daily balance of my life

I'm a 22-year-old girl who wants to get know myself.

[dailybalance0011]

My paper heart

Crumbles down

In your dark eyes

I’m often not there

So I get greedy

[ghiblish]

[strawbeb]

no, i don’t have a “dream job.” i want to spend my days reading and writing and lazing in the afternoon sun. i want to bake bread and brownies and apple crumble. i want to grow my own vegetables and plant a rainbow of flowers. i want to be with nature. i want to be at peace.

[melisscan]

[labella-instagram]

@minnahigh

[vehlorum]

[dailybalance0011]

1. How does my perfect day look like?

A perfect day is when I have the strength to get up in the morning and dance to my favorite music, eat a delicious breakfast with my favorite coffee or tea. The sun's rays that are trying to penetrate the window and a view of a beautiful garden. A job that gives you satisfaction, but does not prevent me from focusing on myself and my loved ones. Cooking meal with my husband and lots of outdoor activities. I wish I could organize and make good use of my time throughout the day and learn things so I don't feel like I'm wasting my life. I would like to develop and nurture myself and relationships with people I love. At the end of the day, I would like to spend the evening in peace with my favorite music and a moment for myself.

My goal is to get to know myself. I will try to answer 31 questions that will allow me to look deep into my heart and mind. I hope to be the best version of myself and find a way to make me happy. Keep your fingers crossed for me

~Carolyn

[dailybalance0011]

May 25, 2021

2:17 am

here is my imperfect but beloved skin. I live with it patiently and try to accept it. sometimes I have time when I hurt my skin. I want to apologize to myself. I have to be gentle and love myself for who I just am.

I love my skin

[dailybalance0011]

I slept 7 hours after work. Too long nap. I feel so bad because I will not sleep at night. I would like to sleep better at night..

Sometimes night is horrible for me.

Sad and lonely.

10:32 pm.

[1st-1]

[dailybalance0011]

May 24, 2021

I'm after hard work. I slept maybe 3 hours. I'm tired but happy because I have to work in this place only until the end of the month and I will start a new job. I'm excited.

I hope I can more concentrate about myself and spend time to create something special for me. I want to be happy. Today I wanted to reward myself for my hard work and bought myself a new plant. Life is better with plants

[the-book-diaries]

If you asked me now who I am, the only answer I could give with any certainty would be my name. For the rest: my loves, my hates, down even to my deepest desires, I can no longer say whether these emotions are my own, or stolen from those I once so desperately wished to be.

— Evelyn Waugh, Brideshead Revisited

[dailybalance0011]

the beginning of a new job

May 23, 2021

Today was not an easy day, especially after last night. I drank too much and felt unwell all day.

Soon I will start a new phase in my life. I'm stressed. However, I would like to use this important time to get to know myself and listen to my needs that I don't know about.

I'm excited about all of this and I'll do my best to be happy.