn’t know how. I went through this weird spiral of being angry, then sad, then feeling guilty for being angry… it was a whole thing,” he chuckled softly, looking down at his mug, still embarrassed from his behaviour. Noel listened to her words, stroked her hair when she laid her head on his shoulder and squeezed her hand back. It amazed him how mature they were being about the whole thing, that was how much they loved each other. That thought only made him calmer. “I get why you lied, though. I wish you hadn’t, but I understand. People can be mean and it’s scary. It was scary for me when I told you about my AVPD, I was afraid you were going to leave me…” he said, remembering that night. “I wanna know what you want to tell me. If you’re uncomfortable talking about it, we don’t have to. Okay?” Noel kissed the top of her head. “And you were right, I have a tendency to leave, to avoid things. But I’m trying to be better. Last night I could’ve disappeared for days… and I didn’t. For you, and for me, too. That was the immediate impulse, but I fought it, because it’s not what I wanted.” He wanted to explain it because it had been hard, but he wanted Salem to know that he was trying to be a better man. For her. For the both of them. “You can tell me whatever you want about camming, I guess I just wonder why Archer knew,” he shrugged, “but I guess it doesn’t matter. Also” Noel looked for his wife’s face and smirked at her, “I think it’s hot as fuck.”
“I get that, yesterday was a lot and both of our emotions were all over the place.” she lifted her head off his shoulder and set her mug down. “That’s only why I did lie, I didn’t know how you’d respond to it. It’s not that I was trying to compare you to Jai about the whole situation but he tore me down a lot about it to the point where I got this insecurity about the whole thing. So I just felt like any guy would feel the same way he did about it. But I shouldn’t have thought that when it came to you, you’re not like anyone else i’ve met before.” She rested her head back down on his shoulder and smiled when he planted a kiss on her. “I’m so proud of you for not doing that, you came back. That’s all that matters. I know you’re getting a lot better with it compared to when we first met. I notice that you’re trying for the both of us, that’s all that counts.” she planted a kiss on his hand. “Well, Archer only knows because he overheard me and one of my girlfriends talking about it one day and he wouldn’t shut up about it. He thought you knew which is why he sent that stupid text and I had to fix everything and I made him promise not to mention it again.” she giggled and kissed his cheek a few times. “I know you think it’s hot as fuck, thank you for not being mad about it. No matter what i’m always all yours.”
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