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[darcy-the-dumbass]

when i was in 7th grade I had finished my english exam early and being bored and having almost an hour left and plenty of left over writing room i got to work writing harry potter fanficition in the back of my 7th grade english exam. The sad part about this story is that the fic was heat, I can't remember exactly but I know it was heat, cause if it wasn't i wouldn't be this traumatised. Anyway we had like 5 mins left and I decided I wanted to take my masterpiece with me to work on at home, but I fucking couldn't because it was my end of year exam and I couldn't rip it out cause that would be suspicious so i had to wave goodbye to one of my best fanfics ever.

(also when we got the exams back for review i still couldn't look at it because my teacher wanted to keep them for future reflection and filing like bro i just want my drarry fanfic PLEASE)

[darcy-the-dumbass]

i have no hope for society

wtf do you mean people are writing yaoi and shipping two serial KILLERS why are we drawing this shit imagine being a victim of these two and this is the stuff you see. It makes me sick that this is the state of the internet rn.

oop lets not forget AESTHETIC PLAYLISTS WHAT THE FUCK

oh, and motherFUCKING YAOI this is so sick.

if you are participating in this “fandom” i want you to know that they’re are living people who have suffered at the hands of these two and i want you to think of that every time you draw them in an anime artstyle or write yaoi about them

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[darcy-the-dumbass]

Rant about Troye Sivan's 'Seventeen'

I wanna go on a little rant about Troye Sivan's song 'Seventeen' and how important it is when it comes to making more people aware of the predatory practices that can be so often exhibited by queer men. I wanna talk about how virginity culture causes people to feel like losing it is something they need to do. I wanna talk about how the fetishizations of twinks as a desirable body type encourages borderline pedophilia and how I think it is an important song for people who have gone through that/know someone who has.

First of lets talk about virginity culture. Here I want to talk about how teenagers can feel forced/pressured to loose their virginity and how for young queer boys this can be dangerous. So obviously a lot of teenagers nowadays are having sex or feeling pressured to according to Colin Allen a teenage psychologist around 1 in 3 boys aged 15-17 feel pressured to engage in sexual activity and for most of these boys I believe they will engage in some consensual heterosexual act, but for queer teenage boys this is a lot harder. Queer people are in the minority that's obvious, so for young queer kids in smaller towns/schools it can feel like there's no option for sex in your age, you can really feel like no one your age is queer or wants to do what you want so that can lead a lot of queer youths (including myself) to seek sexual validation from outside sources e.g. posting lude or explicit photos online looking for praise or like SIvan talks about in this song reaching out to older men who might not have your best intentions at heart to find that sexual release. Obviously virginity culture is not solely responsible for this the changing hormones in young boys bodies causes a higher libido, but I believe peer pressure and viriginity culture are big factors for why this happens.

Ok so now I'm gonna talk about twinks. A twink is defined as a gay or bisexual MAN with a slim build and a youthful appearance, key word there man. Twinks are a very desired body type for a lot of gay men they like the idea of someone small and youthful maybe even a bit more feminine. According to a reddit thread on r/AskGayBros (i know I'm really doing some serious research) a lot of people love the baby faces of twinks and the cuteness/innocence they have. Now a lot twinks try and make themselves look younger to be more appealing to these men and a lot of them look like teenagers, can you see where I'm going, it is really easy for an older teenager example a seventeen-year-old to say they are 18 or 19 or 20 or however old and then having some pretty explicit conversations or doing some pretty explicit things with men who genuinely might not know they are underage (I'm not saying this is true in all cases just some also gay men definitely don't do enough to check people's ages as they should but that's neither here nor there) A study in Argentina interviewing men who had sex with men showed that out of 500 men that were surveyed 18% of the respondents said they had a childhood sexual experience with an older person (CSEOP) and did NOT feel they were hurt by it and 44% of people said they felt threatened, abused, hurt or coerced by their partner this is an issue that I feel we are not talking about enough. The fetishizations of twinks has caused young gay and bi boys to realise that they are sexual desirable, causing some people to lie about their age in order to get a sexual release that in some cases could be very dangerous.

Finally I want to actually talk about the song and how it relates to my personally experience. I was around 14-15 years old when I hate a voluntary sexual experience with someone who was far older than me the man was around 60-70 years old and when I heard the song 'Seventeen' I felt so validated in my experience. I was stupid and dumb, but i realised that other people have had similar experiences. "Age is just a number just like any other" is touted as a common line used by predatory people in order to justify their actions and I think using the predatory language in a song to show it's predatory and make people aware of what it sounds like is so good. "Got something here to lose that I think you wanna take" perfectly displays my first point of boys engaging with predatory men in order to lose their virginity to lose something they are sick and tired of having. I think having a song talking about a predatory person beyond the black and white scope of grooming, i do believe Troye being groomed in this case. But he says in an interview about the song that the original chorus was supposed to be "Here he comes / like he's walked out of a dream / doesn't care that you're 17" but Troye said himself that it sounded 'too predatory' he says that when he looks back on those experiences it's not entirely negative or positive and I think that's the kinda of nuance we need in these conversations AROUND SURVIVORS adults who commit sexual relations with children deserve no nuances, no grace, and no lenience when it comes to this but the survivors might not always look back on these situations with an entirely negative lens I know my situation is incredibly mixed as I felt coerced and encourage to do stuff I shouldn't but also didn't hate do stuff if that makes sense.

In conclusion this whole thing started so that I could say: BRING SOME NUANCE TO THE SURVIVOR DISCUSSION obviously people have horrible sexual assualt and grooming cases that permantely scared them for life and have terrified them for years but people also have not entirely negative experinces

[darcy-the-dumbass]

its so nice to go back to my old hyperfixations and remember everything i used to love and binge

[darcy-the-dumbass]

tf you mean new album arent yall dead

[darcy-the-dumbass]

i am not 16 im fucking 14 and this fuckass age verification said i was 16 like omg

[darcy-the-dumbass]

dude pinterest is such a wholesome social media platform lmg

[darcy-the-dumbass]

this was peak justin bieber idc what yall say

I miss the believe era sm (i was a toddler during it)

I’d give my human rights to go to this tour

[darcy-the-dumbass]

i knew shit was about to go down when i clicked on the city walls mv and i saw it was 9 mins long

[darcy-the-dumbass]

i knew shit was about to go down when i clicked on the city walls mv and i saw it was 9 mins long

[darcy-the-dumbass]

thats my M A N RIGHT THERE

[darcy-the-dumbass]

HELL YEHA JOSH DUN ON VOCALS. I manifested this istg

[darcy-the-dumbass]

Chaeyoung served face card at Lollapalooza

[darcy-the-dumbass]

Wishbone

Nauseous It got me feeling a new kind of sad, like that song is so specific and applicable to my situation

Caramel

Its the kind of song mums will dance to thinking it's a sweet love song but it's actually heart-wrenching.

Romeo

Definitely feels like the center of the album as there are several references to the songs throughout the rest of the album.

My World

My interpretation is that it's about that phase in getting over someone where you're like; I don't care about you anymore, I don't even think about you anymore, but you still can't get them out of your head

Connell

I think this is Conan seeing his love and realising that he's not fully over him and that it still hurts to see him happy. (conspiracy: maybe this woman he talks about is heather)

Sunset Tower

I'm not going to state the obvious and repeat myself, but Conan is not over this love interest and I relate

Eleven Eleven

This has been the one I've been most excited for. He calls back to astronomy with the space metaphors saying "Shooting star on the night we first kissed / Like a sign, if I blink, you'll be missed". This song uses so many supersticious wishing iconography such as four-leaf clovers, eleven-eleven (obviously), wishbones, and heaven numbers. Conan also saying "As much as I act like I want to forget it/ I still wish for you at eleven-eleven". Conan then talks about bad luck symbols in the bridge; black cats, broken glass (mirrors), and cracks in the pavement. Overall this song is so fun to read into more and I'm gonna do a full deep dive into it at some point.

Care

Conan has finally moved on "Life's so much better now that we don't speak.". Nevermind "And I tell myself that I'm over you / But I care, I care, care, care" This could also be talking about how saying "you don't care" about someone after a breakup is unrealistic. Afterall you cared enough about this person to start the relationship, even if they do something to you those feelings aren't just going to vanish. "I’m not trying to say that I want you back but it just a linger in there, ah" is so relatable like Conan wouldn't go back to this person but he still can't fully let go.

Anyway this turned into a much deeper dive into the last three songs. I only expected it to be a couple sentences on my favourites. Maybe I'll write out a proper deep dive after another listen through

[darcy-the-dumbass]

what if we went to a school at night and kissed on the roof of a classroom

[darcy-the-dumbass]

Gang we made a bingo card for my insane teacher

[darcy-the-dumbass]

First time listening to pretty. odd. all the way through and I'd like to say I'm quite annoyed they didn't give Ryan more solo singing in AFYCSO because he's a good singer and when his and Brendon's voices go together it sounds so delicious I wish there was more on fever