Dark Red Liquid

k!nk as a form of self destruction 19 // BMI 15.8 MDNI

[darkredliquids]

I’m just silly girl that’s never accomplished anything substantial. I sexualize my own poor mental health and disordered eating and have developed a lot of harmful coping mechanisms so everyone should probably stay away from me unless they want to decay and get worse too.

My interests include fantasizing about getting violently murdered and violated (in no particular order), writing shitty stories that I never show anyone, researching random topics and hoarding information like a schizophrenic dragon. Lately the focus is on diet, probably because that little ✨🪽angel 🪽✨ is back from her little nap and she’s sat firmly on my shoulder and cooing in my ear that everything will be so much better when I’m bones.

I have no friends, unless you count Him, though would you really consider a slave to be her owner’s friend? Friends are equals and I’m just the dirt He walks on.

Current BMI 15.8 (updated 07/29) | Goal BMI 15.0 🤍🪽

[narcissistichedonist]

hiding your face in my shoulder to muffle your moans when you're moaning like a slut in public because i'm fingering you silly

you're such a good girl for me, keep inhaling my scent until you cum my darling doll

[hellbound-n-heartless]

Sure she looks innocent but she fucks herself to the thought of violent sexual assault daily

[narcissistichedonist]

emptying my balls inside of her once her eyes are glazed and she passed out from painful overstimulation

isn't if fun being my cum dumpster, my darling doll ?

[darkmoonlightflowery]

Okay, the scale finally moved — maybe I can still lose another 2–3 kg before Christmas!

Let’s keep going, angels! 👼🏼

[darkredliquids]

He’s become so violent with me. I even had to go to the doctor because of what happened a few nights ago. Strange, he’s done it countless times, even making me lose consciousness, but that time caused enough damage to make me cough blood.

I lied to the police for him.

I have had a lot of conflicting feelings since the last incident. I even thought maybe I wanted to runaway forever. I’ve been away for only four days, and now all I want to do is crawl on back to him, apologize profusely for even thinking I could ever leave.

I think in officially trauma bonded.

[kerrin-deactivated20260107]

stockholm syndrome gf x violent and uncaring captor bf

[dreamy-xo-deactivated20260209]

i think ive moved beyond yearning into something even more humiliating

[rottenpython]

Goals ・❥・

[darkredliquids]

I’m almost scared to weigh myself today because I know I ate a lot yesterday. I feel like I ruined my progress. Maybe I’ll start another fast.

[7151927]

[nxtar]

Dating me is so fun, because you get someone who's totally obsessed with you but you just gotta bypass my five evil attempts at pushing you away, my obsessive need to consume your every waking minute of attention, and my very cool, very sexy, homicidal and violent urges.

[devouredanddrained-deactivated2]

Come here and let me comfort you. Let me whisper sweet nothings in your ear and play with your hair. It doesn’t matter if you’re upset because of me, I still want to be the one to make you feel better.

[devotedriven-deactivated2025081]

You can block me. You can move cities. You can change your name. I’ll still find you. I don’t need a GPS when I can feel your heartbeat pounding like a drum in my skull. You’re my home. I mean that literally.

[brishia]

[princessofnecro-deactivated2025]

psychological torture is always sexual

[darkredliquids]

I made it to 72 hours for my fast.

I don’t feel as happy with myself as I thought I would, but I know if I quit I would have hated myself for it.

I made myself a bowl of miso soup to break my fast, as recommended by a girl in the discord group I’m in. It’s cold, been sitting on my desk for about an hour now, I haven’t taken a single bite.

I keep making up new conditions before I can eat. Do the dishes, take out the trash, take vitamins, drink a whole bottle of water. I’m just procrastinating eating my food.