audaces fortuna juvat ★

‘are you trying to be clever or something?’ ‘i don’t have to try ; i am clever’ - tommy judd // patere legem quam ipse fecisti

[deadlywaltz]

there was a time when i could waste my time living vicariously through someone else’s eyes. their life, their style, i could dive in for hours on end until midnight. my phone screen lit up against the whiteness of my room’s walls, i would watch and study how aesthetic their life seemed to be.

unfortunately i do not have the time to waste time anymore. i have to live through my own eyes, my own aesthetic, my own world.

i’m not sure i like it. ★

[deadlywaltz]

oh, Oxford. soon enough you will be mine.

— june 8th 2026, 12:13, I remember You, Murray Gold.

[deadlywaltz]

hello, im new to anything study related and i plan on studying law, so i was wondering if you have any mutuals of yours that i can follow that also study law or just mutuals that you recommend:)

Unfortunately I haven't found another law blog with an aesthetic or content I really enjoyed so not really. For more general blogs / not law related, I always recommend @learnelle & @ohk4te I always look forward to their content! other than that, you can find some cool blogs by searching "studyblr" or even "lawblr" if that's what you're really looking for.

[deadlywaltz]

★ i’m learning to embrace the changing weather. after having been granted a wonderful week of scorching sun, white breathy tops, sweet music that remind me of summer, i am yet again forced to wear my trench coat, my scarf while listening to darker songs. and the rain… the endless rain. i hadn’t missed it but i try not to dwell on it.

[deadlywaltz]

i’ve been thinking, lately, that scarcity, when you can afford it, is a lost art. we are always overstimulating our brains. more caffeine (for some of us), more music, more videos, more tv shows, more movies, more social media. more pictures, more, more, more.

less is always more. but nothing is, sometimes, just as good.

even better. ★

[deadlywaltz]

it is june again and so i read bukowski. my legs need tanning, my brain needs silence, and my soul needs no further search for meanings in anything and everything. i need to be idle for a while. to watch, not learn. to talk, not think. to stay silent, not dream. well- perhaps a little. ★

[deadlywaltz]

★ i’ve been thinking a lot about my dream day as i haven’t had one in literally forever. so here how it goes: i wake up, drink tea or coffee. the usual, right? no. because then, i watch a video or, even better, a movie. for me, watching a movie in the morning is the real luxury. only after that do i get ready, dressed to either go out, have a nice walk, or go buy something or simply stay at home: reading, making music, writing, studying for personal hobbies.

in about a month, i should be able to have such a dream day. 🥹

what is your dream day like?

[deadlywaltz]

i’m starting to dream again. ★

🎧 | Doctor Who season 5 OST — Murray Gold.

[deadlywaltz]

as of late: lots of reading both for academic and personal reasons. new white shirts that are just perfect for this scorching hot weather. listening to tame impala. trying to find reasons to be grateful and happy. ★

🎧 | Dracula — Tame Impala.

[soundcarvings]

I think you’re all so smart and doing your best and I suspect it will work out in your favor too

[deadlywaltz]

no one asked for this but here’s a list of my favorite poets ★

- rainer maria rilke

- walt whitman

- bukowski

- charles beaudelaire

- khalil gibran (♡)

- edgar allan poe

🎧 ⎪Enter MCR-T — MCR-T.

[deadlywaltz]

received what’s probably going to be my favorite top for the summer + my new favorite perfume (smells like vanilla ahhh i love it) ★

🎧 | The devil wears prada 2 OST — Theodore Shapiro.

[deadlywaltz]

★ it never feels okay. there is always something else to do. there is always another task that feels urgent. there's never enough time. I feel it all and nothing at the same time. it all goes by so fast I can hardly catch the small moments in my life, in my day, when I remember I feel alive. when I remember I'm just a soul bound to this body by some twist of fate. that there is more to all of this than a to-do list. I am never content for there is always something else to do.

this is so Hermes complaining about the amount of work he has. so mercurial, at the end of the day. I'm tired though. I need a real break.

[deadlywaltz]

from two weeks ago: lots of coffee, commonplacing and watching shrinking once again!

[deadlywaltz]

sooo… this week was almost worse than the last. very tough few days. i will not look back fondly upon this part of my life but knowledge is forever and sadness is temporary. so i’ve still managed to learn more about fate and mythology and it’s been my only source of pleasure, honestly.

★ this too shall pass.

[deadlywaltz]

perfect end to a 3 days weekend spent alone and at home is watching the miami gp 🥳 hopefully next week will feel less busy and hectic than the previous ones.

[deadlywaltz]

it feels so good being able to do all that i want and having the whole day to myself with no specific timeframes 😭 I’ve been pondering a lot lately and my mind and feelings have been all over the place. diving deeper into philosophy, mythology and astrology feels good. believing that my life purpose is to learn as much as possible about my surroundings and myself has been comforting.