Shade Nightslain

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I am a daydreamer and nightthinker.

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[dark-shade121]

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Have you ever:

1) Self harmed?

2) Got into a real fight?

3) Been too depressed to move out of your bed?

4) Tried to commit suicide?

5) Had to lie to EVERYONE about how you felt?

6) Watched an entire season of a TV show in one sitting?

7) Talked yourself out of serious trouble?

8) Accused someone of using you?

9) Shoplifted?

10) Gotten drunk/high?

11) Been to a concert where your favourite artist was playing?

12) Skipped doing homework to play a video game?

(Right now) Are you:

13) Suicidal?

14) Bored?

15) Avoiding someone?

16) Avoiding some task?

17) Depressed?

18) Crying?

19) Annoyed with a friend?

20) Worried and confused about something important to you?

Do you:

21) Get depressed easily?

22) Get jealous/envious easily?

23) Feel listening to music can take your mind off things?

24) Worry about messing about your relationships a lot?

25) Try hard in all your classes at school?

26) Go out drinking?

27) Smoke cigarettes?

28) Smoke weed?

29) Do any hard drugs?

30) If you said yes to 28 but no to 29, Why?

31) Believe in God/Belong to a religion of your own free will?

32) Avoid people you care about because you feel you will only hurt them?

33) Agree that self harm numbs emotional pain?

34) Believe people deserve second chances?

35) Agree with ‘An eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth’? (ignoring the religious relation to that saying)

36) Think things will get better?

37) Feel afraid that you have done wrong and will eventually be punished?

38) (be honest) Do you judge people who think differently to you? (seriously, be honest)

Preference in boyfriend/girlfriend:

39) Long hair OR short hair?

40) (For Girls one) nice smile OR nice abs?

41) (For Guys one) nice smile OR nice chest?

42) Shy OR open?

43) Eyes OR body?

44) Religious OR non-religious?

45) Caring OR non-restricting of you?

46) Straight edge OR non-straight edge?

47) Piercings OR no piercings?

48) Tattoos OR no tattoos?

49) Quiet stay-at-home type OR party type?

50) Has friends you get along with OR has parents you get along with?

Would you:

51) Drink alcohol until you were drunk?

52) Smoke weed?

53) Smoke cigarettes?

54) Get even with someone who betrayed you?

55) Forgive a boyfriend/girlfriend who deeply hurt you?

56) Attempt to kill yourself if everything fails you?

57) Keep your faith (any religious view) no matter what?

58) Join a band as a part time activity?

59) Feel sorry for someone who is being affected negatively from alcohol/drug abuse?

60) Stand up for your beliefs if someone strongly goes against them?

61) Go vegetarian for a month to see what is was like?

62) Fight someone who was harassing your friends/family?

63) Edit photos of yourself before posting them online?

64) Put up with friends who constantly hated against something you believed in/supported?

65) Be friends with someone who was nice to you, but a cunt to other people?

66) Not like someone simply because your friend(s) didn’t like them?

67) Lie to someone close to you because you don’t want them put up with your problems?

68) Starve yourself so you fit some certain clothes?

69) Get surgery on any part of you? If yes then which part of you?

70) Sleep naked?

You can only choose one:

71) Black or Orange?

72) Metalcore OR Post-Hardcore?

73) Cellphone or Computer?

74) Chocolate milk OR Coke?

75) Tumblr OR Friends?

76) Apple OR PC?

77) TV Shows OR Movies?

78) Old bands OR new Bands?

79) Pop-Punk OR Alternative Rock?

80) Reading OR Listening to music?

81) Coke OR Pepsi? Define your reason for your choice.

82) Staying who you are OR changing yourself drastically?

83) Breakdown OR Clean vocal bridge?

84) Jonny Craig OR Kellin Quinn? Define your reason for your choice.

85) Ronnie OR Craig? Define your reason for your choice.

86) Your life as a comedy OR Your life as a documentary?

87) Go to outer space OR Go all around Europe?

88) Shoes OR Shirts?

89) Chelsea Grin OR Suicide Silence?

90) Drop out of school to get a job OR stay at school and finish your education. Define your reason for your choice.

Almost over:

91) So far have you told 90 truths? And for fuck sake be honest.

92) Are you quiet about your social life with your family?

93) Do you want to travel when you are older?

94) Would you let go of people who mean the most to you to follow your dreams?

95) Did you notice there are no sex related questions?

96) Rather be the opposite gender?

97) What will you name your son/daughter?

98) Do you get harassed more than most people do?

99) What band do you hate the most? Define your reason.

100) What makes you a bad person in your mind?

[dark-shade121]

Problems

Child: I have a problem

Parent: Well you CAN'T have this problem because I had this problem in the past only WORSE

Child: That doesn't make any sense. How is MY problem cancelled out by a problem YOU had?

Parent: DON'T SASS ME

Child: But-

Parent: YOU JUST ALWAYS HAVE TO HAVE THE LAST WORD, DON'T YOU?

[once-truly-myself]

[dark-shade121]

I will conceivably answer any of these questions

1. First thing you wash in the shower?

2. Are you more of a coffee or alcohol drinker?

3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

4. Do you plan outfits?

5. How are you feeling RIGHT now?

6. Whats the closest thing to you thats red?

7. What would you do if you opened your door and saw a dead body?

8. Tell me about the last dream you remember having?

9. Three of your current feelings?

10. What are you craving right now?

11. Turn ons?

12. Turn offs?

13. What comes to mind when I say cabbage?

14. When was the last time you cried? Why?

15. If you could be a superhero, who would you want to be?

16. Did the one person who hurt you most in your life apologize?

17. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?

18. Favorite movie ever?

19. Do you like yourself?

20. Have you ever met a celebrity?

21. Could you handle being in the military?

22. What are you listening to right now?

23. How many countries have you visited?

24. Are your parents strict?

25. Would you go sky diving?

26. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush?

27. Whats on your mind right now?

28. Is there anything you want to say to someone?

29. Have you ever been in a castle?

30. Do you rent movies often?

31. Whats your zodiac sign?

32. When was the last time you had sex?

33. Name five facts about yourself.

34. Ever had a near death experience? If so, what happened?

35. Do you believe in karma or predestiny?

36. Brown or white eggs?

37. Do you own something from Hot Topic?

38. Ever been on a train?

39. Ever been in love?

40. If you were paid 1 million dollars to spend the night in a supposed haunted house, would you do it?

41. If you could trade places with any person living or dead, who would you trade places with?

42. If you could shorten your life expectancy by 10 years to become more attractive, would you do it?

43. Whom do you admire and why?

44. What was your favorite bedtime story as a child?

45. You’re walking down the street, you come across a burning building. A woman says her baby is trapped inside, what would you do?

46. If you could choose the future profession of your son or daughter, would you?

47. What was your best experience on drugs or alcohol?

48. What was your worst experience on drugs or alcohol?

50. As your walking down the street you find a suitcase full of money sitting next to a parked car, would you take it?

51. If you found that a close friend has AIDS, would you still hang out with them?

52. In front of you are 10 pistols, 5 of which are loaded. If you survive you’d receive 100 million dollars. Would you be willing to place 1 to your head and pull the trigger?

53. How old were you when you lost your virginity?

54. Do you believe in ghosts, werewolves or vampires?

55. If you could live forever, would you want to?

56. Which fictional movie character most resembles who you are?

57. If you could go back in time, which time period would you visit?

58. If they were to televise a live execution, would you watch it?

59. If you could be the president of the USA, would you be willing to do it?

60. If you could choose the sex of your unborn child, would you want to?

61. Would you rather live longer or be wealthy?

[insanimegamer]

ways to lose my respect instantly

joking about rape

[ssohtastic]

2. joking about sexual preferences

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3. joking about eating disorders/mental illnesses

[musicof-thesun]

4. Joke about suicide

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Why is mentally falling apart not a good enough ‘excuse’ to stay home from school? I can’t focus, I want to die, sorry I don’t want to learn calculus right now.

[avoiding-the-parentals-deactiva]

Reblog if you're gay, lesbian, bisexual, pansexual, asexual, transgender or a supporter.

[dark-shade121]

This should be reblogged by everyone. Even if you’re straight, you should be a supporter.

[dark-shade121]

double-takee:

things to never make fun of:

mental illnesses 

eating disorders

cutting

suicide 

rape

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Trust me, I know exactly how it feels, to cry in the shower so no one can hear you. Waiting for everyone to fall asleep, so you can fall apart. For everything to hurt so bad, you just want it to end. I know exactly how it feels.

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[writtenly]

It’s been a few hours, you’ve just been hanging there. You’ve been quiet, too quiet. Usually there’s music playing, or your foot steps could be heard. But today, you’re quiet. Your little sister, who doesn’t normally come to greet you because you lock yourself away, decides to see what you’re doing. She assumes you’re taking a nap, or doing some homework quietly. She runs up the stairs, eager to see, but she comes to an immediate halt. You’re not doing your homework, nor taking a nap. Your music isn’t playing and you aren’t walking around. You’re hanging there, completely still, now just like her. At this moment, her whole world shatters. Everything she has ever known, looked up to, loved, is hanging there by a thread. At this moment, her life has been changed forever. At this moment, she wishes she was hanging with you.

Before you decide to take your life, imagine who will find you. Imagine them walking into a room, and seeing you just hanging there. Whether it be your little sister, little brother, mother father, grandparents, a friend. Imagine what will happen when they find you. No, they will not say “Finally, they’re gone.” No, they will not say “I’m happy they did that.” No, they will not say “I never loved them anyways.” They will die. Their hearts will break. They will hurt, more than you ever could. They will cry, scream, and break down. They’ll believe it’s all just a dream, praying to wake up. Except, they won’t feel that for a few seconds, or a few days, not weeks, nor months. They will feel that until the day they die. Everyday will be hell. They’ll think of you ever second. They’ll hate themselves for not being able to help or save you. They’ll wish they could die too. They’ll want to give up, just to be with you. They won’t be ever be happy again. They won’t smile. They won’t go back to their daily routine. They’ll die every time they walk past your room, or see a picture of you, or think of a memory with you. They’ll think, but stay quiet. They’ll visit your grave, feeling a knife go through their chest every time. And every morning when they wake up, no matter how long it’s been, they’ll wake up to thinking they’ll see you, only to be let down once again. And every night, they will cry themselves to sleep, because even though they refuse to admit it, know you’re gone forever.

Before you decide to take your life, think of your family, burying you. Yes, your own mother and father are planning your funeral. It’s supposed to be the other way around, but it’s not. They’ll have to call the cops, sign a death certificate, pick out clothing, buy a tomb stone, a casket, pick out flower arrangements, and more; All for their child’s funeral. The morning of your funeral, everyone who loves you is wearing black. Tears are streaming down their face, while their heart is breaking. Everyone who you thought didn’t need you, or didn’t care, are waiting in line to see you. They aren’t waiting in line at a party, or a graduation, or at a wedding reception. They’re waiting to see you, hands folded, lifeless, in a casket.

Before you decide to take your life, think of everyone you will be hurting. Don’t you dare say no one, because absolutely everyone will be affected. Your grandparents, won’t have a grandchild anymore. Your parents, won’t have a child anymore. Your brother or sister, won’t have a sibling anymore. Your pet, won’t have an owner anymore. That person you sit next to in class, won’t feel your presence anymore. Your teacher, won’t have a student anymore. That time your grandparents told you no, will haunt them forever, thinking it is their fault, that you are now dead. That time your parents yelled at you, will haunt them forever, thinking if they didn’t yell at you, you would still be here. That time your sibling said they hated you, will hate themselves, because they believe you would still be alive if they said they loved you instead. Those kids who made you feel bad, will wish they were dead too, because if they just smiled at you instead, you would be here. That teacher that said you didn’t meet her expectations, will feel like a failure, because you would still be here, if she believed in you. Everyone, who has ever been in your presence, will hurt, because if they showed you they cared, you would still be here.

Before you decide to take your life, think. Don’t just think of yourself, think of the consequences for everyone else. No one’s life will be the same again. That person who God made specially for you, won’t have you. That happiness that was waiting for you, will never show again. Before you decide to take your life, realize that you may be ending your pain, but you’ll be starting a lifetime of everyone elses.

If you are feeling alone, and think that suicide is the only way out:

My ask is open, and I’m always here. I’ll never judge you. I’ll try to help you.

If you are thinking of taking your life, call:

1-800-784-2433

1-800-SUICIDE

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You stupid motherfuckers, don’t you dare not reblog this. Because this deserves 100K notes more than pictures of your favourite gay couple or cute cats, and yet it has 243 notes. 243 fucking notes? Fuck that. Fucking signal boost this.

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I wish she had seen this.

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oh god I wish he had seen this that night

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