I FEEL LIKE PREY I FEEL LIKE PRAYING

O, from this time forth, My thoughts be bloody, or be nothing worth (ic vent blog for sullenchoir.tumblr.com) icon credit: binary-bird

[dearlydrowning]

I’m not very smart but I’d like to think I’m not an outright asshole.

[heavensickness]

Motherhood

Gloria Anzaldúa, La Prieta

Janusz Stanny

Lily King, Writers & Lovers

Sophokles, Elektra

Anne Carson, Grief Lessons: Four Plays by Euripides

Kabi Nagata, My Lesbian Experience with Loneliness

Mitski - "Class of 2013"

Paula Modersohn-Becker, "Reclining Mother and Child"

Dorie Van Stone, Dorie: The Girl Nobody Loved

[beguines]

Oh Lord, my grief is like a / river inside me; filled / with dead things I didn't / kill.

Pádraig Ó Tuama, from "Jesus Texts", When Did We See You Naked?: Jesus as a Victim of Sexual Abuse, ed. Jayme R. Reaves, David Tombs, and Rocío Figueroa

[dearlydrowning]

I’m on edge.

[dearlydrowning]

I don’t like this.

[dearlydrowning]

Too many feelings at once, I haven’t missed THIS either

[dearlydrowning]

At this rate I’m just going to have a big wedding for Madison and myself. Nobody else.

[dearlydrowning]

It’s been a long time since my buttons were this regularly pressed. I’m not fond of this. 

I’m so angry, I just want to calm down

[dearlydrowning]

midnightrepentance​:

I suppose I’d be in the same position then, but still.  You know I hate seeing you so stressed out.

I’m sorry darling. This hasn’t been easy on you either.

I’m tired, Madison. I want some peace. 

[dearlydrowning]

@orionspassage said: 

Take it easy hun :<

How can I possibly take it easy darling? What he said? What if it was about me?

I’m so angry. Fucking bastard. I hope Grey kills him for good. Stupid.

[dearlydrowning]

stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid

[dearlydrowning]

kill or be killed hm? stupid miserable thing

[dearlydrowning]

motherfucker

i’m going to kill him 

[dearlydrowning]

I don’t like who I am when I’m angry

[dearlydrowning]

midnightrepentance​:

Unfortunately it does have something to do with me it seems, I’m sorry darling. 

No, darling. You needn’t apologize. 

It has something to do with Grey. Not you. It’s not your fault darling.

[dearlydrowning]

@orionspassage said:

:(

We’re caught between something that has nothing to do with us, and yet we almost died for it.

And it’s treated like it’s nothing.

[dearlydrowning]

We haven’t done anything to deserve it.