Just another day feeling like shit
I need a whole new life, I need to get away from here and make new friends… And also 23 bottles of vodka
Hey baby. You were 16 when you wrote this. I'm your 25 year old self. I juste want you to know: you're ok now. You got away. You are healing and it took you almost 9 years to be the adult you always wanted to be. You have an apartment with your amazing boyfriend and two cats in a big city far from your hometown. You are independent, strong, funny and beautiful. I know, I bet you can't believe we found ourselves beautiful, but we do. You paid yourself some braces and you can afford to live alone. And you did live alone! for 2 years! Now can you believe me, you dumped your highschool sweetheart for some of the most toxic men in the world, but something like 5 years later you found each other again? How beautiful is that? He is treating you right, but you still need to heal of some trauma you had in these toxic relationship after and before him. I'm so proud of you, you did wake up and live every day, even when you felt like you should just end it, you kept up. Now 10 years later, I read this blog we used to have and I remember you, you're me and you're still there inside of me, healing. I nurture you and love you like the child you still were. I see you and you're the most beautiful teen I have ever seen with so much love and anger at the same time inside of you. I wish you could have an environment that made you bloom instead of crushing you, but don't worry, we' will create that together. I love you so much it hurt, i wish I could hug you and tell you that everything will be fine and you're not a disappointment. You're a piece of art, a jewel that must be cherish. And I know for a fact that you've grown so much! You are now the adult you always needed. With a lot of therapy of course and a whole lot more to come! You've grown so much, you now want to help kid like you. And we are almost there, we only have 1 year left of university before we become a teacher! I know you wanted to do art, but we still do create in our own way. We create joy all around us, we create smile and we help people find the best in themselves. Don't stop shinning kiddo, and remember: I love you as big as the sky and i'll always be there for you.
