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precious bb

where’d the grass go?

its been forever since i’ve actually used this website but may i say my theme is still looking frikitttttty fre e e s sh hs hs hs hs hhs

obsessively looking up how to switch to verizon and how to get the note 7 and how to get it before august 18th and just

how

to

live

the android apple battle is so dumb

like i can like both dont b dumb they’re both rlly good

but im so hype for the note 7 rn like thats somE GOOD FUCKING SHIT RIGHT THERE like iphone 7 is so secret and /whisperwhisper/ like pls just get on w/ it like everything feels too cosmetic w/ iphone 7 but note 7 actually has some shit in it and i mean iphone 7 is going to be good regardless but nOTE 7 U CAN MAKE UR OWN GIFS BY RECORDING VIDEOS LIKE

DOES

THAT

NOT

MAKE

ANYONE REALLY FUCKING HYPE

i never thought thered be a day when id hold someone so close to me yet i feel as if theyre millions of miles away

i also love dean

suddenly homesick once i realize how close my flight back to nj is. and how much ive missed hugs

being away from america has given me so much insight to how my life was like and how different i feel towards everything now, especially with myself. i feel so different towards my actions and my future. im even more motivated to do more than i can and to achieve more than i thought i could. i thought of a definite future but now im not entirely sure again. it feels like an identity crisis because this time, coming back to china, i finally felt my culture and felt the union of my family really for the first time. my small disdain towards my dad is gone, I no longer see him as incompetant but as a workaholic who always tries his best to make everyone happy-- hey sounds like me! ive learned so much about myself and hopefully i can bring that back to america and be even better. there are things that have bothered me, especially in the sense of relationships with people and interactions-- and friends that possibly cant stay friends with me after i go to college. But then theres also those that i know will stick with me through everything and its nice to know that. Its been such a journey even though Ive only been in china for a month. family has become even more important than before and i want everyone to never forget where they come from. parents try their best and sometimes theyre just dumb. of course i cant speak about bad parents (even though i thought my dad was one). but dont take the small things for granted. i hope that when i go back to america i can face some fears and move on with my head high. ive never been more excited to do more and to see more. on that note please vote for hillary because even though bernie is gone, hillary is our only option im sorry for those that still actually follow me im on mu phone idk how to do the text break LOL

going back to china and the surrealism continues. i dont know how im going to feel when im back in america. everything seems so distant now and it feels like /nothing/ matters but thats obv not true.

killing me from de inside qqq what a world

unbearable paiN also do not know if i spelled unbearbale right unbear unberavle unbentbbabtbbaldkbdlekbdlfkf bera

and entirely feel like an ass

i was never the bottle my emotions until theyre gone kind of person bc i relentlessly think about it until it consumes me and i can barely sleep and function and everything i do i think about it and daydreaming becomes too real for me and i just get really confused and "why"

its some nasty stuff when u have no one to confide in on something u need to talk about but u dontbwantbto bc then itll be real