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[ddokunishism]

Archive...Feelings.

You. It has been you. It has always been you. I still wish it is you, and will be you.

But no. It can't be you. It should never be you. You are already happy. You are already contented. You are now secured and assured. You are with her. You are with the woman who you have always dreamed of. You are with the lady who I will never be.

There was never us, there is no us. As tragic it may sound, it is the truth I have always known. Even before, those times you have not yet met her, we never had a chance.

I was a nobody (and still is). I was never your definition of ideal girl. I was never a choice, not even a chance you'll ever take. I was just...a friend? A friend. A friend of your choice, of the woman you probably had feelings for.

I had seen how you treated my friend. I had seen how  you looked at her. I had seen how you took care of her. I had seen how considerate you were for her. I had witnessed all those things as I heard my heart shattering into pieces. I was just a mere spectator who watched the most romantic (probably) and heartbreaking movie of my life.

Sighs. I was an onlooker, a passerby in your life. Yet you were a permanent in my mind, a constant thing engraved on my crippled heart, at that time. At that time.

Moments had passed, and surprisingly, I got over you. I got over you happily. I got over you with peace in my mind and heart. I got over you because I gradually accepted the fact that yes, there can never be us. I had slowly picked up the pieces of my heart and let my wounded heart be healed with the thought that "He is just a man that I have a crush on, and not that boy I have been looking for."

There was also no "you and my friend" together. I thought my chapter with you had already ended. I wished it has ended.

And then you dated someone else. We were all happy. We were sincerely wishing you and her a happy life and an ever lasting relationship. You have found a family in her - a comfort, assurance and happiness. We were genuinely ecstatic of that great news. I personally was contented and happy for you.

"Ah, we can't wait to see you grow old together."

But no relationship is perfect. You have shared how you are struggling with your relationship, but even so, you still love her and you will still choose her over other things. Even if it means losing yourself, even if it means changing your identity - who you truly are.

I admire that courage and that faithfulness. I just find it hard to accept that why is this happening to you?

And then here goes my heart, once again... old feelings getting rekindled.

As I hear your sentiment, I can't help but think of the chances if there was us. "I would treat you better, make you happier and accept you for who you are."

BUT NO. I could just keep silent here and keep those words to myself. Shut those thoughts at the back of my mind. Because I would never ever want you to be taken for granted, to be taken advantage of especially at your vulnerable state. I want you to keep your worth. I want you to be happy. And I know you are happy with her. I know you want to be happy with her because she is the woman of your dreams, the perfect girl you have been wishing for.

I do not want to see you sad and struggling. I do not want to see you being tormented and suffering. No, I don't. U___U

To the woman he is very willing to spend the rest of his life with...to the woman he has always wanted to keep, to the woman he is deeply in love with...Please, make him happy.

Make him the happiest man on Earth. You are capable of that. Make him appreciate himself more than anyone. Your words melt his insecurities away. Make him love himself for who he is. Your acceptance matters the most to him. Love him as much as he loves you. You mean the world to him.

And I will just be the mere spectator of his life, wishing all the best for him.

I want to get rid of these feelings. Honestly, I do not want to entertain the thoughts of us having chances because I do not want to feed my fantasy. I know where I stand. I know my worth. I know where I should be. God, please help me move on from this. Please help me keep these feelings in the depths of my heart. I know you will never let me the woman I really am not. :)

I know I can find someone who will love me for who I am. I am waiting for that person, for that right man. Just please let him be happy. Let him be genuinely happy. When I see that radiant smile and sincere happiness on him once again, I will not wish for anything more.

[blondejongin]

Hello my fellow EXO-L! I hope you are all doing well and ready for this new EXO comeback! I’ve decided to have this small giveaway as a way of saying thank you to everyone for being so kind and wonderful (whether or not you follow me!) and for sticking around all these years and for always supporting our boys (past and present members!). Here we go with the details~~~ PRIZES: With the new comeback around the corner, why not give away some new EXO albums?!?! There will be a total of 2 winners (maybe 3 if SM doesn’t bankrupt me first). So yes you probably guessed it! The prize for each winner will be one new EXO album! YAYYY! You will be able to choose which version; Korean or Chinese, and if it’s member albums (please I hope not T_T), then you will be able to choose which member you want!  Okay now here are some nice and simple rules/guidelines you must know about: 1. To enter, all you need to do is reblog/like this post! One reblog = one entry. One like = one entry. You may reblog as many times as you want but please avoid spamming your followers! Please be considerate when doing this~ 2. You do NOT need to be following me to join, but the only thing I ask is that you are an EXO fan! 3. No giveaway blogs! This means that you can’t create a blog for the sake of reblogging and joining the giveaway. 4. The giveaway is open to anyone! Doesn’t matter where you live~ 5. If you are under age, please make sure you have permission from a parent/guardian before joining. 6. Please don’t join if you’re not comfortable with giving your shipping information to me if you are a winner. 7. Winners will be selected using a random number generator. Please have your ask box open so that you can be contacted if you are a winner. Winners will have 48 hours to respond otherwise a new winner will be selected.  8. If you break any of the rules, you will be disqualified.  GIVEAWAY ENDS ON: SATURDAY JULY 29, 2017 @ 12:00am EST (if the album drops after this date [it most likely won’t], I will probably extend the giveaway) And that’s it! If you guys have any questions, I’d be happy to answer them! Just send me an ask here! Thank you again everyone! Happy EXO comeback! Please remember to always support our boys!! I’m sorry the giveaway isn’t much but I hope a couple of you will benefit from this~ Good luck~!

[blondejongin]

Hello my fellow EXO-L! I hope you are all doing well and ready for this new EXO comeback! I’ve decided to have this small giveaway as a way of saying thank you to everyone for being so kind and wonderful (whether or not you follow me!) and for sticking around all these years and for always supporting our boys (past and present members!). Here we go with the details~~~ PRIZES: With the new comeback around the corner, why not give away some new EXO albums?!?! There will be a total of 2 winners (maybe 3 if SM doesn’t bankrupt me first). So yes you probably guessed it! The prize for each winner will be one new EXO album! YAYYY! You will be able to choose which version; Korean or Chinese, and if it’s member albums (please I hope not T_T), then you will be able to choose which member you want!  Okay now here are some nice and simple rules/guidelines you must know about: 1. To enter, all you need to do is reblog/like this post! One reblog = one entry. One like = one entry. You may reblog as many times as you want but please avoid spamming your followers! Please be considerate when doing this~ 2. You do NOT need to be following me to join, but the only thing I ask is that you are an EXO fan! 3. No giveaway blogs! This means that you can’t create a blog for the sake of reblogging and joining the giveaway. 4. The giveaway is open to anyone! Doesn’t matter where you live~ 5. If you are under age, please make sure you have permission from a parent/guardian before joining. 6. Please don’t join if you’re not comfortable with giving your shipping information to me if you are a winner. 7. Winners will be selected using a random number generator. Please have your ask box open so that you can be contacted if you are a winner. Winners will have 48 hours to respond otherwise a new winner will be selected.  8. If you break any of the rules, you will be disqualified.  GIVEAWAY ENDS ON: SATURDAY JULY 29, 2017 @ 12:00am EST (if the album drops after this date [it most likely won’t], I will probably extend the giveaway) And that’s it! If you guys have any questions, I’d be happy to answer them! Just send me an ask here! Thank you again everyone! Happy EXO comeback! Please remember to always support our boys!! I’m sorry the giveaway isn’t much but I hope a couple of you will benefit from this~ Good luck~!

[daenso]

but kyungsoo… you’re a singer… 👀

[kaisoo1201]

This moment is very unappreciated🙈 Jongin is clinging to Kyungsoo and we don’t even talk about this😩

[ddokunishism]

Not all fans who cry over the dating issue are selfish and delusional. We are just simply heartbroken, okay? Yes I know for a fact that oppa is never ours, that a time will come that he will date and marry someone else. And this fact will never be painless to a fangirl. Pain is inevitable. You’ll get hurt and be saddened.  But just like any other human being, we can move on from this issue and will accept this wholeheartedly. Be sincerely and genuinely happy for oppa. But this takes time. “Healing takes time.” Right?  So cry over it, cry your heart out, bawl like a child. Call a friend, rant and whine, sob and weep. Listen to sad songs or play your break up playlist and be emotional. I believe nothing’s wrong with pouring your feelings out AS LONG AS you don’t bash any of the persons involved. We are humans after all, we feel these emotions and it’s okay to get them all out as long as we know our limitations.  And after crying over this, I guess it’s the time where we can slowly pick up the broken pieces of our kokoro and move on. Support our oppa again like how we have supported him before. When this time comes, I know for sure we’ll be genuinely happy for our oppa’s love life and be there to cheer for his own happiness. :)

For some, moving on may take just a week, a day or two. For others, it could be a month or perhaps a year to fully digest everything. After all, moving on is a process. What’s important is that we are open to accept the truth and face the reality. Just remember, “there’s a rainbow always after the rain.” To my beloved Jongin, though the dating issue has hurt me a lot, just know that I’ll always be there for you. To support and cheer for you. I’ll always be your fangirl. ♥ Rest assured Jongin, you dating a girl wouldn’t make me love you any less. I might get hurt, heartbroken, saddened, disheartened by this but my love for you won’t falter. I might waver a bit but I’ll still be your fangirl. Be happy with her, okay? Fighting!!! 

[ddokunishism]

Sehun you- щ(ಥДಥщ)

[kaisooology]

Kyungsoo helping Jongin with his microphone

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[ddokunishism]

Jongin being Jongin on V-app ♥ 

he’s too adorable. i can’t-    o------<

[yourbiaslikesitrough]

kaisoo sharing water bottles even though kyungsoo already drank.. seconds before

[ethereal-baek]

sehun & his proud hyungs

[dyoful]

The never-ending list of Kyungsoo’s fanboys

His schoolmates

Ryeowook

Donghae

Dongwoon (feat. jealous Ryeowook)

Insung and Kwangsoo

These dudes

This dude

K.Will

[131213 YOUNGSTREET] K.Will: D.O-ssi is really pretty. Kyungsoo: (flustered) Oh, no I’m not. K.Will: [You’re] my style.

Hanbyul

“Listen”

VIXX

EXO

And this is just the tip of the iceberg…

[pledis17]

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[ddokunishism]

Even if it’s not a tumblr-worthy post (since it’s super LQ), I am gonna post this bcos it’s so special bcos of KaiSoo. TT TT When you see it live, you can actually feel how close they are towards each other. ; ; 

[kyungso]

jongin telling kyungsoo something

[jonginssoo]

jongin having problems with putting the headband back on his head ;u;