mother and daughter holidays featuring @darlingdeare
With everyone either gone for the night or hiding upstairs in their bedroom, Lilah found herself facing the hardest part of the holidays - the aftermath of it all. Dinner had been amazing, honestly one of the best ones the family had shared in years, but now here she stood in her kitchen, surrounded by all the leftovers she was slowly working on packaging up and putting away, completely alone. Itâs not as if this is anything new for her, given that itâs been years since her divorce of her husband, but that doesnât ever make it any easier. It also doesnât help that even when Tristan had been around, the disgusting pit of despair and loneliness had almost always still been present, no matter how hard she had attempted to ignore it. None of this was anything she ever shared with anyone in her life, certainly not her children, but it was always just⌠there. A part of her rooted so deeply in her psyche that she didnât think anything or anyone would ever be able to change it.
It was only starting to bubble up when the sound of the doorbell rings through the house and suddenly that loneliness is instantly replaced with a different pit in her stomach. Because she knows whoâs likely waiting on the other side of that door and she also knows that ignoring it would do her no good - heâd simply find another way in. And she was tired of having to get her windows fixed, which was what sparked her to simply face the inevitable. Only instead of her ex-husband standing there, sheâs met first with the sight of her mother. Itâs such a shock that it takes her a moment to realize that Tristan is indeed also standing just a few feet behind Darlene, hands stuffed in his pocket and face full of false innocence.
âWhat are you doing here?â she demands as she steps out into the cold air, closing the door tight behind her and standing in the way to block either of them from even considering entering the house. Whatever the hell was about to happen, Lilah didnât want it coming anywhere near the kids upstairs or even just the general vicinity of her home.
Staring at her daughter, Darlene only scoffs and shakes her head at the dramatic antics, but she does accept that this will be happening outdoors. Itâs ridiculous and makes her wonder where she had gone wrong in raising the girl, but she knows better to push on this issue. Sheâd learned long ago the importance of picking and choosing which battles to put a full fight into winning, and that was exactly what she was here to do. âItâs Thanksgiving, Delilah. And your husband had to spend it with your father and myself, instead of you and his children - his family. And I wonât stand by it. He deserves at least a moment to share with you during the holidays.â
For the first time in his life Tramp remains silent, letting this fight be between Lilah and her mother, at least for the time being. Maybe he should be ashamed, that he had felt the need to get Darlene involved, to have her with him just so he could fully get his ex-wifeâs attention, but it seemed like the best way to maybe get her to finally make her listen. After all, it had been the Deares that had convinced Lilah to stay with him all those years ago when she had first wanted to separate - maybe they could work their magic again.
It took a brief second for Lilah to find herself, and in that hesitation her mother continued on, not letting her have even a moment to respond or argue. âHonestly, itâs getting ridiculous, dear. This independent woman thing has gone on long enough. I let it slide when you were still at least allowing Tristan to be a part of your family, but this is beyond what I can accept. You are being a child, throwing away your life like this. This is the man that you chose, that you married, and you cannot continue running away from that. All he wants is to be with you, with his children, his family - and you are shunning him out and treating him like some kind of monster all because of a few mistakes. Heavens knows you have made plenty of those in your life, nearly everything youâve done has been some kind of error or unthought through spur of the moment decision. Well, itâs time you start living with the consequences of those choices. And that means having Tristan in your life, whether you like it not - he is yours. Now please, move aside and let us in, where we can discuss this like civilized human beings.â The unspoken instead of standing on the porch like trash hangs in the air.
âMother, you need to leave,â is all that Lilah responds with, using every ounce of self control she has to keep her cool and not blow up right for all of the neighborhood to hear. This isnât a new conversation between the two, but itâs the first time itâs ever occurred in front of Trisan or so close for one of her children to potentially hear, which makes it feel all the more dangerous.
Taking a step forward and attempting to reach beyond her daughter, to push and force her way inside despite the protests, Darlene stumbles and nearly falls at the quick movement Lilah makes to push her aside and distinctly refuse to let her come any closer towards the door. âNow this is ridiculous,â she gasps, ready to go on into another speech and attempt to enter only to be stopped once more as the younger woman grabs her wrist and holds it tightly for a moment as she herself speaks up.
âWhatâs ridiculous, mother, is you thinking you have any right to show up here. To bring him anywhere near me. After all of these years, all the lies and abuse - yes, mother, abuse. Because thatâs what it was. What it continues to be. Physical, mental, emotional abuse. Years of it. And I am done. My children are done. This family is done.â Darlene lets out a scoff at her words, which only fuels the fire burning within Lilah. âEnough! Mother, you are not welcome here. He is not welcome here.â
Yanking her arm out of her daughterâs hold, Darlene steps closer and points a perfectly manicured finger right in Lilahâs face, eyes blazing as well in such a similar manner that left no mistake that these two were indeed mother and daughter. âAnd that is what you chose! If it was abuse, then darling, it was your own fault. You picked this man to be your partner - to father your children, to be your husband. Those were all your own choices. Everything that came along with it was exactly what you had asked for in life.â
âI didnât ask for any of this,â the words came out of her mouth in a scream this time, loud enough for anyone nearby to hear. Itâs the first time that Lilah has ever lost her temper so openly and freely. âI didnât choose him - I didnât want him. You wanted him, mother. You convinced and pressured me that I had no other choice. Every time I came to you looking for help, begging for you to take my side, to believe and love me more than your fucking reputation - you pushed me back. You kept me held down under his thumb just as much as he ever did.â
Shaking heads as Darlene refused to accept any sort of blame for anything in her daughterâs life. âNo, no. You chose to sleep with him, to get knocked up. You chose ââ the thought is never finished, instead interrupted by a scream of frustration and pure anger from Lilah.
âEnough, mother!! You need to leave. I am not hearing anymore. I am not getting back together with Tristan, I am not listening to a word you have to say. And if you do not leave right now, I will call the police. Iâll order a restraining order against you and make sure that every single soul at the club knows about it. Leave now and never come back, or I will fuck up your precious little life just as much as he as fucked up mine.â Itâs harsher than anything sheâs ever threatened her mother with and as Darlene stares at her daughter, she knows that itâs far from an empty promise. And itâs only that fear, that sinking feeling of dread filling her stomach, that has her turning and grabbing Tristanâs arm to pull him back towards her car parked in front of the house.
Itâs not until the two are long gone, completely out of sight, that the fire inside of Lilah begins to fade, leaving her with a hollow and numbing feeling as she sinks to the ground. A handful of moments pass as she remains right in that spot, sitting on the concrete of her front porch for perhaps one minute, maybe an hour, sheâs unsure. The sound of someone moving around inside is what finally snaps her out of her blurry blank staring out at the grass and sparks her to stand, wiping at her eyes in a halfhearted attempt to hide any evidence of what had just happened before she returns to her life, to whichever kid had finally emerged from their room. Itâs far easier than it should be, putting the mask of feeling perfectly fine as she steps into the house, but then again - this certainly isnât her first rodeo in having to hide her true feelings and self from everyone around her. And it very likely would be far from her last.















