aspirational

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Two years into transition: I thought I would continue to look like a 27 year old twink and didn't realize I would actually be a 35 year old dad.

[cryptonature]

Mushrooms are the temporary reproductive structures of massive, seldom seen, subterranean creatures more closely related to you than to plants. Fungi. Some are miles wide. Some live thousands of years. Some help trees speak to one another. There’s magic beneath the forests.

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I have a few cropped t-shirts and I'm waiting for luscious belly hair.

I have forgiven myself for my chubbiness.

I started low-dose testosterone a week ago.

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I have goals

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[guerrillatech]

[sealinne]

same moment different angle

[bonnibeldam]

[whitmerule]

The bullet bandolier over the skirts is a look. 😌

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Gender update: fuck you, I do what I want

[wizardsexmachine]

POPEYE?!?!??

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[memecucker]

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Ps I'm gay

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Transition doesn't solve attachment issues.

Transition doesn't solve CPTSD.

Transition doesn't solve patterned codependence.

Transition doesn't solve a lifetime of socialization to put other's comfort before my own needs.

That's all still here, in the same body I am shaping differently, in a social role I don't know how to inhabit.

This morning I kissed a guy in public and two elder gays walking their small poodles across the street called over "Good morning!" & smiled & waved and now I'm sitting in my truck in the Target parking lot having a minor panic attacks because I don't know how to be alive here. I never knew how to be alive anywhere.

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Audacious Light

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Getting dressed is fun again.

Whatever this is. Linen shirt. Shoes: Cat & Jack, because apparently I can wear boy's size 5 which I guess is the same as men's size 5.

I can just... Wear what I want and that's cool? Fuck yeah.

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Yesterday I sacrificed a whole summer of cutoff denim shorts to the thrift store gods and that the thrift store gods blessed me.

Actually just gave the shorts (which are so incredibly under-butt-showing short) to a friend because my butt will no longer fit into them.

Today I had a top surgery consult and it was very disappointing but look at these overalls instead I love them.

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Vincent Price with an armful of cats

Twitter, @HorrorHammer1

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