It’s been a while, which I’m sure you’re aware of. I’d like to say that it was your decision alone to keep this distance, but I think we both know it was for the best. I’d like to say that I’m glad you are well, but as we both know I have absolutely no idea how you are. The one thing that can definitely be said is that when we cut our ties we sliced right through until we no longer remember how to find each other. It’s amazing to think that once we were inseparable, the best of friends. I have the urge to call you and text you but then i know its only going to annoy you and make me look weak. I know if you wanted anything to do with me you would come chasing after me and just for once in my life i would have someone fight for me. Im no longer going to sit here and beg you not leave me or pour my heart out to you because every time I’m left standing there with my heart on my sleeve and each time you walk away it hurts that little bit more. So I’m up off my knees baby, I’m tired of being lonely and i obviously can’t give you what you need anymore. I no longer have to live this way.
Thankyou for the memories my boy. Im glad i can look back at them now and also smile but at the same time those memories i cherish so much are now my worst enemies. Everything was just easier with you around me, i was happy and i thought you were to. But it is better knowing i no longer have to abandon my friends and i can talk to other guys without you getting mad at me for nothing.
You can’t be forgotten because forgetting you would be like forgetting myself ,impossible. But then again, maybe you are right. Maybe we are better off as far apart as possible. We know we aren’t right for each other. We know it would never work, and we know the friendship we have (or had) created a bond that would make slipping back into romance too easy. It would make repeating the same mistakes too likely, repeating the same heartbreak certain. It’s not my heart that I’m worried about, but yours. I know it sounds ridiculous considering you have broke me to pieces 3 times now
So im letting you go because its honestly to much pain to handle, why should i love a man i have to share. When you said forever i guess you only meant until you found another girl to run to.
So all that I can do is wish you the best. Wish you a great, bright, loving future. Wish you to find the lover of your dreams and to create a lifetime of happiness but dear god once you find this girl you better move mountains for her mr . I hope you look at her like you looked at me all these years and i hope you tell her she looks beautiful and cry when you see her in a formal dress just like you did for me. Just don’t screw it up. I wish for you to find a friend as great as me, but a much better partner. One who won’t drag you through the mud. One who you won’t feel the need to make you jealous. I wish you all the best and although you will never read this, although we may not speak to each other or a while, and although you are out of my life I wish you nothing short of happiness. A part of me will always love you!
love always unfortunately your ex
