between the shadow and the soul

"I love you as certain dark things are to be loved, in secret, between the shadow and the soul." Dani Hayes. 25. Poet(ish) and Westbooks clerk. Dog Mom. Human aunt.

[dani-hayes]

hazelboyd:

“Yes. I’m hoping they’ll balance each other out and not… Get each other into trouble, though if my own siblings are any indication, it’s probably the latter,” said Hazel and laughed. “Yeah, I hope so. If not, I’ll just go online and pick random names.” She joked. “Definitely. It doesn’t really matter what others think as long as you’re happy with it.” She smiled and nodded. “Oh… No I actually don’t know why I was named Hazel. I think my dad picked it, but… Yeah, I don’t know why. I will have to ask him.”

Dani laughed. “Somehow my brothers managed to keep me out of trouble while always putting each other into it. Maybe because I was the baby, and they’re close in age so they were always really competitive with each other.” Dani stopped. “Sorry, that’s... not helpful. If it’s any consolation, when they weren’t fighting, they were the most dynamic of duos. And because they saw each other at school all the time, they were always there if they needed each other.” She smiled thinking of them. “Well, whatever his reason, it’s a great name!”

[dani-hayes]

duncankeller:

“Why couldn’t you sleep last night? Is there anything that’s bothering you?” Duncan asked, with his expression like a frown. “After 4, huh? That’s usually the time I wake up. You ought to fix your sleeping schedule once you can.” 

“I don’t know, I’ve been feeling pretty uninspired. I thought my book would be done by now, but I’m not even close.” She sighed. “Your right. Walt licks my face at 7 every morning until I take him for a walk, and three hours really isn’t cutting it.”

[dani-hayes]

brycestailey:

     As much as she tried to hold it back, Bryce had to shed a few giggles herself. The other just had one of those infectious laughters. “Chick, I don’t know what you’re on, but I want some of that.”

“Try zero sleep, and the littlest things will become totally hilarious. Or make you cry. It’s a toss up.”

[dani-hayes]

marinascntos:

“I can’t argue with that,” laughed Marina, taking a cookie from the other. Taking a small bite out of the cookie, she had allowed a moment and chewing before giving a thumbs up. “Tell me why I’ve been lacking on my snickerdoodle consumption.” Having a sweet tooth, Marina had suddenly found her new dessert weakness. “I suppose I haven’t tried baking when I’m stressed because I’m a sucker for batter, which I have no shame in admitting that. Since these cookies are great, if you ever have time, could you show me how to make some? Win-win for us because we can eat them after too.”

Dani grinned as Marina took a bite. Having people enjoy her food was one of Dani’s favorite feelings. “Ugh, I totally understand. Batter is delicious. Sometimes I make egg-free cookie dough so I can eat it raw without worrying about salmonella.” She laughed. “I would love to! It’s pretty much just like making sugar cookies that you cover in cinnamon, but I wouldn’t mind showing you at all. It sounds super fun!”

[dani-hayes]

riley-m:

“That is what I said.” Riley nodded, not really understanding why she was repeating her but whatever. “Not yet. Haven’t thought about it yet. I’m just getting used to feeling the wind on my arm.” 

Dani just smiled, far too awkward to acknowledge Riley’s sass. “Well, congratulations. Enjoy the air.”

[dani-hayes]

warrenkenna:

  “Yeah, I just didn’t think people would get it. It can also be a helpful talent to have, when you want to run away from those North End areas. You’re lazy? You don’t strike me as such, honestly.” 

“Tell me about it! I usually bike to and from work, but I had a flat a few weeks ago, and I was walking home super late, and this total creep was following me. Everything ended up okay, but running definitely would’ve come in handy. Well, I wouldn’t say I’m lazy as a person, but my only physical activities are the aforementioned bike rides and walking through the woods. So, like, lazy athletically.”

[deactivated-blog]

“I wish I didn’t have enough to worry about that my life dillemma began and ended with which events I should go to. But you’ll come to find out that most, if not all, events are the same way.”

[dani-hayes]

“My life dilemma?” Dani asked. “What’s that supposed to mean? Like do you not realize you can be frustrated about something without it being your only problem?”

[dani-hayes]

dylanrcarter:

Dylan smiled softly, “It’s okay, I’ve heard much worse than that in my lifetime.” They replied, “I’m a showrunner, actress, writer. Busy workaholic, and loving every moment. How about you?”

“Wait, oh my god!” Dani said, excited. “I’m so dumb. You’re Dylan Carter! I work at Westbooks and we had your memoir on display for like a month.” Dani blushed, embarrassed that she could have a conversation with someone not realizing she was a fan of their work. 

[dani-hayes]

erikljackson:

“Something like that.” He replied, teasingly. “Her brother was just as bad. Both of them can go from zero to a hundred real quick. And the boys definitely pick that up from them. I’d probably be murdered for saying that. But I swear I love them all to death.”

Dani laughed. “Hey, your family doesn’t really love each other if there’s nothing you’d kill each other over.” She smiled. “I should know, my brothers and I spent our childhood trying to murder each other.”

[dani-hayes]

dannywells:

He shrugs because he’s not sure what else to say. In most instances Danny tends go keep silent, opting to be more of a Silent Bob to the many Jays in his life. But it doesn’t always work for people, and he has go adjust accordingly. “Those are important ones. Like ones that remind me to wear pants when I leave the house, I’d never waste them. I learned my lesson.”

Dani smiled. “How do you choose which brain cells to keep? I feel like when I smoke too much I lose the brain cells from a class I took on 12th century poetry, and I’m like ‘fuck, I wanted to keep those, getting a B+ on a lit history class at NYU isn’t easy.’ But they’re gone. And I still have tenth grade calculus, which I definitely don’t need.”

[dani-hayes]

jamesxcampbell:

   “His name is Max”

“Aw, that’s a sweet name! My dog’s name is Walt, after Walt Whitman. I’ll definitely be on the lookout for him.”

[riley-m]

“So you want the good news or the bad news?” She asked, before not even waiting for a response, “good news, no cast on my arm. I am cast free– I am like, wow. So much mobility, let’s not even talk about how much easier it is to shower.” She could have gone on and on. “Bad news however, for like, the population, I have two arms to cause ruckus with. I can’t wait. I’m so excited.” 

[dani-hayes]

“So good news for you, bad news for everyone else?” Dani joked. “Any particular havoc you’re planning on causing?”

[silicasalt]

“— and so then I said, ‘a bicycle can’t stand on its own because it’s… two-tired,’” she grinned broadly as she spoke, gaining just as much satisfaction out of the pun as she had the first time she’d heard it several years prior. “Alright, now it’s your turn.”

[dani-hayes]

Dani giggled. “Okay, I read the Odyssey yesterday. It was an epic night.”

[dani-hayes]

kelly-t:

“I do get it.” He paused, “I just don’t have the same thought process to get to actually going there.” He shrugged, “so I guess I’m saying I understand why other people do it–” another pause, “–barely. I guess.” 

“Okay. I get it. Or I think I do. Oh well,” Dani chuckled. “So, uh... nice weather we got today, huh?”

[dani-hayes]

iggyzackular:

“Tell me about it.” Sighing, she shook her head, her eyebrows furrowed, “I tried to get my mom a ticket and even then I couldn’t get a discount. Like, it’s beyond obnoxious seeing as I put in so many damn hours at that theatre.” Iggy smiled widely, her cheeks turning a pale pink as she began to laugh, “It’s not my turn. You know I haven’t even been kissed, let alone on a damn date. Men don’t really like me.” Iggy placed her hand on Dani’s shoulder and gave her a playful shove, “Oh hush. That’s a lie and you know it. I’ve seen people check you out…” A pause, “plenty.” 

“Sometimes the date comes before the kiss. Haven’t you ever heard people talk about whether or not they kiss on the first date? That’s because to some people, kissing is a bigger deal than a date,” Dani said, her tone teasing. “I do not know that. When? When did this happen? Why didn’t you tell me? And saying that men don’t like you is just ridiculous. Guys hit on you in front of me all the time and you just don’t flirt back.”

[dani-hayes]

madison-bridges:

“Can you expand a bit, please?” Madison asked, raising her eyebrows. “I haven’t heard a whole lot about this. What do you mean?”

“Well, for starters, they trademarked the name. Which is a sketchy thing for a non-profit to do. But mostly, it’s the fact that they’re paying big-name, cishet musicians five figures and refusing to pay local queer artists. And that’s fucked up.

[dani-hayes]

tonyangello:

“Ahh thank you very much I’ll take that as a compliment, but I’m not looking my best right now. Too busy working to shave. ME? in a crop top? are you sure? Having said that, I went to Pride a few years ago with some work friends and we dressed in drag ha haha.”

“Oh, I’m sure,” Dani laughed. “That’s awesome! I love drag. I’ve never done it myself, unless you count wearing my brothers’ hand-me-downs. But I definitely think men should wear skirts more often.”