fly far float freely

behold! i do not give advice or a little charity, when i give i give myself

[deathtomikey]

“there goes my train”, says a man who is afraid of trains

this week i made plans to hang out with three different people at different times, and followed through with two of them. 17 year old me would have been jealous but proud. when i was a teenager i was petrified of contacting my friends because i thought i would be bothering them and push them away. i went whole summers without seeing anyone. social anxiety has been a long and depressing road for me but it feels like i’m coming out on the other side. 

my brother, who also went through a very long period of depression and now has an awesome life gave me the best advice that probably anyone has ever given me. just start doing stuff. even if you feel like you can’t, because you’re trapped and helpless. even if it feels like it’s useless and will get you nowhere. even if leaving the house feels overwhelming. go for walks. go to cafe’s. text every friend you have even though it feels weird and if you haven’t seen them in a while it’s guaranteed to be awkward, because you have nothing to lose. the more stuff you do, no matter what it is, more and more interesting things to do will start appearing. life is a giant chain reaction

[deathtomikey]

highlight of the week: i straight up watched a woman without arms operate a debt machine with her toes yesterday

[huffpost]

From Cuba to India to Japan, these photos from LGBTQ Pride celebrations all over the world are breathtaking. 

[mydarkenedeyes]

And now the noise of the immense city has become more remote, and there is a deep stillness about my heart where your words stand like statues.

[pumpkin-patch]

breaking news: some farmer just planted the seed for the pumpkin you’re gonna carve for Halloween

[zooophagous]

!!!

[spi-ltmilk]

[solarpunks]

REAL LIFE SOLARPUNK: SCUTTLEBUTT AN OFF-GRID SOCIAL NETWORK

Dominic and James are a few key figures in a community of eccentric open source hackers gathering in a social network independent from mainstream internet. The unique properties of Secure Scuttlebutt (SSB) make it possible for digital information to spread easily even in the absence of Internet Service Providers (ISP) and the internet’s backbone. What makes that possible is a decentralized protocol based on the mechanics of word of mouth.

Scuttlebutt is decentralized in a similar way that Bitcoin or BitTorrent are. Unlike centralized systems like PayPal or Dropbox, there is no single website or server to connect when using decentralized services. Which in turn means there is no single company with control over the network.

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In Scuttlebutt, the “mesh” suffices. With simply two computers, a local router, and electricity, you can exchange messages between the computers with minimal effort and no technical skills. Each account in Scuttlebutt is a diary (or “log”) of what a person has publicly and digitally said. As those people move around between different WiFi / LAN networks, their log gets copy-pasted to different computers, and so digital information spreads.

What word of mouth is for humans, Scuttlebutt is for social news feeds.

(via André Staltz - An off-grid social network)

[solarpunks]

the future is rural, cooperative, and solar powered

Excerpt from a great thread over on Scuttlebutt in the solarpunk channel.

(links take you to the scuttlebutt network viewer)

[solarpunks]

Partial graph of the #scuttlebutt social network, so far.

A visualization by vtduncan - Via André Staltz 

Thats a lot of blue solarpunk discussion being had by open source hackers.

Our upcoming podcast hopes to bridge some of these gaps between communities and different networks of solarpunks.

[deathtomikey]

this looks unbelievably cool but there's nk mobile version yet :(

[deathtomikey]

i haven't had short hair in like... years. the amount i was starting to stress over it was beyond unhealthy. there is a literal load off my mind.

[deathtomikey]

tumblr ads keep hitting new lows

[deathtomikey]

how tf can you guys get angry about people quoting hitler then turn around and quote mao zedong

[clawmarks]

Vogels (edited) - Arie Willem Segboer - c.1903-1919 - via Rijksmuseum

[darkhard]

[berniesrevolution]

They’ve Always Been Watching Us: From COINTELPRO and Martin Luther King, Jr to the NSA’s surveillance program, the US Government has been keeping a close watch on the American Left for a long time.

by Andy Warner and Jess Parker

(Continue Reading)

[falseknees]

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[priui-deactivated20210519]

@turn-x

[deathtomikey]

cant figure out the read more breaks on mobile so cw emotions etc etc

definitely cried in the bathroom at work yesterday. it's funny that this happened immediately after me insisting to my coworkers that i was ok. also funny that both of these events happened after me telling a joke about an emotionally repressed man. to be fair im not really emotionally repressed anymore- like i literally used to pretend that i didn't have emotions because i was scared to put people off and saw it as a weakness- it's just not always a great idea to make coworkers do emotional labour for you, if you can help it. but still i couldn't admit i wasn't ok and am embarrassed to go back to work so those are things about myself that i should probably try a little harder to understand. i need to remind myself that its ok to be anxious/sad/nondescript negative emotion and nobody who's worth giving a shit about is going to belittle me for it

[nostalgicfuturity]

I hope you live without the need to dominate, and without the need to be dominated. I hope you are never victims, but I hope you have no power over other people. And when you fail, and are defeated, and in pain, and in the dark, then I hope you will remember that darkness is your country, where you live, where no wars are fought and no wars are won, but where the future is. Our roots are in the dark; the earth is our country. Why did we look up for blessing — instead of around, and down? What hope we have lies there. Not in the sky full of orbiting spy-eyes and weaponry, but in the earth we have looked down upon. Not from above, but from below. Not in the light that blinds, but in the dark that nourishes, where human beings grow human souls.

Ursula K. Le Guin, “A Left-Handed Commencement Address” (Mills College, 1983)