D3LI

de·lir·i·um dəˈlirēəm noun an acutely disturbed state of mind that occurs in fever, intoxication, and other disorders and is characterized by restlessness, illusions, and incoherence of thought and speech.

[ghostmadeofsheets]

[subliming]

[thefruitmarket]

[summersweeet]

[winterfellis]

[preventive]

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[suckybl0g]

[destroymylife]

[d3lirivm-blog]

Love.

It’s kind of like throwing yourself off a cliff and hoping for them to be your net. I’ve been met by jagged rocks peeking out of the white waves and somehow I am still alive and willing to jump again.

[harmony-happiness]

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Cravings of Death

I am relapsing on my old cognitive processes. I can’t do that and this realization is making me even more disappointed in myself. I’m so proud but also so disappointed and I am crumbling and building myself up at that same time. Ugh.

[neckkiss]

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[fuckyeahtattoos]

[destroymylife]

[thegoodvybe]

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I don’t want to be here anymore.

Before you go any further I don’t mean I want to be dead. I’ve been at that point before and I’ve learned since then that I’m worth a lot. I just don’t want to be here in this city anymore. For starters this city can only offer you sunsets and beautiful neon signs that reside in the darkest and dirtiest corners and streets. I used to say the reason to stay is for the people, but there are so few of them that have stayed with me that I might as well pack them up and take them with me. I’ve lost a lot here, not through death or misplacement of people and things but in the theft of my name. People who once loved me stare at me and apply a facade. People I once loved have become the very demons that threaten my wellbeing. Lies have turned allies into enemies. I will not be satisfied with half assed support from the people I held closest. I sit here dreaming of leaving because those who do not want to give me their everything are below me staying. I expect to get what I give in relationships. All the hurt, pain, and betrayal I’ve received in my life so far has been from the selfish that sit there and expect to have it all delivered to them at no price of comradery.

[hirxeth]