into the flood.

daya ray. 26. whoever you want me to be.

[dayaray]

sms / daya & kat

Kat: nah she gotta learn

Kat: oh dude yall are gonna love riss' food

Kat: she cooks like all the time

Kat: bring your planning notebook too

[ ... ]

Daya: Thanks for today, Kat. It was... really good to get out and feel normal for a bit.

Daya: And I'm sorry again that I didn't take you seriously about the planning notebook and I swear I will get one

Daya: And tell Riss that her cooking is amazing and I think Jake might propose

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Kat: yeah of course, she might be a little nose upturny at first but i'll smack her upside the head

Kat: dude its fine, i love the little fuckers. im sure they would too

Daya: Don't.. you don't need to do that. It's okay. I'm used to it.

Daya: Okay, then I'll bring them if Jake has plans. They'll be thrilled they don't have to eat my food

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Kat: yup, she did. she's been pretty easy lately

Kat: you can bring them if he can't, you know. tegan and riss would be okay to babysit. maybe max, but i'd have to ask

Daya: That's.. nice though, yeah?

Daya: Are you sure? I don't want to like... just dump them on you guys.

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Kat: she said yeah (:

Kat: so you should come over tomorrow

Kat: im a whiz kid

Daya: She did?

Daya: Oh.. okay yeah, I can do that. Is it... No, I probably shouldn't bring the kids. I'll see if Jakob will be home or if I need to find someone to watch them.

[dayaray]

sms / daya & kat

Kat: ok im gonna go ask if she'll help me help a friend woo jasper

Kat: ooh okay mmm

Kat: ima dig around on my laptop and send you a few links, that okay?

[...]

[ idk make up links here thnx ]

Daya: Lol okay? Uh... good luck?

[ ... ]

Daya: These are perfect, thanks dear. Knew those computer skills would come in handy.

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Kat: i can always ask

Kat: for sure! that's easy peasy

Kat: what kind of shows or events?

Daya: Seriously, if she doesn't want to, it's completely okay

Daya: You know that fantasy place? The Sanctum? Jasper likes that kind of thing... maybe something along those lines? Or something... literary, like something to do with books or writing

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Kat: i can enlist emily's help, she's shit too but she knows better than me

Kat: well first things first make a list... or thats what i do

Kat: things you want to try, things he likes, etc etc

Daya: Uhh you think she'll help? Idk, I figured she'd hate me since she's friends with Jasper

Daya: Okay... okay, yeah I can do that I think. Do you think you can help me come up with some things to do in the city that are free? Like shows or events or stuff?

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sms / daya & kat

Kat: hey if you want me to scheme with you i can

Kat: relationships? im shit at

Kat: scheming? worlds best

Daya: I mean... I'm not really good at either of those things haha

Daya: Where do you even start with that?

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Kat: i'm not i just said it's plannin time lmao

Daya: Oh. I just.. the way you said it lol

Daya: It made it sound like you were gonna scheme with me

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Kat: yeah why not

Kat: thats why its planning time

Daya: I thought you said you couldn't tell me what to do??

[dayaray]

sms / daya & kat

Kat: of course

Kat: so, what im hearing is you should go for it. no matter what

Kat: make a plan and fuckin do it to it, dude. don't be wimpy, just barrel on forward

[ ... ]

Daya: Is that really what you were hearing?

Daya: I'm not wimpy, I'm just... I have to wait. It's still too fresh. That's what he said, I mean.

[dayaray]

sms / daya & kat

Kat: are /you/ though, that's what im asking.. how can i help if you aren't

Kat: okay well you know im shit at this

Kat: but you have to ask yourself if you think you can move on and if you think he would, /ever/

Kat: just think about like your feelings and his feelings, since im assumin you felt 'em at least once in this whole thing, ya know

Kat: and now that yall have gone through this do you think going into a relationship again will be better than last time or will it be worse

Kat: i cant answer that for ya, its just.. ya know, things you gotta think about

Daya: I don't know. Can I think about it?

Daya: I... I already know I won't get over him. I don't want to. But I don't know how to... make it work. I'm just...

Daya: I never thought I would get this. So I should have been happy with what I had, right? It's selfish of me to keep wanting more when I didn't even think I would get that much. But... I do.

[dayaray]

sms / daya & kat

Kat: oh god, im sorry. :/ that really blows dude

Kat: i..

Kat: i mean i full ass support you trying to win him back and everything

Kat: but are you okay? what can i do

Daya: It's.. it's not okay but it will be. I hope.

Daya: Do you really think I should? Or... or is he better off if I just... I end things and it hurts and he moves on, instead of me trying and hurting him even more?

[dayaray]

sms / daya & kat

Kat: DDD: What!

Kat: what happened

Daya: I walked in on him and Kyla. Well... right after. So I left, which I thoguht was the right thing. I don't get to be jealous so I left because I didn't think I had to stay there and pretend it wasn't happening like an idiot.

Daya: And he.. he said he can't do it and I hurt him and... he won't chase after me so I just have to figure it out on my own I guess?

Daya: Figure out how to win him back. Show him that I love him.

[dayaray]

sms / daya & kat

Daya: I talked to Jasper.

Daya: I don't think we're friends.

[dayaray]

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switchjasper‌:

Alright.. alright. I’ll talk to you later, yeah. And, Daya? I love you. Okay. Just– don’t forget that no matter how much you hate yourself. I can’t fix it, I can’t make that go away. But sometimes it helps knowing.

I um.. I love you too. And I know you don’t really believe me but.. don’t forget that either. I’ll figure out a way to show you.

[dayaray]

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switchjasper‌:

I.. don’t know, Daya. I just.. I’ll still come visit the kids and give them books and things, but we can’t just act like nothing happened anymore. It’s not good. Whatever you want to do. I’m just going to keep going to work and try to stitch together my heart.

I.. Okay. You can come whenever you want. Or if you want them to come here. Or.. take them out. Whatever you want to do. I never.. that’s not what I wanted. But I understand. I’ll um.. I’ll talk to you later. I guess.