Deegia

Just a 24 year old Trini-Libyan woman from Toronto exploring life!

[deegia]

I want to go asleep and never wake up.

[deegia]

Where Do I Even Begin?

The last few months have been a complete mess and I don’t know what to say about it. I’ve been going in and out of this depression but I don’t know what’s been triggering it. Some days I’m fine but then others I feel like I’m just ready to end it all. For the past week I have been dealing with it a lot more and I don't know why. The worst part is i’ve reached out for support from a few close friends and i’ve basically gotten “its all in your head” “snap out of it” or “i don’t really care”. I haven't been able to actually just talk about it without being told i’m being an idiot or I'm making it a bigger deal than it needs to be. 

I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m hurt. I’m scared and I feel alone. I feel like my entire world is crumbling at my feet and I feel like maybe it’s just the time to let it all go. I feel like no one would really truly miss me if I were gone and even if they did, I would eventually be forgotten.  So what do I do now?

In all honesty, the real reason I haven't gone through with anything yet is because of an old friend. He was an amazing person who’s depression went so far that he ended up ending his own life. There is not a day that goes by where i don't think of him. I often wonder what his life would be like today if he had just had the support he needed. But sadly, I think many have forgotten about him. 

His death affected me more than many people will ever know. When i see someone in need of support, I'm always right there and will do  whatever it takes. But unfortunately I need it too and i’m not as good at supporting myself as i am at supporting others. Sometimes I think it would be easier to just die. Sometimes i wish I get hit by a car or fall terminally ill just so I wouldn't have to deal with life anymore because i know i can't do it myself. This is my cry for help.                                                                                                                                                        

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Don’t destroy someone, just because someone once destroyed you.

(via schnapsliebe)

[owmeex]

[a-night-in-wonderland]

Photos Of Parents And Kids At The Same Age

[stateless1972]

Genes are fucking insane

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I think 2015 tried to kill everyone

[hibiscusflowerhoney]

Raise your hand if you’ve ever felt personally victimised by 2015

[rippedbeast]

[myrelationshipwithlove]

“If you want to know what a man’s like, take a good look at how he treats his inferiors, not his equals.”

[deegia]

There are no words to describe how proud I am of @francisotbtorres! It's official! He is finally releasing his new clothing line, @bmotifco! Everyone please go follow, @ motifco on Twitter and Facebook for updates and more information and follow @bmotifco right here on Instagram for up to date releases! Currently, these 4 tees are available for preorder :) Contact @francisotbtorres for more information and go support!!! :) #bestfriend #clothingline #motifco #MotivateOthersTillItFits #soproud #loveit #gosupporthim

[deegia]

Happy 23rd Birthday to one of my best and closest friends, @francisotbtorres. I hope you have an amazing day because you truly deserve it 😊 Love ya! ❤️

[akdjchcusaocicucy23232223]

do tumbleweeds actually blow around in the southwest or is that a myth…?

[lithicc]

!!! They do!!!

Tumbleweed is actually an invasive species from Siberia. What happens is when the soil gets too dry the roots come out of the ground and the plant curls up into a ball so that it can blow to a new spot. When it comes into contact with wet soil its roots will unfold and it will settle down. 

[laundryandtaxes]

That is ten times more fucked up than I thought. They plant themselves again? That’s neat. I always thought they were just dead leaves and twigs in a bunch.

[azzandra]

I like this. Tumbleweeds just fuck off when they don’t like a place, they are not like other plants who have to respect your plant rules, they are rebels.

[indulging-luxury]

[deegia]

niadil:

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Lmfaoooo @eddie_gravity and I got bored x)

[deegia]

DeegiaTV

~Music speaks what cannot be expressed, soothes the mind and gives it rest, heals the heart and makes it whole, flows from heaven to the soul.~

Hey everyone! 

Be sure to check out my youtube channel if you haven’t already. More videos to come in the next few weeks! =) 

Deegia

[timellord]

get to know me meme | 1/10 favourite tv shows » Doctor Who ↳ “ When you’re a kid, they tell you it’s all… Grow up, get a job, get married, get a house, have a kid, and that’s it. But the truth is, the world is so much stranger than that. It’s so much darker. And so much madder. And so much better.”

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[maryccartwright039-blog]

Green goddess: inside Helena Christensen’s New Zealand retreat - Vogue Living

[funny-picturez]

"He’s a city person"