Artificial Insanity

MDNI (dms/asks/comments, Im too lazy to check otherwise) ▓ 21 ▓ TW: Suidical Ideation, various forms of self destruction/ harm, bloodlust, obsession, and perversion ▓ Block don't report, otherwise I'll always be back 🗡

[d3athanddecay1]

Pretend there's nothing left to lose...

[d3athanddecay1]

What if Im always this way?

What if this is forever?

[memewhore]

[d3athanddecay1]

Oh shit I dropped my ligh-

[d3athanddecay1]

oh. hi

I still exist

[unclaimedbody]

why do i even put in effort?

no one will ever care as much as i do.

[hsjdoeejrnflsishkdoxhdksso-deac]

the time for games is over . disorders … activate

[d3athanddecay1]

Time for my ultimate smash

[mylittlezepher]

I’m so tired of being here. I want to go home. But where is my home.

[d3athanddecay1]

Idk why but tonight I can't count my shots for shit

Have I taken 3? or 6? or more even somehow???

[d3athanddecay1]

I've been flipping a razor around for an hour now

what's stopping me, really?

why am I so hesitant all of a sudden?

[d3athanddecay1]

I left him months ago, I stopped having feelings for him months ago...

so why does thought of him talking to someone else drive me so insane

Like he texts someone and doesn't say who and I want to leap across the room and gut him like a fish... what is that?

hate myself so much sometimes omfg

[d3athanddecay1]

Sorry for the inactivity, Its not that I'm any better, I'm just in limbo and have a bad connection so it takes a while to post 🤷‍♀️

[d3athanddecay1]

We back on that taking a few shots before bed grind

also some music I like rn, off my fav album from that band

[foxlungz]

I’m damaged goods why would anyone even want me I’m a mess

[d3athanddecay1]

They call for ashes to ashes

dust into dust

tell me honey, who to trust...

[mirroringshards-deactivated2026]

it was dumb to think i was ever really needed in the first place.

[theoldblog2024]

No sanity or stability here, just a delusional emotionally unstable person who feels too human or not human at all.

[d3athanddecay1]

3am,

and I cant.

Fucking.

SLEEP

[d3athanddecay1]

This but with the added twist of sobbing silently while a friend sleeps next to me... hah..