DeadTiredDoodles

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Commission page updated!!! come find me on kofi and order a drawing of your oc, whether it be from a fandom or your own story! I'd love to here all about them and draw them in all their glory!

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Why are we so obsessed with romance???

In recent years, I’ve come to realize that a lot of fandom spaces have an insurmountable influx of people who just cannot go without shipping at least 2 people. And not just shipping, the urge to defend against and dismember anyone who doesn’t share the same views or ship or headcanons. The Amazing Digital Circus fandom was RUINED by the amount of shipping drama there was, among other things, and I watched from the sidelines as it seemed to multiply tenfold overnight RIGHT after gooseworks tweeted that there would be no romantic intent in the show between the characters present. It’s like if you tell people today that there is no romance in a piece of media, they’ll feel the need to shoehorn romance in and then make it everyone’s problem. MOTM is also a victim of this, to a lesser degree, but EVERYONE has to ship SOMETHING and it’s become so suffocating to me that I have to try and avoid MOTM posts just to be able to breathe on Tumblr. Luckily, no one fights over those ships and are very respectful for the most part, which leads me to not abandon all hope, but it is just STRANGE how much I am surrounded with art and media that feels like it always HAS to have some kind of relationship and sexual media to prosper. but it is not without its problems and demanding ship material is included!!

Now, I know romance and shipping culture has always been a thing in fandoms and is basically one of the strongest pillars fandom spaces lean on. I am also highly aware that shipping drama was a thing long before I was even alive, all of these things have been here. But it has never been this BAD. People never used to dox other people or send death threats or harrass to this scale before over ships that aren’t even canon. This insane growth in toxic shipping culture has fascinated me, because… why?? Why is EVERYONE all of a sudden so obsessed with romance between made up characters? Even to the point where just saying you like when two characters are friends is cause for an uproar. I think back to the early undertale fandom, when aus were just beginning to gain traction, and all of the FUNNIEST and most memorable comics and fanfics were ones where the different au sans were hanging out, being silly, and platonically going through the motions and learning about their respective polar opposites. These cartoons led to deep conversations amongst people and gave the original characters different mirrors and filters for people to reflect on their arcs in the original game and grow more introspective povs. And no one doxxed each other when ppl shipped diff aus or didnt ship diff aus, at least the bullying wasn’t at such a wide scale.

But now, I can barely find any platonic fanfics and comics or media of any sort that doesnt get left behind, abandoned, harrassed out of the world, or just end up romantic anyway in the end. They are very few and far between already these days. I have even experienced this mental lazer focus mysef on romance, shipping, and gratification through my characters and for example: every time I used to see bendystraw I wanted to scream my fucking head off-it pissed me off and for my own reasons I have never liked the ship. I NEVER say anything about it tho bc thats fucking rediculous, i know how to respect other people and the old saying goes, “If you have nothing to say, don’t say anything” a GOLDEN rule that I wish the entire human population would abide by, honestly. I am sharing this though to show how STRANGE it is that we are feeling so strongly and getting physical reactions from MADE UP PEOPLE ON A SCREEN. After some self reflecting and turning into an adult, my frontal cortex went: hey, hold up, it’s all fake. Tf u mad a, gurl? And now I can appreciate the bendystraw art-still dislike the ship but it doesn’t make my chest tighten to see it come up on my page.

My observations on this is that this all started growing slowly like a cancer when covid forced everyone inside and online. And is now coming to a head.

Something I heard too is that a lot of cliques of ppl that weren’t online nearly as much before are also now online. Our internet spaces are being melted together from the sort of clean cut separations that kept everyone of similar interests happy.

And no one is dating irl. 

Birthrate crisis left and right, social media and dating apps full of A.I. and catfishes, a lot of old school romantic values being forgotten in this new digital era, everything being so expensive that dating, third party spaces, and general enjoyment is impossible for the average person. Not to mention that work life balance has been so terribly destroyed that free time is a luxury. Romance is a luxury, and everyone’s mental health and ability to socialize is so out of wack from the lack of time and affordable medical and mental resources. 

My theory is that people of all ages are seeking that romantic gratification through online internet characters and shipping. We, as a generation, are sexually frustrated and emotionally neglected mammals, a lot of us would have been dating and experimenting as tweens, teens, and young adults. I am 22 and have never even shared a kiss, or a hug, romantically with anyone. I have never been on a date. While I was working part-time jobs I couldn’t imagine what dating would be like because I was bitter and angry all the time with no time or energy to enjoy anything life had to offer bc I had no money! I live at home! I got a new job recently and It’s like a breath of fresh air, I finally have the ability to budget and schedule my life, and it feels like I am building something finally instead of scraping to get by with a good work/life balance. Couldn’t be more grateful.

With this new job came a weight lifting off my shoulders. BREATHING ROOM. And with that, I could reflect on what I actually wanted with life and found some things

My friends are all broke, stuck with their parents, jobless, and miserable (like I was-I have the luxury of having a loving home life I just hate being a burden)

All they do is complain(no hate to them-all we CAN do is complain, we literally have no agency over what happens from now on bc the world decided to shit itself for us)

We have increasingly been talking and hyperfixating on our original characters and romance. Anything else is superficial and is there to fill the void

WE ARE ALL ROMANTICALLY STUNTED AND YEARNING

ALL MY FRIENDS ARE ONLINE-I HAVE NO IRL FRIENDS!?

I don’t even know if I want to date anyone. But I noticed I was thinking about it more and more now that I wasn’t highstrung with my financial situation bc I finally had a plan and budget, could actually plan dates if I wanted-I just don’t know anyone. At all. New state, and everyone I work with is old enough to be my grandparent. I’m still hurting for money, and honestly; people terrify me. Too many horror stories. It is also the fact that I probably want FRIENDS more than I want romance right now. I want companionship. And i think thats what everyone wants.

It’s just that things got so muddy in the waters, online spaces are becoming less sustainable and more like warzones, I don’t even want to post my art for fear of people CRUCIFYING me, and people are just sharing the misery they experience by having no real friends or lovers and using made up characters that aren’t even theirs to own in order to play out their fantasies and ignore the crushing lonlieness sweeping the nations as everything arounds us gets worse and we’re forced to just sit and ignore it for our sanity, which is dwindling anyway bc misery loves company and people are becoming more demanding and mean online.

That’s just my take though, based off of personal experience and what I hear through the grapevine; I know theres a lot more to process for this topic but I am not a professional anything, I just wanted to share allat and no hate to anyone who does ship, I am a chronic shipper myself, I was just wondering WHY it has become such a crutch and why platonic relationships are rarely mentioned anywhere anymore. I’m curious how other people think, so please leave your two-sense down below I am intrigued to read. I wonder if everyone was able to step back and breathe and not worry as much about their IRLs, would any of this matter as much as it did before? Could people stop being so mean online? And could the fandom spaces finally heal and be inhabitable again?

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We might need more Mugman without a shirt friend

A lil treat for yall

Psssttt questions are open about the auuuu

[thewizardofhoes-speaking]

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I have no words. Honestly. Spread the word, everyone needs to know this

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Whiteboard doodle of papa bendy :3

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No your honor, this will not be a healthy couple.

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Update: they may just be a healthy couple after all

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A doodle i did a while back :3

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okay i just saw a blueink fankid as i was scrolling and i did not see them properly but i think thats cause my third eye opened

a blueink (or bendystraw ig im not your mom) fankid

who's a cup

whose horns curl around to make handles

EH? :DDD

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This just reminded me- I have a fan kid for these two XD

Theodosia is a.... handful

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Heheheh im liking this style. I think ill keep it

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Heheheh im liking this style. I think ill keep it

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Trying to choose an artstyle is like trying to choose a freaking nail polish

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Doodles of Alice in Highschool, Freshmen year!

She was one of the most popular kids in school, a real Belle of the ball.

I cannot figure out this sketchbook app tho, this pen is FRYING ME.

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Anyone ever have this moment?

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A quick W.I.P.

In the story, Alice is currently studying to be a plastic surgeon. She is definitely gonna need a coffee to get through these last few chapters lol

She works part time at the college library, so that helps a lot!

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One of the few things that keeps Cuphead going since the disappearance are his friends. They keep him sane while he searches...

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Beats, melodies, effects, etc are all categories of sounds a sprunki can be born with OR modify themselves to replicate and earn their category (this concept will be talked about at a later date). Categories arent rigid, but loose classifications of sounds used to organize larger groups of people for big musical get togetherd, as well as used in the medical field to help identify and cure health issues.

Voices tend to be the rarest out of the known categories and tend to require the most upkeep. Voices must rest their voices regularly, and many choose to stay mostly mute in order to keep from losong their voices and damaging their throats, which are more sensitive than other categories' throats are. Having stronger, beautiful voices is seen as a highly sought after trait and many will undergo surgery or treatment to try and make their voices beautiful, but its a trippy trend. (Think of how our society is treating the ozempic/skinny trend or other social media trends)

Jevin and Pinki are examples of voices that were born beautiful and strong. Jevin chooses to be mute, and pinki really tries not to talk too much-but shes a social butterfly who loves talking. So she drinks a lot of fluids and is careful about what she eats to try and offset the damage screaming and talking could do-she doesnt scream often but its something voices do have to watch out for.

Wenda is an example of someone who HAS damaged her voice. Talking too much and being too loud with too few breaks has caused a strain and now she's medically forced to reduce her voice usage. "Hey!...Hey!". She gets made fun of by the masses as they call her a "beat" now, and it takes a strain on her emotions as well as self image.

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Heheheheh finally getting some motivation up in here!

Commissions are still open, as well is asks!