Dearest Future B

Dear future, here's a few things you'll need to know if you wanna be my one and only all my life..

[dearestfutureeeb]

Dearest E M,

August 5, 2018 Meeting my parents! After how many days of discussing and arguing when will you visit our home you finally meet them.

How was it? :p You’re the first one  I’ve introduced to my parents so I don’t know how will I act in front of them. Haha.

I’m glad that you were able to meet them and talk to them. Thank you for the treats! Please don’t think that I abused you as a suitor since you’re a seafarer.  You know, YOU, being a seafarer is the least thing I like about you.

By the way, you smell nice today. It’s one of my weakness :P

Love,

S

[dearestfutureeeb]

Dearest E M,

July 31, 2018

Thank you for patiently waiting this day for me for 2 hours. All my negative thoughts about you disappear. I never intended to be late that long it’s just that my work is so demanding. If I were in your place I’ll be so irritated and no longer wait for that someone. Feeling ko ang ganda ko eh, haba ng hair. Hahaha

Thank you for waiting for me not only that day, but waiting for me to be ready. Thank you for not pressuring me.

Love,

S

[dearestfutureeeb]

Dearest E M

I’m an over thinker, even I feel annoyed why I’m like this. I tend to over analyze everything you say and do. It crossed my mind that you only want to spend your time with me when it’s convenient to you. That you only message me when you’re bored, that you only want to pursue me as your girlfriend because of my background. Sorry if I think of you that way..

Love,

S

[dearestfutureeeb]

Dearest E M,

Nakakainggit ang mga taong sigurado kung sino ang gusto nila. Nakakabilib dahil kaya nilang sumugal at panindigan ang desisyon nila. Kung yung iba ay walang kahirap hirap magdesisyon eto ako ngayon nalilito kung ano ba ang dapat gawin. May parte sa akin na gustong oo ang isagot sa tanong mo may parte na gustong humindi. Kung oo ang sagot ko, oo magiging masaya tayo sa una pero makakaya ko ba ang hirap na malayo sa isat isa dahil magtratrabaho kana ulit sa barko? O humindi at wag nang ituloy sa ibang lebel habang hindi pa ko masyadong nahuhulog sayo?

Love,

S

[dearestfutureeeb]

Dearest E M,

July 20. 2018. You invited me for a lunch, I said yes since I’m on a leave and we already talked about it that you will treat me. Haha. We ate in a buffet, we sang in a karaoke hub and watched Skyscraper at the cinema. It was my first time doing all of that with a man. 

By the way you looked cute pointing all those sweet couples. Yieeee. Hahaha. But what’s our motto that day? “Matutong pumikit kung naiinggit” :P

Thank you for that day! Thank you also for understanding all my “kaartehan”.

Love,

S

[dearestfutureeeb]

Dearest E M,

July 9, 2018 the day we finally meet! 

After how many months we’ve been talking and years we’ve last seen each other, atlast we meet again! I thought it would be awkward but you’re comfortable to be with, you never run out of things to say. You talk much even you’re “bulol” in S. Peaceyow! Haha. Thank you for the chocolates, the handwritten letters and souvenirs from Jerusalem! I really appreciate it!

Thank you for that night! :)

Love,

S

[dearestfutureeeb]

Dearest E M,

We’ve been talking on messenger for almost 6 months. I remember it was a day after my birthday you added me on facebook. Funny coz all their birthday wishes was for me to have a boyfriend and when I see your name on my notification I was like “woooah are you the ONE they all wishing and I’ve been praying for?” Just kidding! I was just curious why you added me, we’re not even close before. I just know you as someone my sister had a crush on. Hahaha. I can’t tell where our everyday conversation will lead. I will just go with the flow..

Love,

S

[dearestfutureeeb]

Dearest future B,

Should I search for you? Or should I let destiny lead you to me? Some says how can I meet you if I dont make an effort to meet someone? to flirt? Haha. I wanted to but I can't! I'm not comfortable talking to men. I always believe if you were meant to be, destiny will make a way to lead you to each other. It may sounds cliche but I still believe in it. I'm not getting younger, but who cares I know you are worth waiting for :)

Love,

S

[dearestfutureeeb]

Dearest future B,

Hi there! Its been a while since I wrote a letter to you. Sorry about that! Recently my mind has been pre occupied with someone. Sorry about that again! Almost every night we were chatting on messenger. I enjoyed talking to him, he never runs out of stories. Can you believe we talked for 1hr 50mins over the phone?! Its my first time talking to someone that long.. Oops! Dont be jealous! Who knows I’m already talking to you? My future B.. But naaah. I dont wanna assume anymore. Whatever will be, will be :)

Love,

S

[thelovejournals]

people go but how they leave always stays.

Rupi Kaur (via wordsnquotes)

[quotesndnotes]

I tend to feel everything too deeply or not at all. —via http://ift.tt/2eY7hg4

[dearestfutureeeb]

Dearest E M,

I shouldnt click that accept button, I wouldnt have a problem now if I just ignored you. I'm perfectly fine being alone, patiently waiting for "him" but then you chatted me. Well, its my fault coz I entertained you. I cant remember when was the last time Im excited to check my phone to read a message from someone. Sleeping late because of chatting/texting someone. Thank you for making me feel that again. But I wouldnt settle for someone who only remembers me when he's bored. I deserve more than that.

Dearest self,

Dont wait for him. Restrain your self from replying to his messages

[dearestfutureeeb]

Dearest future B,

I have a confession to make. I’ve installed a dating app on my phone. I have no intention in meeting someone on that dating app. I’m just curious and at the same time bored. Some were nice, some were looking for hook ups. They all made me feel beautiful and appreciated for a while, but all they’ve done so far is point me to the kind of man I’m really looking for.

Maybe we haven’t meet till now coz you’re with someone. I pray for her, that she holds your heart carefully and prays for her future husband the way I pray for you..

I can’t wait to meet you.

Love,

S

[dearestfutureeeb]

Dearest whomever,

“Don’t know what to do whenever you are near, don’t know what to say. My heart is floating in tears when you pass by I could fly.” 🎶🎤

Sometimes you fall in love with the most unexpected person at the most unexpected time. You are one of the unexpected person in my 2017. You always show up when I least expect it but then I know you are not the one. You just make my heart flutter. Haha. Merry Christmas to you and your family!

Love,

S

[thelovejournals]

I love being horribly straightforward. I love sending reckless text messages (because how reckless can a form of digitized communication be?) and telling people I love them and telling people they are absolutely magical humans and I cannot believe they really exist. I love saying, Kiss me harder, and You’re a good person, and, You brighten my day. I live my life as straight-forward as possible. Because one day, I might get hit by a bus. Maybe it’s weird. Maybe it’s scary. Maybe it seems downright impossible to just be—to just let people know you want them, need them, feel like, in this very moment, you will die if you do not see them, hold them, touch them in some way whether its your feet on their thighs on the couch or your tongue in their mouth or your heart in their hands. But there is nothing more beautiful than being desperate. And there is nothing more risky than pretending not to care. We are young and we are human and we are beautiful and we are not as in control as we think we are. We never know who needs us back. We never know the magic that can arise between ourselves and other humans. We never know when the bus is coming.

Rachel C. Lewis (via thelovejournals)

[poems-and-word]

There is so much stubborn hope in the human heart.

[dearestfutureeeb]

Albert Camus, Absurd Creation (via books-n-quotes)