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All my life I’ve tried to be someone others can follow, even though life can sometimes be a tough pill to swallow. Life is a battle and we all are soldiers. I believe that the biggest and most difficult battles goes to the strongest soldier to carry. I’ve always been the type who smiles just to hide the pain and being others sunshine even when it rained. I am the candle that’s been burning my whole life just so I can give others the light they need. I believe what we expect least from a person is what we’ll get. I’ve got all these people around me, but I still feel lonely. I talk and chat with them everyday, but I still feel like they don’t know me. I think god left me a long time ago and the devil is scared of me. My actions show who I truly am and my words proves who I truly want to be. If they are not there when I starve, I’ll still share my platter with them when I eat. They say when you expect nothing, you’ll get everything, but I guess that’s never been my destiny

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Alienation the worst kind of loneliness How can you claim to love a woman Yet make her feel this? Alienation You're always in defense Of things created in your head All which are senseless You complain day in and day out Never appreciate anything life is about It pains me to walk away But how can I stay? You live in a past life Trying to somehow fix it Or make it right Something I cannot do I must move on without you My happiness is not about who Or you It's about me And only me I feel like I'm drowning and cannot breathe I give and give You take and take When did you become my biggest mistake?

My girls screamin' "You don't need him, you should leave him" "He's an asshole, move on past him" "He's fugazi, drives you crazy" But he's my bambino That means baby Could never leave him I'm just as crazy Trying to change him Make him see That I need him to respect me Like I do myself They say treat others how you want to be treated I say "statazit" Things aren't always how they seem How can you know how to treat someone unless you know what it is they need? #drc

What If...

What if... Two words I hear too much Not from just me, But the whole damn bunch What if he could be better? The question is like trying to change the weather Impossible Out of your control Sit around and watch the clouds roll Because he will never change Never will he act his age Always will he call you names Make you feel like you're deranged What if I never used? Walked my life in perfect shoes Never picked up any drug Could be high off my mothers love Why would I even contemplate? Such a crazy accolade That's not my story Will never be So what if is pointless to me Yet, I ask again What if? What could have been? But I must slow down Breathe, Stop and look around It's not about what didn't happen Yet about what did From all the way as a little kid That is why I'm here today To tell you to put away Those two words you always say What if? Has gone away Today I chose to give my love To those I feel deserving of Instead of hoping he will grow I work on me and my glow I walk proudly in MY shoes Embrace the fact that I have used It brought me where I am today Telling you to stray away From the what ifs And could have beens Or the world will happen while you pretend #drc

Dream relationship A perfect pair of two I had never been so happy Then I found you A fairytale love affair Warm summer nights Our friends all behind us Everything so right A short romance is what was predicted Their high on the moment, it won't last Seven years later we have an interesting past It creeped up on us Took us by surprise A little devil upon us One with no eyes A demon of sorts Which we became slaves to He took us from me and you A mystical creature is not to which I refer But a little blue pill and an addiction to occur Ripped us apart, made us enemies Fucked with our brain and dropped us to our knees Helpless young adults with nowhere to turn So ignore the issue is what we would learn You turned into that devil Me that demon too We began to do things we said we'd never do The things we said still stick so freshly in my mind So terrible to each other, yet so in love at the same time The years went by and we tried and tried To make things last I was dying slowly You filled with rage We wanted to hold on to those perfect days I left and returned Not once but twice I just couldn't say goodbye To a friend I always knew He was under there And would emerge too Killed that demon eventually Stuck it in the heart But sadly too much damage is still keeping us apart We can be us I tell myself I love him through and through I guess I like to talk out loud To make it all sound true You'll always be my first and favorite Regardless if theirs someone new I'm scared to live without you It seems like something I cannot do Goodbye my lover Goodbye my friend This is our last stop The story has to end The ride is over The lights have shown That it is something we've simply outgrown Don't you think I don't love you for a second of your time Or that I stayed around just to live off of your dime I just can't watch me and you Do what my parents do Cus that little demon Will come back through And not just for us But our children too I'll see you again one day And maybe you'll approach me And thank me for it all Or maybe you'll be mad And say I dropped the ball Either way we'll be okay and move on with our lives Cus nothing good last forever Right? #drc

you told me you loved me filled me with joy builded me up, made me your prize gave me everything I was always looking for infatuated with one another but still wanting more

passion turned to aggression infatuation to obsession protection to jealousy suggestive to controlling a relationship flipped upside down

terrorized by your insecurities terrorized by my own terrorized by my thoughts you always made it known that I was a fool for all of my goals when really you were for having none of your own

in order to love me you must love yourself its the one thing you must do above anything else without self-love all else fails

easy it will not be but anything challenging is worth value, to me a difficult journey lies ahead for you and me both but willing I am’ self-love, assurance and respect are three important things you should never forget I’m sending you off go now, you must begin it doesn’t mean goodbye… its hello all over again

you want to remind me of all my mistakes you want me to live with it constantly in my face you want me to baste in the past you want me to feel like I have no class you want me to feel the consequences you want me to live in constant repentance

What was the crime you ask? sleeping with another man behind your back a man you called a friend a man I had never slept with a man who I did not love a man who made me feel deserving of you are hypocrite in so many ways you were unfaithful before my days shot for shot is not the game after all of this, nothing was the same but let me remind you some things you often forget starting with I don’t choose to live in regret

I refuse to be reminded of all my mistakes I did live with it constantly in my face you’re entitled to baste in the past you can feel angry, but I refuse to be harassed I did feel the consequences of self- doubt and feeling confident-less I did repent for the things that I did but more importantly did you ask me to forgive? a question I’ll leave for you to answer in reality its not something I’m after i’ve moved on so far from all of that but you remain stuck in all of that crap that is where we disconnect because I’m the only one who put it under the rug and swept

#d.r.c.

Forgot to leave you guys a song on my last post! Love this one xo

It begins and ends with ourselves. As women we often are so busy tending to everyone else's needs we often forget to tend to our own. Take today to center yourself and figure out what it is you need and don't be afraid to ask for it!!! 💕

Hey guys! Crazy busy day yesterday sorry I couldn't write but Happy belated Women's Day to my badass ladies xo Just wanted to drop this article here that I wrote the other day! Just something fun, keeping it light today. I've decided that I'm gonna recommend a song for you guys everyday so in honor of this article everyone bump Eminem's "Despicable". Talk soon Xo D

What you put out into the world is always going to come back around. Imagine yourself doing something and it will come to fruition. If you put negative energy out, negative things will come. Nothing in life can stop you from achieving your goals, anything is attainable if you really want it.

Real quick guys, just wanted to leave the link of a recent article I wrote on a topic near and dear to my heart. Addiction is always a sensitive and controversial topic but one that I foresee me touching on again after this article. There is so much new information on Addiction and I want to provide you guys with whatever I can as I come across it.

https://www.slantnews.com/story/2016-03-06-how-we-can-cure-addiction-with-community

talk soon xo

Hi everyone!!

Hey my loves! Thanks so much for stopping by to hear me rant ;) This blog is going to be a means to discuss any topic you can think of! I am excited to share my views with you guys and hear from you as well. I’d love if you guys offered up some topics and I’ll do my best to always keep you wanting more. I am always interested in learning more and more so I’m always researching topics even if they do not relate to me at all. I see my entries varying greatly from the most serious topics to the most insignificant ones.

Talk soon xo

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