I faltered in the last session of this where there was no turning back, so it´s not perfect...oops. I got emotional. I've forgiven myself, and years ago I made a vow to myself to always finish things I start because that's important to me. The truth is, I can do hyperrealism, that´s not actually the agitation. Hyper realistic drawings are a much different ride. Which just to prove my point to myself will likely be what my mind wants to do next... The fear of perfect expectations stems from trauma...because... I don't want to disappoint anyone... I wasn't a good enough daughter to save my mother. I wasn't perfect enough to save the men I love. I wasn't perfect enough when I showed up for you when you asked. I wasn't perfect enough for you to show up for me when I asked... and it goes on and on until I'm usually far enough into nature where there's no judgement and I can finally just cry for hours because holy sh&% is it a lot to carry around, being perfect. So here's the non-perfect version, becoming the perfect version.... • • • • • #sketch #draw #pencil #sketchbook #instaart #painting #compassion #timelapse #southwest #colored #timelapsevideo #artsy #pencildrawing #paintparty #artoftheday #igsouthwest #creative #instaartist #graphic #artclass #artwalk #paper #drawer #drawings #paint #coloredpencils #watercolor #paints (at Sedona, Arizona) https://www.instagram.com/p/CIUPqnVg2hy/?igshid=1m566d8jaul6













