Illusions of Insanity @darkestblues - Tumblr Blog

Being intimate with someone has really been something of a mystery to me. I feel like I don't know how it works. Or I don't know if the other person would reciprocate it or reject it. I'm always afraid of the thought that being vulnerable in that way would not be welcomed correctly. I always longed to be hugged, to be held, to be assured that everything will be alright. And sometimes I just don't know how to express that want. I just don't want to feel lonely. I just want to feel the warmth and presence of another person who would make me feel safe and comforted. My heart aches for it.

#howtobeintimate #longingforlove

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Feliz fin de semana amigos!! 🌺🌺🌺🌺

New Person

I have a new person. I'm still not sure where this would lead me but I hope this becomes something good. I could really use a break from all the trauma the world has given me.

#brokebackdiaries

Standstill

You probably won’t ever read this but here I am, and there you are and we’re at a standstill. I wish I know how to stop loving you, I wish I didn’t have to go through the pain of waiting, I wish I knew what you really think of me. I wish I knew I really have a chance. I wish I could save you but you’re the only who could save yourself. I wish I could protect you but only you who can protect yourself. I wish you could learn to love yourself. I wish one day you could love me back.

#onesidedlovestories #iloveyou #wouldyoulovemback?

When the person you want doesn’t really want you.

#why #lovesick

I Think I’m In Love

It is normal to be in love. It’s a feeling that most of us go through every single day. It’s not uncommon to fall in love with a pretty face. But I think it’s uncommon when you fall in love with an escort. I don’t know why but the moment I met him, I knew I was falling for him. I didn’t care that I share him with a million other guys. I just cared that I wanted to be with him. I wanted to see him every day. I wanted to kiss him. I wanted to cuddle with him. I just want everything about him. But he doesn’t see that. He thinks I’m not capable of supporting him. I want to support him. I want to save him from this crazy world of being an escort. I can’t do it alone but I will do whatever it takes to save him. I don’t know if I can promise him the world but I can promise to be by his side no matter what. I just don’t know if he would ever feel the same.

#loving #escortdiaries #isthismrright