I always had believed that there is a part of Light deep down that knows that what he is doing as Kira might be wrong because we never saw him hating on Soichiro for firmly condemning Kira's actions. If Light truly 100% was sure he is in the right, then he would have seen him thinking "Oh, my father is evil", but we never saw that. Well, at least, that's mine interpretation.
Hi anon. Light’s thinking here is contradictory, but it’s typical for him to hold two conflicting ideas in his mind, such as his views on martyrdom as well as all these:
Light does indeed know that Kira is considered a murderer by many (and that murder, on its face, is wrong), but he is willing to sacrifice himself and commit murder to create a world where murder won’t exist.
Light sees himself as righteous but also believes Kira is capable of evil acts. However, in his mind, these are all in the service of the greater good and therefore necessary.
Soichiro is Light’s hero but Light also considers Soichiro foolish and naive about what real justice looks like and what it takes
Light does not hate the people who are against Kira, he pities them for being unable to see his vision. Unless they are actively trying to hurt/stop/kill him (and he can’t manage them in other ways like the Task Force), Kira does not de facto kill those who don’t support him. Primarily because Light is a convincer, he wants the chance to explain what Kira is by actions (or words, if safe to or he has nothing to lose).
We do see Light have strong reactions to his father criticizing Kira, but hate is not a part of it for Light. Obata illustrates these instances differently than how Light is usually presented— face obscured by shadows or hair, hiding the emotions he’s feeling until he can ‘recover’ and act appropriately again. 👇
Always found this so interesting that Light channeled the hurt and disappointment he felt from the criticism into equal passion for the ‘correct response’ his father expected to hear. When he is recovered and lying, he shows his face to Soichiro. And when he was alone with Ryuk who knows the truth, he had nothing to say, face obscured once more. We see another instance with Sayu, face hidden and a non-comittal response:
It was painful to have his own family misunderstand him but that was a cost of being Kira, and he’d pay it until he could convince them. I think he believed that as the world came to accept Kira (as much of it did over the years) his father would come around too. Light pays close attention throughout the manga about the overall opinion of Kira— it matters. Of course, Soichiro died before Light ever got the chance to convince him, which makes a scene with Matsuda shortly after more tragic through his eyes:
This conversation sounds somewhat rehearsed from Light’s end (and once more we see his face/emotions hidden). It is nearly out of character for Light to offer up such pro-Kira opinions around the Task Force, but I believe he does so due the the timing— his father just died and this is what he would have like to have said to Soichiro. He can understand the conflict Matsuda has, of being a cop meant to catch Kira vs. having doubts that Kira is only doing evil. Those panels also illustrate Light’s paradoxical opinions about his own righteousness and capacity for evil acts, how much the acceptance matters to him, how he thinks of himself as a martyr, and how the end result/greater good justifies short-term evil.
But anyway, this is the conflict he wanted to see in Soichiro, that thread he could have gently pulled at until his father became convinced or at least understood him. Instead, Soichiro dies believing the same thing he stated to Light here:
And we know this because despite taking the Shinigami eye deal and saying he could and would use the Death Note to kill, when it came down to it, he couldn’t do it.
Which makes Light thinks ‘you fool’.....Soichiro would rather die than take a life, even that of a criminal. Soichiro made a mistake Light couldn’t understand, and to him, ended up dying ‘for nothing.’ It’s all about results.
Tldr; Light was deeply affected by Soichiro’s rebuke of Kira and while he knew that Kira did commit some acts of evil, he always saw them in service to the greater good
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