cyn·i·cism

/ˈsinəˌsizəm/ an inclination to believe that people are motivated purely by self-interest; skepticism. ( currently. ) independent marvel oc, heavily operating post-tws. written by marissa.

[coinsurgery-blog]

                                                      try as you might, it’s hard to forget.

[coinsurgery-blog]

                                                      try as you might, it’s hard to forget.

[cyniicism-blog]

so I maybe possibly did do the new blog thing

[cyniicism-blog]

     So I might be doing something with Ana soon? I guess it's more like a clean-slate sort of thing, I'm not too sure. Part of me feels a little silly for wanting to retry, but I've always felt very close to Ana, and I guess I want to feel more satisfied with how things turn out for her. Not that I'm unsatisfied with how far she's come as is right now, but I do feel like things could've went differently. (Obviously there were certain major hiccups because of plot within the actual Marvel canon that I decided to go along with and try to patch through, but I only partially feel like I played that out properly.)

     If I do go along with all this random clean-slating that I want to do, I'll probably give Ana a fandomless background so that she can thrive in an entirely "original" sort of setting. I think I could expand on her better that way, because it's helped me with other muses as well.

     And that's my whole spiel about what I've been thinking up for Ana. I don't like considering her a lost cause or as a muse that I should put behind me. I'm a little unwilling to do that, at this point.

[cyniicism-blog]

new year new theme aND IT'S SO PRETTY

[agentklutz]

          “Told you so.”

[cyniicism-blog]

          "Well I couldn't just not check."

[agentklutz]

          “You found the mind control implant?”

[cyniicism-blog]

          "No, just a head full of hair. You're fine."

[agentklutz]

     [Obediently plops down and hushes. For now.]

[cyniicism-blog]

          [ Tries to be gentle about it. Emphasis on tries. ]

            "Oh-- Oh gosh--"

          [ Cue feigned shock. ]

           "Jesus, Teller."

[agentklutz]

          “I can use stairs. I just get messed up sometimes, I’ve explained it to you. Uuuugh, fine, but you pull at it I’m suing. But you do realize Kay would go on a rampage if he even suspected I had lice.”

[cyniicism-blog]

          "As your friend, I'm trying to prevent that. Now sit here and hush up."

[agentklutz]

          “I’m a grown man dammit, and I’d know if I had infestations of anything, Ana.”

[cyniicism-blog]

     "You're a five year old that can't manage to use the stairs. Just let me check your hair, it won't even be five minutes."

[agentklutz]

          “I swear I don’t have lice. I’m just itchy.”

[cyniicism-blog]

     "----That's not very convincing."

[cyniicism-blog]

knowing your partner well makes writing together a lot easier. tag this with the people you enjoy roleplaying with but want to get to know better. Repost for the sake of activity notes please!

tagged: ughughugh idek tbh whoever wants it can have it

BASICS:

name: marissa age: nineteen preferred pronouns: she/her sexuality: bisexual zodiac sign: aries taken or single: single three facts: declared myself as a creative writing major, might minor in communications, previously wanted to minor in art

EXPERIENCE:

how long (months/years?):  seven-ish years how’d you start: started on an old friend's forum, then kind of followed another friend around until I ended up here. platforms you’ve used: forums/messenger/tumblr/skype worst experience: probably when I made a muse that lacked anything other than a shit life. I've repeatedly felt like going back to try to clean-slate and try again with them. best experience: creating neonjunglc with a friend of mine. it's the most I've ever worked on something, especially collaboratively.

MUSE PREFERENCES:

female or male: (when it comes to my muses) no preference. original or canon: (when it comes to my muses) I prefer writing OCs. I prefer writing canons if I feel I have enough of a heart for them. favorite face: there are so many??? kristin kreuk and jack falahee, tho. least favorite face: it's between natalie dormer and crystal reed-- they've got perf faces, but I think I've just... seen them quite often.... (not that I don't love that but come on it's like listening to your otp song or smth on the radio a billion times  and then you just kind of wish you never made it your song.) multi or single: single preferably, but I like having multis if they're all in the same place for a reason.

WRITING PREFERENCES:

fluff, angst or smut:  fluff and angst. and a little smut. plots or memes:  plots when I can, memes basically always. long or short replies: either. best time to write: in the middle of the night, riiiiight before your rp partner goes to sleep. uvu do you like your muse(s): ana is my baaaaaaaby. she's my baby and I love her.

[wingedxassassin]

"Much as it pains me to say, I don’t think you’re telling me the truth." Clint has never doubted Rojas’s integrity before, but these were volatile times, and when betrayal is as common as an overcast sky, suspicion is warranted. "You can’t beat around the bush when it comes to that, Rojas. You know…how it makes you look, don’t you?"

[cyniicism-blog]

Ah, right. The world she used to know as one was still split as two sides, if not more. "Point taken." There's a huff in an attempt to stir away the settling realization that things were still technically bad. She hadn't forgotten entirely, of course. It was still a nagging thought in the back of her head. On the same end, it was just something Ana could sweep under the rug for a short period of time, if only when around people she used to be so close to.

Maybe she was just a little naive. Or maybe she just thought that she knew people better.

"I just got back from Greece. Stayed there for awhile to avoid everything that was happening here. I was with someone's family, though, so I..." Didn't want to throw their names out there. Maybe she wasn't so naive. "I was invited. A friend of mine invited me, but it was time to come back. As much as I was beating around the bush, I am telling the truth."

"--So please, I've enlightened you enough. Tell me I've not been wrong about you."

[execucio]

              「her body shifts as she faces her before casting an uneasy glare.」

                              ❛ ————— not exactly lookin’ t’get poisoned today. ❜

[cyniicism-blog]

     "...y'know, while i'm not extremely fond of you,          the last thing i'd actually do is try to poison          you."

[un-coeurbrave-blog-blog]

"Ya know is sappiness was a currency, we’d be bloody rich right now." If she was crying, it  was because she was a clever genius and not from the overwhelming happiness. "I’ve been. Will this catchin’ up involve coffee?” Priorities. 

[cyniicism-blog]

"Coffee for you, maybe. No coffee for me. It should definitely involve pizza as well, though." Double priorities. "I'm currently eating for two right now, so, you know..." What a great way to admit that you're pregnant. It seemed like joking about it was the best way to explain it, though. "Might have to get extra toppings."

[un-coeurbrave-blog-blog]

"Oh, don’t ya dare go and get all sappy on me," because she couldn’t handle it right now, but… "I missed you too." She placed a gentle kiss on Ana’s cheek as she pulled away. It was so nice to see a familiar face.

[cyniicism-blog]

"Sappy? Noo, this isn't sappy at all." The sarcasm caused her to smile. This was definitely not her wiping her eyes, either. "How've you been, Rhaine? We need to catch up on... a lot. Everything."

[un-coeurbrave-blog-blog]

It’s a struggle to not crush her friend while trying to pull her closer. Being apart was a terrible thing.

[cyniicism-blog]

"I missed you so much," was the first thing she could manage, voice breaking. She held Rhaine for moments longer before she managed to pull away.