Why I wanted to leave for 2+ years
1. I had no freedom
2. I had no alone time
3. The constant arguing
4. His family
5. How he acts when he’s mad
6. Bad history
7. Texting a girl w/o telling me
8. I’m the reason for pretty much every argument
9. NOT attracted anymore
10. Insecure
11. Depressed
12. Not many good memories
13. Calling me over and over while I’m at work when we fight
14. Him hitting me when I tell him I hate him
15. Not many shared laughs
16. Him breaking things when he’s mad
17. I never wanted to go out with him anywhere
18. Never wanted to have sex, it was never organic. Maybe in the beginning… but it quickly died
19. Me getting tinnitus after he tackled me & I hit my head on the ground
20. Him breaking my property
21. Me getting scratched from him sticking his fingers in my mouth
22. Him justifying everything he does
23. Him invading privacy
24. Him going into my phone and deleting MY contacts because he didn’t like a PRIVATE conversation that I had.
25. I disassociated MOST of the relationship, I’m BARELY even on tiktok or Youtube anymore now
26. I would hesitate to say so many things because I was scared of an argument.
27. He watched me have panic attacks when I’m smoking so many times, but he still smoked around me & wasn’t supportive of me not smoking anymore
28. He’s the reason for my dark spots. He let a cat come in a small ass room and we already had a cat and a dog. The fleas got me so bad & he never had a exterminator come thru. When I started to get depressed about it, he said “it can’t be the fleas, it has to be something else at this point.” EVEN THOUGH THERE WERE HUNDREDS OF FLEAS THAT WOULD ALWAYS GET ON ME/THE TRAP
29. Apparently I’m the reason for the collection on the apartment, even thought he was in charge of the rent bills.
I got so many signs to leave, and I ignored them. My skin getting completely fucked up, his crazy parents, the hitting, the loss of attraction, the depression and anxiety
-1:36 am
