look at his big hands. fuck fuck fuck. no matter which size you are - this man grabs your ass and will bounce you up and down his cock until you’re a fucking mess.
Warnings - minor spoilers for the manga. Also making out and almost sex so **MDNI**
Synopsis - This beach trip brings up feelings that Enjin had tried to keep down (highkey inspired by Lay All Your Love On Me from Mamma Mia)
It wasn’t every day that everyone had some time off. After almost an entire month straight of everyone doing multiple jobs a day, Corvus decided that we needed a break. The jobs slowed down a lot and to make sure everyone could relax, he called in a few members from other branches to cover.
“Who’s going in which car?” Gris asked, turning to the crowd behind him. We all stood in the garage, preparing for the long trip ahead of us. After all, we were going to the beach which was about a three day drive. Chatter filled the air as people began deciding where to sit. An arm fell around my shoulders, making me look up.
“What do you say you use your shoes to get the two of us there faster?” It was Enjin. He wore a smile as he pulled me closer.
“Fuck no, I’d collapse half way through that run.”
“Nonsense, you’re way stronger than that and if you run then we can be there two days earlier!” I laughed a little with a roll of my eyes.
“Don’t be stupid.” Semiu spoke, removing his arm from me and wrapping hers around my waist. “You can’t take my baby away. Plus, you’ll over work the poor woman. This is supposed to be a break.” I laughed at the nickname, being used to her calling me all sorts of things. Though, I didn’t know that she did it to piss Enjin off. To Semiu, his crush on me was the most obvious thing ever. She wasn’t really sure how I hadn’t caught on yet.
“Ugh, don’t be like that.”
“I’m not being like anything.” She began to walk away as she spoke, leaving Enjin jokingly annoyed behind us.
“I’m assuming we’re gonna be sitting together?” I asked.
“Obviously. Who else would I talk to for three whole days?” With that, we got in Bros car with Dear and Guita. Aka, the calmest car.
The ride was long and there was only so much we could talk about for three days together with no other form of entertainment, meaning I ended up sleeping a lot. Dear was leaned into me to be more comfortable and I fell onto Semius shoulder. She looked down at me and the child as a thought popped into her head. She grabbed her phone and snapped a picture of us before sending it to Enjin, knowing it would make him jealous. Before she could even lock her phone, it started to ring. She turned the volume down before answering it and bringing it to her ear.
“What the fuck Semiu! Why would you send that to me?!” He was yelling over loud music, Riyo and Amo singing along, and an argument in the back that sounded like Rudo and Zanka while Fu tried to get them to stop. She was so glad she wasn’t in that car right now.
“Hello? To make you jealous, obviously.” It was said as if it were the most obvious thing ever and, honestly, it was.
“That’s so not fair! First you take her from my car and now you do this?! Do you hate me or something?!! I’ve never done anything to you!”
“I’m hanging up now.”
“Send me more-“ He tried to yell, but was cut off when she dropped the call. Her eyes drifted back over towards me and Dear. With a small chuckle she took a few more pictures to have as leverage over the blonde man.
“You really are evil sometimes.” Bro laughed from the front seat.
“Just think of it as insurance.” She laughed, looking out the window again.
Soon enough, we made it to the small beach house. I stretched after helping Dear and Guita get out of the car. The other cars began to show up with Enjins being the last one. When he stepped out, he looked frazzled and annoyed.
“You took your sweet time.” Semiu spoke, looking at the tired man after grabbing her bag.
“Don’t even. Rudo made us pull over so many times to piss and Fu got sick a few hours ago. God, I’m so done. I’m not driving back. Someone else is going to.” I laughed and he thought he had never heard a prettier noise after the chaos these last three days.
“Go inside and lay down, okay?” I spoke softly. “I’ll get your bags. I’m also gonna make drinks and dinner later after I go to the store.”
“Let me know when you’re about to head out. I’ll drive you.” He casually said while moving past me. As much as he wanted to deal with the bags himself so I didn’t have to, he physically couldn’t. That was a drive from hell and he seriously needed to lay down. A part of him wanted to ask me to lay down with him, but thanks to Semiu, he knew that I had been sleeping the entire drive and probably was antsy to move around. So he kept his request to himself. He took a second to look around before finding a random room and flopping down onto the bed. He hadn’t even realized that he fell asleep until someone was shaking him awake. It took him a second to adjust as he opened his eyes to see me leaning over him.
“Hey, you told me to wake you up before going to the store. Did you still wanna go or do you wanna sleep more?” It was like he was looking at an angel. Maybe he died and this was heaven or something. The beach behind me was beautiful and there was a breeze from the open balcony door that pushed my hair a bit. I was in more comfortable beach clothes now and they were showing more skin than usual.
“Did I die?” The question came out before he could stop it. It made me laugh.
“The fuck? No? Why?”
“You just looked like an angel.” I rolled my eyes, but he didn’t miss the slight blush on my cheeks.
“Yeah, yeah. Just answer my question. Do you wanna come to the store with me or no?”
“Yeah, I’ll meet you at the car. I gotta piss first.” He was already standing up as he said that.
“Ugh, you could have said that any other way.”
“Yeah, but you still laughed.”
“Cause you caught me off guard. I’ll be in the car.” With that, I left. Enjin walked into the bathroom and took a second to look at himself. He had never been more awkward with a woman than he was with me. Honestly, he was kicking himself a little at how not smooth he was being.
It didn’t take long till we were at the store. He pushed the cart as I grabbed stuff and lead us around. A thought popped into his head as we walked through the old store. We could do things like this every day if he just said how he felt. He wouldn’t have to worry about meaningless things if he could just get himself to say three simple words. Yet the thought scared him. For as much as he loved this moment - as much as he liked me - he was worried.
Worried that he couldn’t be who I would want him to be.
No, not who I would want. He was worried that he couldn’t be who he knew I deserved to be with. Commitment was scary and he had never been with someone as more than hookup partners. Hell, he wasn’t even friends with the women he slept with. They really were only hookup partners, and he used to have a few at the same time so he always had someone to call when needed. He had no idea how I would react if I found out about that. Even now, he would occasionally go out just to get off. Though, as much as he hated to admit it, all he ever thought about during those nights was me. He wished I was the one under him instead of some random person he would never see again. He wanted to hear all the sounds that he could get me to make. To feel me under his hands. He wanted to help me wash up after, hold me in his arms, and wake up with me still there the next day. But did he want anything after that? I deserved more than just that, and he knew it. He knew it was the reason that Semiu wouldn’t dare mention his feelings to me even if it would be entertaining for her to see him all flustered. Maybe I would hate him if I knew more about him.
“Hello? Ground to Enjin.” The waving of my hand in front of his face startled him a little, finally bringing him back to reality and out of his thoughts. “What are you thinking so hard about? I’ve asked you for help like three times.” It was that exact look that I was currently giving him that made his thoughts jumble the way they currently were. My expression was soft and my smile made his chest warm.
“Oh shit, sorry. What did you need help with?” I gave him a skeptical look, eyes squinting a bit.
“Answer my question, Enjin. What were you thinking about?”
“Nothing,” he tried to play it off giving me a smirk and just repeated his question. There was a small pause.
“Which chips do we get? I don’t know what Rudo likes.” The shopping spree continued on like normal after that and we eventually made our way back to the house. I cooked with the help of Bro, Fu, and Amo while Enjin, August, and Delmon played with the rest of the kids to hopefully get all their energy out for the night. We wanted to have an adults only night tonight after all and it was no easy task getting them to easily go to sleep. They were still Cleaners after all.
Dinner came and went and the day turned to night. The ten of us were sitting by the water with our drinks. It was nice. The stars above were beautiful. This was one of the only places that we knew of to see them through the smog since the ocean and overgrown nature kept this land pretty clean. I sat next to Enjin and just leaned my head on his shoulder. Neither of us said anything. I could feel him take a deep breath in before smoke came pouring from his lips. Normally I would hate the smell, but I didn’t seem to mind when it came from him and mixed with his cologne.
“I think I’m gonna turn in for the night.” I said, pulling myself away from him and standing up. He watched me leave, not saying anything, while taking another drag. I walked up to my room, knowing I was sharing with Enjin. All the other places were filled up by the time I made my way inside and it wasn’t like I minded. Quite the opposite in fact. Once inside, I showered and did my nightly routine. Just as I was getting dressed, something caught my eye. It was Enjins open suitcase. The hoodie that he liked to wear sat on top. I bit my lip while staring at the fabric, just thinking.
Surely we were close enough for me to wear his clothes. I mean, we have been friends for years now… Maybe he would get mad at me? After all, I’ve never taken his stuff before so I didn’t know how he would react. I turned to look through my suitcase, deciding it was better not to do it without asking.
By the time I was laying in the king sized bed, his hoodie was comfortable on me. It smelled like him and was so extremely comfortable. I could see why it was his favorite. Was his favorite, as in he’s not getting it back until it no longer smells like him. I don’t think I had ever fallen asleep as fast as I did that night.
I woke up to something heavy on me. Looking down, I saw it was Enjin. I was on my back and he had me in his arms, head resting on my chest as our legs tangled together. For a second, I just blinked. Then, my hand came up to his hair and I began to gently scratch at his scalp. He let out a content sound while pushing his head further into me. I pulled my hand away, thinking that I accidentally woke him up. He reached up and placed it back on his head.
“Don’t stop.” The words were almost incoherent, but I understood what he meant. His voice was so deep. My chest fluttered a bit. “I can hear your heart, you know.” That made my face explode in embarrassment.
“Ugh, way to ruin the moment.” My other hand pressed against his face to push him away. He didn’t even fight me and just laughed while I stood up. He sat up, pushing his hair out of his face even though it fell right back to where it was. I took a mental note of how attractive he was with his hair down like this.
“There’ll be plenty more moments since we’re rooming together.” His eyes looked me up and down. “You look good by the way. Feel free to wear it whenever you want.” Looking down, I had completely forgotten that I took his hoodie which only made me more embarrassed. As I quickly made my way to the bathroom, I ripped it from my body before throwing it at him. He only saw a single glimpse of my bare back before the door slammed shut. He took a second to hold the fabric before bringing it to his face and smelling it, catching the scent of my soap and the little bit of perfume that stuck to my body even after I showered. It was a smell he could really get used to.
Today was spent down at the beach with everyone. Tamsy and Semiu sat at the shore while the rest of us played in the water. The sun was warm but the water kept us cool. Enjin couldn’t help but sneak in a few glances at me. This was the first time he had seen me in my swim gear. It was also the first time he had seen this much skin on me. It was doing something to him, but he tried to ignore it.
“Let’s play chicken!” Riyo called out after getting bored of just swimming around. “I got Enjin!” She instantly claimed, arm bumping his. The two shared a smirk thinking they were gonna win. The group began to quickly pair up and with my first choice already in a team, I went to my second choice.
“Gris! You and me?!” I called out, catching the mans attention. He turned and smiled at me.
“Hell yeah! There’s no way we’d loose.” We swam closer to each other. “I feel like it’s pretty obvious but I’ll hold you up.”
“Sounds good to me!” With that, he dipped under water and turned away from me, allowing me to place my legs on his shoulders before he stood back up. I was higher than I thought I would be, making me giggle and place my hands on his head.
“Forward!” I demanded and Gris laughed and joined the group. Enjin watched from the corner of his eye as a foreign feeling began to eat at him. He didn’t like the way Gris and I casually spoke or the way his hands were placed on my thighs as if they belonged there. The entire scene was too comfortable. I was too okay with the proximity.
“Are you jealous?” Riyo asked quietly with a smirk that said she would use this as leverage later.
“No. Don’t be ridiculous. What’s there to even be jealous over?” Her eyes lingered on him for a minute before letting it go and getting on his shoulders to start the makeshift tournament.
It came down to me and Gris against Riyo and Enjin. We stood in front of each other.
“You’re so going down.” Riyo said with the widest smile I have ever seen from her.
“In your dreams.” With that, the round started. Riyo and I were both fast and nimble, targeting the others weakest spots and trying to find the perfect time to strike and make the team unbalanced. But Enjin and Gris were both strong and kept us steady very well. My eyes shifted down to Enjin. We made eye contact for a second before I smirked, kicking his shoulder to push him over.
“That’s cheating!” Riyo accused.
“There is no cheating! We just have to knock you over!” I felt a weight shift under me. Enjin must have kicked Gris’s feet out from under him because I was underwater before I could realize what happened. I couldn’t help the gasp as I was taken under. Water filled my lungs and the shock made me struggle to find my footing even though the water wasn’t that deep. Strong hands were placed on either side of my ribs and quickly lifted me from the water.
“Hey, you okay?!” Gris’s worried voice filled my ears as I began to cough. He placed his hand on my back.
“I’m good! Water down the wrong pipe.” I managed to choke out through my coughs. I was still smiling regardless of the sting in my throat because despite the small incident, I had a lot of fun. Riyo was at my side next, spewing apologies that I just brushed off. Truly, there was nothing to be sorry about.
Enjin felt that feeling from earlier come back ten fold. It gnawed at him at the sight of Gris helping me. My hand met the older mans shoulder and I smiled, saying something about how I was okay and that they didn’t need to worry. He wished he was the one who helped me. He wanted to fuss over me like that, to make sure I was okay even after such a small incident. Seeing Gris be that person for me right now instead of him filled him with a type of rage that he hadn’t known existed. It was unlike when he was a kid or when he was fighting against raiders. He saw me pull away from the group and began to follow me.
“Hey-“
“I gotta get something to drink. Can you hold that thought?” It wasn’t meant to be mean, but it stung him.
“O-oh, yeah.” He kind of just watched as I made my way back to the shore, chatting with Semiu and Tamsy as I downed a water bottle. Zanka called him over, breaking his concentration and bring him back to reality. He seemed to be zoning out more and more recently.
Eventually, everyone parted. Enjin and I were the last two on the shore in the beach chairs that everyone had set up. Truly, it was hard to focus on my book with the man right next to me. He wore only his swim trunks, showing off his tattoos and chest, and his hair was down and messy from the salt water. Every time I began to get into my book, he shifted in his seat and took my attention back to him. After an hour of trying to read, I gave up and closed the book with a sigh. Enjin peeked one of his eyes open at the sound, watching as I crawled out of my chair and towards the cooler full of snacks and drinks. I was too lazy to get up and walk over. He bit his lip at the sight.
“D’you want a drink?”
“Yeah, grab me a beer?” I didn’t respond, just grabbed the can and leaned backwards till my back hit his legs. Looking up with my head on his thighs, I lifted the beer. There was a moment where he just stared at me as I rested against him. It took all his effort to not get hard at the sight. He took the beer and looked away while taking a sip. His resolve was cracking more and more the longer I stayed between his legs. This was something he didn’t know he was into. Having me sit between his legs where he could always reach me and protect me if need be. I mean, after all, I didn’t have my Jinki with me right now and while he obviously knew I could hold my own without it, just the thought of me using him to keep myself safe really did something to his heart. The last bit of his self restraint vanished when he felt me lean my head more onto his thigh while wrapping an arm around his shin.
“Fuck, (Y/n). I’m sorry. I like you.” It came out before he could stop it. His hand covered his face so he couldn’t see me, but he could feel my muscles tense.
“What?” I turned to look at him, seeing the bright red that covered his neck and ears.
“I like you.” It was quieter this time. I shifted to be facing him before taking his hand in mine and making him look at me. I wasn’t sure what face I was making right now, but whatever it was surprised Enjin.
“Say it again.” He had never seen me look so aw struck before, as if this was the best moment of my life. It gave him a bit more confidence.
“I like yo-“ My lips crashed against his before he could finish. I let go of his hand so I could hold his face with both of mine. There was a moment where he was frozen, eyes wide, as he processed what was happening. As soon as it all clicked, he wrapped his hands securely around my waist and pulled me flushed against his chest. The kiss was warm and exactly what I wished for it to be. Enjin slowly shifted out of his chair till we were both kneeling on the sand. He brought a hand to the back of my head while slowly laying me down. One of my hands laced through his hair while the other moved to the back of his neck.
His body pressed against mine once we were both laying down. We parted for a second to take a few deep breaths. Our eyes met. There were so many unspoken emotions swirling around in them. We just leaned back in, deciding right now wasn’t the time to talk about them. His inked hands began to explore the exposed skin of my body. A small sound escaped my lips. My skin was sensitive to touch to begin with, but it was even worse when his fingers lingered on my lower stomach. I twitched a bit, trying to get away from him.
“Fuck, you’re sensitive even here?” He mumbled on my lips, pulling back just enough to get a good look at me. My hair was partly dry and full of salt water. The swimsuit I wore had shifted a bit during our little make out session, making it obvious what we were doing. I was a little sunburned from all the time in the sun. He looked to where his hand laid against my skin on my lower stomach. God, I had never looked better than I did right now. I nodded at his question, bringing my arm all the way up to fully hook around his neck.
“I’m sensitive where ever you touch me.” With that he crashed his lips to mine again. His hands explored my entire body now. From my neck all the way down to my knees. He only stopped there because that was as far as he could reach without breaking the kiss. He made a note to explore the rest later. He took note of how I twitched under him no matter where he touched. I was telling the truth. I really was sensitive where ever he touched. That only made him more excited.
“I need you.” He mumbled, lips trailing down to my neck. “I’ve needed you for so long. You’re all I’ve thought about.”
“I need you too. Please, Enjin.” The words were pleading and it snapped something in him, making him bite down hard on my neck. The suddenness of it drew a gasp/moan from me. He wanted-no, needed-to hear more of my sounds. His tongue dragged over where he just bit before leaving little kisses. Just as he was about to leave another bite, a voice called out.
“(Y/n)!” Rudo yelled, making the two of us jump and pull apart. The boy was running over with a few of the other teens and kids. We just barley had enough time to make ourselves look normal before they were close enough to actually see us. Enjin had to sit down in his chair again with a towel on his lap, face burning red from embarrassment at being interrupted right now.
“H-hey, what’s up? I thought you guys were gonna be gone longer?” They came up to stand in front of me as I kneeled in the sand with a towel haphazardly thrown around my neck.
“We made sandcastles. You gotta judge which is the best.” He said. There was a sparkle in his wide eyes. He didn’t have the usual wrinkles between his eyebrows. He must have been really excited about this. Dear, Guita, Riyo, Amo, and Fu all stood behind him with equally excited faces. I glanced at Enjin, who wasn’t looking at any of us, before standing up.
“Okay, show me where they are.” The kids cheered and Rudo grabbed my hand before pulling me over to where ever they had been for the last few hours. A small ache weighed on my heart as I glanced at Enjin one last time only to see he was now looking at me too. This was a really bittersweet moment. I wished we didn’t get interrupted because I wanted to continue what Enjin and I were doing, but I have also never seen Rudo look this happy before and I wanted to encourage this behavior from him. He’s still a kid after all. Besides, Enjin and I would have plenty of time together later today.
At least, that’s what I thought. The time seemed to tick by slowly. Dinner eventually came and went, but Enjin seemed to keep his distance from me. I even tried to sit next to him during dinner, but he just sat at the kids table and excused himself first after finishing his food. He wouldn’t even meet my eyes as he passed by me to head outside. I hadn’t seen him since then. It hurt a bit. Maybe he was regretting what he said earlier? Maybe he wished to simply pretend it never happened to begin with. I stood under the shower, unsure what to do. What if he didn’t come back to sleep? Was I a bad kisser? Did he not enjoy it as much as I did? Frustrated tears began to swell up in my eyes and I bit my lip to try and stop them from falling.
The sound of the door caught my attention. I peaked my head out, thinking I imagined it, only to be surprised by the sight of Enjin undressing in the middle of the small room.
“E-Enjin, wait. I’m still showing!” I choked out. He glanced up at me.
“So I can’t join?” There was a second of silence as we just stared at each other before I quickly hid my face behind the curtain. “Is that a yes or a no? I’m gonna need a verbal answer, baby.” His voice was so smooth. It sounded like he was just on the other side of the curtain. That was the only thing separating us right now, separating him from seeing me completely naked.
“Yes, you can.” I spoke. He waisted no time in pulling the curtain to the side and climbing in next to me, quickly pulling in closed.
“Why don’t we pick up where we left off?” His arm wrapped around me and our lips clashed together. I pushed him away just a bit, shocked at his actions. He quickly let go, a confused look on his face. “What? Do you not want to anymore?”
“Wha…I thought you didn’t want to?” He looked even more confused now.
“What gave you that impression?”
“You haven’t talked to me, or even looked at me, since the beach? I though you were regretting it?”
“Huh? Why would I regret that? I couldn’t look at you because I would have jumped you if I did.” We both kind of just stood there for a second, processing what the other had said, before laughing.
“Oh my god, you have no idea how relieved I am that you don’t regret confessing to me.” His arms wrapped back around me.
“You know, you haven’t said you if like me back or not. You can’t keep a man waiting like this.” His lips found the other side of my neck, starting to suck a symmetrical hickie into my skin.
“Maybe if you stopped using me like a chew toy I’d give you an answer.” He pulled back before resting his forehead against mine.
“Well? I’m waiting.” My arms went to his shoulder and hands into his sandy hair.
“I like you too, Enjin.” Our lips met again.
“You have no idea how happy I am to hear that.” His hands drifted from my waist to my thighs, lifting one to wrap around his hips before lifting the other so I would’t have to jump. He pressed my back against the wall, making our chests press together too. A groan fell from his lips as he felt my entire body press against his.
“So are we gonna go out or are we just fuck buddied?” The thought of just being fuck buddied stung me even though I was the one who said it. Though, I knew he was scared of something deeper than that. I didn’t blame him. Our jobs made it hard to comfortably get close to others since we always risked our lived. That plus the little bit of his past that I knew made me feel a bit more okay with the idea of waiting for him to want more than a hookup partner.
“Not a chance in hell we are just fuck buddied. I need all of you and I refuse to share.” He mumbled, pulling back a bit to look me in the eyes. There was so much sincerity and care in them. “But let me take you on a few dates before I ask you out, okay? I gotta court you properly, show you that I can be a good boyfriend and shit.” Those words just made me laugh.
“Ironic since we are about to have sex before our first date. That’s not really something a typical boyfriend would do.”
“I never said anything about typical, and it isn’t sex. I’m gonna make love with you.” That stirred something in me. His lips met mine again, swallowing a moan from his words. I pulled him closer, feeling how hard he was under me. “By the way,” He pulled apart again, loving the way I chased his lips a bit. “Don’t ever get on Gris’s shoulders again. I’ve never felt more jealous than I did seeing his hands on your thighs.” I laughed again.
“Don’t worry, your hands will be the only ones touching my thighs from now on.”
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