odessa darling

[darling-dee]

st elmo, co, 2019

[darling-dee]

st elmo, co, 2019

[darling-dee]

st elmo, co, 2019

[darling-dee]

9 mile canyon, utah, 2019

[darling-dee]

9 mile canyon, utah, 2019

[darling-dee]

9 mile canyon, utah, 2019

[darling-dee]

9 mile canyon, utah, 2019

[darling-dee]

9 mile canyon, utah, 2019

[darling-dee]

9 mile canyon, utah, 2019

[darling-dee]

9 mile canyon, utah, 2019

[ashestoashis]

1. your suffering can’t end until you stop identifying with it. if your sense of self is tied up in your suffering, anyone or anything that attempts to separate you from it will become the enemy because, whether consciously or subconsciously, you will on some level believe they are trying to take away a part of who you are.

2. read the above again.

[darling-dee]

17 June 2019

the emptiness in my stomach

the nausea of rejected lunch

that my body now does

a u t o m a t i c a l l y

no longer am i thankful for it 

but rather sad

as someone who spent years

tearing down the walls

and now the foundation

c r u m b l e s 

around me.

i try to feed it and it rejects.

i try to build and it falls again.

day after day of fixing

what i've done before

is purely exhausting.

the hunger doesn't feel

like a success anymore.

[darling-dee]

7 June 2019

if I spent half as much time

building myself up

as breaking myself down

what would i have to show for it?

instead of years of scars

acid-worn teeth and overdyed hair

would i stand tall

clear headed and unafraid?

if the people who hurt me, hadn't

or i hadn’t internalized it all

would I be any different

or would I still feel small?

[darling-dee]

Pacific Coast, CA, September 2016

[darling-dee]

Pacific Coast, CA, September 2016

[darling-dee]

Pacific Coast, CA, September 2016

[darling-dee]

Pacific Coast, CA, September 2016