Being intimate with someone has really been something of a mystery to me. I feel like I don't know how it works. Or I don't know if the other person would reciprocate it or reject it. I'm always afraid of the thought that being vulnerable in that way would not be welcomed correctly. I always longed to be hugged, to be held, to be assured that everything will be alright. And sometimes I just don't know how to express that want. I just don't want to feel lonely. I just want to feel the warmth and presence of another person who would make me feel safe and comforted. My heart aches for it.














