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7:14pm just one hour after logging off from work, dreading the 13 hours and 46 minutes left until I have to log back in. This is no way to live

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Been working corporate for 4 years now. I hate how every morning my body gets all tense, my stomach becomes a pit, and the way my heart beats ridiculously fast at the thought of being told I am taking too long on my tasks. I try to do everything as fast as possible. My work is measured and monitored, and I work diligently since I clock in and always leave at least 15 minutes after my shift, and sometimes an hour later. I want to do everything right, but being rushed is the worst. My knee won’t stop bouncing. Having my favorite TV show on in the background helps a little. Everything feels like I am on the verge of vomiting, and then my shift comes to an end. I turn my computer off, keep watching my show, and if I am in the mood, I’d eat some ice cream, share a moment with my family, and suddenly it is 9 p.m. and I am sleepy as hell. I try to fight it, but I fall asleep, and before I know it, I am 3 hours away, counting the minutes till I have to clock in, and everything happens again. This is too exhausting. I wish I had enough money to just cover my parents' and my expenses and just exist. I’d love to just go for a walk in the middle of the day, talk with people because I want to and not because I have to, but there are too many people depending on me, and it’s killing me that in 30 minutes my shift is starting.

I understand using drugs to cope more now than ever.