Twin 1's balloon was blue and twins 2's was pink, what an amazing and lucky act of god, our rainbow babies were creating a rainbow of their own in 2 colours. A boy and a girl WOW!!
After that night was a flurry of activity, I'm relatively sure us and the amazon delivery man were on first name terms, our families were sending packages by the dozen in yes you guessed in pink and blue. We created an amazon baby wish list which was so helpful as we shared it with our family and friends who could not visit at the time with restrictions, but they then knew what we needed, and whenever and item was purchased it notified us and then disappeared of the wish list so that no one else could buy it, definitely a must for any future parents.
We had our first twin consultation who confirmed that we were expecting DCDA twins as they each had their own placenta and their own amniotic sac, and apparently the most risk free twin pregnancy which should have eased me but still didn't. I was elated that the twins were safe and healthy and growing but that little niggle of doubt was still in the back of my mind, that something was going to go wrong, this was obviously due to past experiences but I didn't want to share this with my husband ( yes he is one of the most sensitive guys on the planet but when it comes to me and the kids he would worry constantly and try fuss and talk about it which to be honest at the time I didn't want to, and may didn't want to admit my fear, almost like if I spoke about it then it would come true) he was at that stage almost beating his chest and acting like the most virile male on the planet.
I had fortnightly scans to check the position and growth of the twins, they were concerned about my little girl (Twin 2) as she appeared to have slightly low amniotic fluid and wasn't quite growing at the same rate as her twins brother, but they weren't drastically concerned.
As I reached the 30 week mark my appointments then changed to once a week just to monitor the babies closely, this was comforting as I knew they were safe every week but also worried me, my mind kept questioning why they had increased my frequency at going to the hospital, did they know something they weren't telling me? Were they concerned about something, again my mind in over drive though as every appointment they were happy and just monitoring them.
I went for my usual weekly appointment on 24/02/2022, had my usual urine sample, blood pressure check and scan, then went in to see the consultant. She felt my stomach to check on the position of the babies and froze, she then decided she was going to do an internal check. The obvious panic rose in my chest, and as this was during covid I couldn't have my husband there with me, which only made things worse, my rock was sat outside in the waiting room oblivious to my fear and panic.
She performed the internal check, my hands gripping the side of the bed, knuckles white, I dared to open my eyes, behind the mask I could see the change in her face and knew she was smiling, I dared to ask the dreaded question if everything was ok....



















