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Just an idiot staring at his girl while she smiles at something. Artwork by me ©

#JangTaeyoung #HaJaeyi #ItWasFascination

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what i read in may 2021:

(previous editions) bold = favourite

class & race

africa's lost languages: how english can fuel an identity crisis

asians out! not in this suburb. not in this apartment (australia)

canada mourns as remains of 215 children found at indigenous school

few classes, pizza for lunch and admission to top universities: the lifestyle of elite chinese secondary school students causes fury

the nt’s tough-on-crime approach won’t reduce youth offending. this is what we know works (australia)

tulsa massacre: the search for victims, 100 years on (usa)

gender & sexuality

safe sweden faces up to wave of women's killings

the gender biases that shape our brains

stop asking why she took the nude, start asking why he shared it

asian women on being sexually objectified and fetishised

the megacity where single women lie to rent flats (nigeria)

multiple-choice exams favour boys over girls, worsening the maths gender gap

politics, covid, & climate change

friday essay: searching for sanity in a world hell-bent on destruction

glaring vaccine gaps across the world are too big to ignore

wear your mask properly! uncovering the reasons behind public mask shaming (singapore)

why germany's namibia genocide apology is not enough

when we call people with strange behaviour mentally ill, we reinforce mental health stigma (singapore)

the dangers of politicised science

history, culture, & media

‘minari’: part of a wave of 2nd generation storytelling about what it means to participate in america

long working hours killing 745,000 people a year, study finds

a metropolis arose in medieval cambodia – new research shows how many people lived in the angkor empire over time

it’s a golden age for chinese archaeology — and the west is ignoring it

how a nigerian scheme forged in war creates billionaires

in singapore, playgrounds are capsules of national identity

[uppoompat]

my girl is just trying to get some and honestly who can blame her…

[wallpaperequest]

Neon City Art

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Don’t forget to reblog 😉

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Gorgeous. Need to preserve on my feed

[vvvrvr]

t h e m b a b i e s — hands series

🤏🏼🤌🏼

🤚🏼✊🏼

👌🏼✌🏼

☝🏼☝🏼

👐🏼👐🏼

i wont be writing anymore and just be making these

[kilometersb]

Inlove with these 🤍

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“Spend the night with me ... Ha Jaeyi,” he said. It was the first time he had used her name. “I'll make it worth your while.”

#ItWasFascination imagined. Art by me.

#JangTaeyoung x #HaJaeyi

#KimSooHyun x #SeoYeaJi

[save-the-sky]

It's Okay to Not Be Okay, 2020

[kilometersb]

When even their hands scream chemistry 😩🤍

[sseureki]

It’s about us. The three of us.

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“Spend the night with me ... Ha Jaeyi,” he said. It was the first time he had used her name. “I'll make it worth your while.”

#ItWasFascination imagined. Art by me.

#JangTaeyoung x #HaJaeyi

#KimSooHyun x #SeoYeaJi

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She was a frank and fearless woman who carried her honesty like a weapon and wielded it unreservedly.

Despite this, she was still a puzzle that confounded him.

She represented a new, strange sort of yearning: the kind that made him desperate but also set him free,

freer than he had ever been.

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Who was this handsome stranger, who spoke with her on art and philosophy and told her she was beautiful, all in the same conversation?

She had never met anyone like him, never spoken to a man this way.

It Was Fascination Chapter 1

[holyisthenameofmyruthlessaxe]

Sinister Wisdom #36: Notes for a Magazine; Surviving Psychiatric Assault & Creating Emotional Well-Being in Our Communities

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THIS

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“I warned you before,” he said in a low voice. “That I’m a greedy businessman.”

He had never had so many emotions course through him at the same time. Like a pile of bricks crumbling to the ground, he felt like he was coming undone. He had been suppressing himself around her for too long, trying to play by her rules. He suddenly felt exhausted from it all, completely destroyed by the simple fact that she could so easily meet a man for a lunch date, that too right next to her office building. Why had she never asked it of him? Did she think he only had physical desires, nothing more? And why was he the one who had to hide in a parking lot? Was it that shameful, to be seen with him?

He was a man who always went after what he wanted ruthlessly, with laser focus. It wasn’t in his nature to hold back. He had made exceptions for her, worrying about stepping out of turn, going too far, losing her too soon.

But he felt like he had lost her already. And so, he decided to say his piece.

After all, when a man had nothing to lose, he became invincible.

He would know. It was the curse of his life. No matter how much wealth he accumulated, no matter how much power he might wield, looks like he would always just have nothing.

#ItWasFascination Chapter 23: Bravery (read more)

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After spending almost two days successfully not thinking of him, she then spent the rest of Friday night tossing and turning in bed as she remembered all the things they had done to each other, wishing he was with her.

She wondered if he was fast asleep, or staring up at the ceiling, which he said was normal for him on most nights. She wondered if he was still at Eclipse, as Friday nights were usually busy for him. She wondered if he was thinking of her.

She didn’t want to wonder, if he was with someone else.

#ItWasFascination Chapter 22: Surprises

Ha Jaeyi X Jang Taeyoung

[suzehanna-kr-deactivated2021052]

Eps 14. Script. (Deleted scene)

(A/N: Eps 14 is MY's eps. This eps made me cry watching them cry and I'm crying again reading the script.)

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MY sits by the door buried in sorrow. Knowing everything... She recalls KT's behaviour, when he was dealing with it on his own.

(FB.: "I'm not late, am I?" .. KT coming in his suit, taking the family photo, smiling as the camera clicks!)

MY: (when she thinks about the suffering he had been through, yet still coming with a smile on his face, it breaks her heart and she bursts into fresh tears)

(FB: "Protecting my family.. is a cool thing to do. No matter what, I will protect my family.")

MY: How... How could you say that... How could I be part of that family.. How could I.. (A/N: She loves him so much.. ㅠㅠ)

(FB: "Even if the butterfly appears.. Don't kill it. You mustn't.")

MY continues to cry, blaming herself as she thinks of KT's suffering and pain.

KT listens to her cries from her door. He wants to rush in and hold her in his arms.. But he can't, not now.. and so he just sits and leans his head against her door.

The sound of her cries makes him plead out desperately.

KT: Don't cry.. Please.. Don't cry.. (as warm tears stream down his own face) (A/N: He loves her so much.. ㅠㅠ)

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I did not expect this.

I thought she felt devastated that her mom had killed the boys' mom and that they had suffered all this time because of that, and that she was going to lose her new family.

But it was more than that. It was because she was so deeply in love with KT.

It was thinking of HIS sorrows that was making her cry. She felt sorry for how he had dealt with it all himself, putting on a brave face taking that picture. It broke her to imagine the pain he must have felt telling the daughter of his mom's murderer that she was part of the family he vowed to protect.

Above all, it killed her to think that he would have to go back to suppressing himself around her. It was that he had chosen to endure all of that knowledge himself and hid it from her.

I wish this scene had been kept because the specific flashbacks showed how much it matters to her that KT could be himself around her. She did explain it to him when she insisted the brothers leave her in the next episode, but I felt this scene would have strengthened her reasons.

She wanted him to be happy with her but how could he be if she would only remind him of his mother's killer? Could he really love her? He would return to pretending, which she couldn't live with, especially if it was for her sake. So she had to let him go.

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I wish they did this flashback in the drama!

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hello! i really really really like your stories. your characters’ inner monologues are an art form. it was fascination is so damn intricate it makes me wanna cry ㅜㅜ you can write about mundane things and i’d still read it. i 🤍 u and your stories sm. 화이팅! ^.^ (also i’d like to suggest beach read’s plot as a prompt if u ever want to write something abt hyunji again)

Thank you so so much, I honestly don't know what I deserved to get such a wonderful response from you all. 2020 was mostly shit but this fandom for me was a major highlight.

Also -- about beach read, I actually did read that book and I can see why you suggested it! MY and GT both with writers block, bickering over the fence and trying each other's genres out ... it would totally work! I feel full to the brim with It Was Fascination and occasional updates to I'm Hungry... But maybe one day hehe. Thanks again for the message ❤️

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It Was Fascination Chapter 19: Siren

The shyness that threatened to make an appearance felt ridiculously late and misplaced after all that he had seen of her and done to her. But it wasn’t shyness that bloomed from their physical intimacy, she knew enough about herself to know that much.

It was a hesitation born from the awareness of lines becoming blurred between want and need.

He said nothing, choosing to just hold her, while these thoughts swam in her head. Greedy businessman, she thought, why aren’t you making an appearance yet?

She felt uncomfortable in this sense of comfort, in the quietness of the night, sated and nestled in his arms. Surely, it was all misleading.