dannysdead

[dannysdead]

I thought I was going to lose my best friend today. I wasn’t ready to lose myself, to lose him. I pray for you always. On a rainy day like today, before the decade ends, oh . Like a story, like a play, like a movie. One foot dangling off the roof is what you told me, waiting for the wind to push you over. You probably felt everything in the world today, a kid I haven’t talked to in 5 years had reached out to me to break that news to me. Life .. life, this is real. This is bigger than me, this is gods work, or is it? I don’t know anymore. God if you hear me, hold my brother high. Bring light to our lives, shed your good graces for us. We good, but we could always need it. God , I know you hear me. This is my version of prayer. I love you Matt, never forget that.

10:49pm

12-30-19

[dannysdead]

To you

Happy birthday. I don’t have in me to hit directly, lucki, days before III was controlling the day. What to do? Love

9:42pm

11/26

[dannysdead]

Much better lifestyle since the last post ! Stop having this feed be so negative, I could be happy too hahaha. I’m working now with a job and am happy, we good! I can smell the future, this project will keep me exactly where I want to be. Love ya ! ❤️❤️❤️❤️ TIL

[dannysdead]

I do love Jesus, I think I said that phrase so many times ironically or not that it is my holy truth. I like knowing I can depend on Jesus even if he is not real, I like to think he’s real in my mind. I believe he’s watching over me, even when it feels differently. I’m searching for one to call my green girl, I’ve been hurt too many times - I will live with a smile. It’s the best thing I can do - lord I know life is going to work out. I’m a happy man, in a lonely world. Okay I’m lonely 😀 ..... I might have gone insane but Is a crazy man aware that he is crazy? Interesting. A big fear of mine is trying to explain to people that I’m not crazy, rather a delicate soul that needs tender care. Is that too much of a task? Possibly so, but I will carry on with my movie. Hello love, I’m speaking to you- not you - my love. Time is over we’re ending time. I can’t think of anything else, I’m yearning for love. A sad man story !!!!! But my truth, and nobody can live my truth. I will smile in the face of the sun I can smell the victory in the air, but I’m clouded. I got a job, I have $6.95 at the time of this. I’m happy I don’t care about money, I’ve listened to the same song 60 times today on repeat. I really am .. just . ____________. When I look back on this I will read with a smile. My heart is warm dear. I am me, I might be able to ramble on forever and make this post never ending. Fuck it. 😀 I will be loved .

11:48pm

6/25/19

[dannysdead]

I lost my words due to marijuana consumption

6/14

10:40pm

Thinking of the love I’ve had in the past, thinking of what love awaits in the future.

Thank you Jesus. Life is going to make sense again soon.... when this project is finished, I don’t know. I will love it. I do know, I will be so happy. This is how I can use my words without having to actually speak. Please. I just want mine. A smiley face for future me reading this. 😀 a smiley face for you reading his. I am happy. (Bored) as (fuck)

[dannysdead]

Usually come to tumblr to post my sad thoughts, how about the change of pace with some happy thoughts.

I am a believer in god, as of recent. I know she is watching over me. She keeps me safe and sound, but she tests me and I love it. Sometimes it’s hard but I know it’s for a higher purpose. I stopped every social media to live in the real world, my dreams of being a famous designer by 22 are gone, happily gone. Being one of these Instagram people is not the life I desire to live, being healthy around my family and good people is how I want to spend my life. I will continue to make my art and it will be more beautiful each time I do something. “Time is over we’re ending time” is what my life has built up for me in 22 years. A short film around my life, struggles, and lessons I’ve learned in the past 2 years. Ever so often I am haunted by a female (unnamed) I wonder why..... ? I keep the love in my heart. I am a lover of everyone :) the earth is my wife, being in a 3rd world country for 3 days, has taught the value of family and if I am true to myself I know god will take care of me and my peoples. (Everyone’s my peoples)

“Make your life count” a simple phrase that I caught on a wall in the country, a simple phrase but insanely powerful to me. Be happy and true to yourself and the rest will be taken care of. When our time comes to help the world, oh lord you’ll see. I know I will make my family and the world proud, I will - WE WILL change the world. I love you world, for now- until we speak again.

7:43am

4/16

Update; I finally passed my own ego.. time to celebrate

12:02pm

[dannysdead]

Forced to fall in love with my art

3/1

[dannysdead]

There’s so many words to say. There’s something I’m searching for. I wanted you to bare with me, what a year. What even is life anymore? Truth be told ... left twitter again because man what the hell even goes on. I’m writing this for you to see ya get me? There’s too many relatable posts and too many jokes. Nothing is serious anymore, it’s wild. What the hell. Can’t even find a great tune these days. Music isn’t the same, only songs with a certain memory and some songs with a certain memory I find hard to listen to. Smoke a joint and cig and that’s 30 minutes of quiet time. I need this feeling back. It’s somewhere but idk where. Making art isn’t the same anymore. I just do it because that’s what I have and am. It’s not the same though. Clothes are better but still. This is growing up ... waoowwwww. Aren’t we all just trying to hold on to our last breath of innocence. I might tweet that but maybe not. It’s 3:37am

11/24

I want to be loved. Thank you.

[dannysdead]

I used to want to die so people would care for me. This is not the case anymore, thank you.

10-15

[dannysdead]

May not be at my happiest point in life, but I feel the need to help once again, insanely stoked on this because helping is what makes me happy. My art makes me happy and when that comes into play you’ll see a smiling young man. My goal is to help the helpless and make the pretty smile. Whoever you are, wherever you are, I serve to please your soul.

10-4

[dannysdead]

I see the light !!!!! I am not the light yet... but I do see it in the distance ❤️ love

10/3

[dannysdead]

Everyone’s dying on my tab

[dannysdead]

Okay maybe had a bad day, but had a good night. Pretty females might be the death of me... but they are the reason I’m alive too..

9/20

[dannysdead]

Really hope I’m not documenting my own downfall.

The irony would be stupid.

I love my family but I don’t want to be here right now.

9/20

[dannysdead]

How long can I distract myself before I lose myself

[dannysdead]

To run from my demons or to face them head on. A thought I will soon find the answer to.

9/15

Feeling better than I did this morning. Bless.

[dannysdead]

My dreams haunted me this morning, I don’t want to sleep and it’s hard to be awake. Today is mixed emotions- hopefully I rise today.

9/15