DEFY INSIGNIFICANCE!

independent multimuse for characters from the MCU, written by meri.

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PINNED // RULES AND MUSES!

*since this blog is still new, for those looking for them, samples of my writing can be found at my mha multi, @herostoried!

1. Please don’t harass me for immediate responses! I have several other RP blogs, along with my mental health meaning that I can have difficulty staying motivated at times. I will try and stay active and reply to threads as best I can, but know that you might not always get a reply quickly or immediately. However, you’re always welcome to ask how things are going - just be respectful, and we’ll be fine.

2. This blog is mutuals-only, meaning I only interact with mutuals. I’m often quite busy with real life and I have several blogs to keep up with, and I want writing here to be as stress-free as possible. If I don’t write with you, it’s nothing against you personally, I promise. All of that said, please don’t be shy! If I’m following you, you can take that as confirmation that I’m interested in writing with you.

3. I have the right to drop threads for any reason. I will try to avoid this as much as possible (especially when we’re both invested and enjoying the thread), and I’ll let you know if I’m doing so, but ultimately I don’t know what could happen. Similarly, if you’re not feeling a thread for any reason, let me know - don’t force yourself to write something you’re not interested in! We can always try something new or take a break entirely if that’s what you’d prefer.

4. I am 27 years old, but I won’t be writing any kind of smut on this blog, both for my child and adult muses. It's just a personal preference.

5. There may be potentially triggering content on this blog. I try to tag for all obviously triggering content as best as I can, but if you need anything specific tagged, please let me know so I can add it to my tag list & be more vigilant about tagging it in the future.

6. As a head's up, I am not familiar with & have not watched all of the MCU movies and TV shows, since there's too many for me to keep up with as things are right now! As a result, this blog will likely be canon-divergent in places, and I'm essentially treating the MCU like my playground here, keeping the parts I like and reworking those I don't as I please. Please don't follow if this would bother you - I completely understand + no hard feelings.

7. Let me know if you have any problems with me or our RP! I’m more than happy to try and work out any problems, whether it’s related to my writing or anything else - but for that to happen, I obviously need to know about it. You’re always free to talk me about any problems in private, no matter how small. I guarantee I’ll be glad you approached me! And that should be pretty much it. Feel free to ask if anything here isn’t clear or you have any questions!

MUSES (list is still in progress and changes often!)

PRIMARY - Tony Stark (main muse), Jean Grey.

SECONDARY - Loki, Yelena Belova, Natasha Romanoff (testing!), Johnny Storm, Sue Storm (testing!) Shuri.

TERITARY / TESTING - Mantis, Riri Williams, Nebula, Sif, Bruce Banner (testing!)

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i want 2 write....... emma frost................... ;w;

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it's sue starter call time!! like this post for a starter from sue, since i think she's pretty neat + would like to test her as a muse atm too <3

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thinking about bruce and tony friendship today............ i feel like i did not appreciated them nearly enough in my teenhood and their friendship is so good / has so much to enjoy in it actually????

bruce as a character i think i want to pay way more attention to as well, because i somehow feel like i barely know or remember anything about him but he is so good??? and underrated af. a nat-tony-bruce trio focus would be peak for a fic actually....... i should consider this deeply.......................

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To   some   degree,   Thor   isn't   sure   where   this   conversation   has   come   from   or   where   it   is   going.   His   empathic   nature   can   feel   the   frustration   radiating   from   Tony   but   he   does   not   know   the   origins   of   it.   Whatever   wrath   Tony   may   have   he   will   listen   if   only   to   help   ease   the   tension.   The   god   stands   in   one   place   observing   the   pacing   done   by   the   other.   His   hands   folded   together   in   front   of   him,   he   simply   waits   for   the   answers   to   come.

"My   father   once   said   that   we   are   not   gods.   'We're   born.   We   live   and   then   we   die.   It   just   takes   a   little   while   for   that   to   happen   compared   to   the   life   expectancy   of   Midgardians.   Doesn't   mean   we   still   don't   have   our   qualms.   "

Thor   is   quiet   for   a   long   moment   before   allowing   his   gaze   to   drift   far   beyond   this   room.   "i   did   not   always   deal   with   it   well.   When   I   was   young,   I   believed   strength   meant   never   bending   beneath   the   weight.   That   a   king   must   always   know   the   answer…   never   fear…   never   fail."   he   lets   out   a   small   breath   through   his   nose.   "Then   I   lost   my   mother.   My   father.   My   brother—more   than   once,   it   seemed.   My   home.   Half   my   people.   I   learned   the   universe   has   little   regard   for   crowns.   The   responsibility   never   becomes   lighter.   You   simply   become   accustomed   to   carrying   it."

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Tony gives a brief near-laugh at Thor's first comment - an short, abrupt noise accompanied by him sharply turning his head away. There's obviously nothing funny about it, but he can't help it - the irony still cuts deep.

...Yet Tony doesn't interrupt the rest of Thor's speech, instead listening with an almost uncharacteristic level of attention. ...God, it's not the answer he wants to hear, but what other answer could Thor even give him? In a lot of ways, everything Thanos did must have been harder on Thor than anyone else, even before he wiped away half the universe's population. Because Thor really did lose everyone. At least Tony has a family to come home to - regardless of whether or not that's something he deserves.

But it still hurts - because nothing can change how badly Tony's failed. Millions, billions of people are now dead, and in the end, Tony couldn't do a thing to stop it, even though he'd known it was coming. Thanos had lived inside his head for six years, but what good did it do? And sure, it isn't just Tony who failed - he's had plenty of days where it's everyone else's failures that've been rolling around in his head instead, like a lead stone weighing him down and refusing to let him rest... but today, it's that familiar gnawing self-loathing that's got him trapped firmly in it's claws.

Of course, Thor must feel exactly the same way. Must've felt that way before, at least. So how does he do it? Keeping his composure like that, it's- it's something Tony can't even comprehend.

"Hard to imagine getting accustomed to something like this." Tony responds, when Thor's finished speaking. He can't quite bring himself to ask the question on his mind - he's not quite that heartless, and he does know that Thor must be suffering, too - but that doesn't stop him wondering all the same.

"It's a shit deal we've been given, if you ask me. Guess that's life though, right? What else can we do but carry on?" It's clear how sour he finds the idea from his tone of voice, which is louder, too. But then he sighs, drained of energy all at once.

"...It's a nice idea, though. Just- getting used to it, moving on. I should really be grateful for what I have, anyway." ...Tony almost wants to apologize to Thor, just for a moment, and guilt coils up in his gut... But that wouldn't fix anything. "I just... can't stop thinking about what I should've done."

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growing closer.

prompts for characters getting to know each other.

“i don't think you realize how much people notice you.”

“you don't seem particularly trusting. then again, maybe neither am i.”

“you have a habit of appearing at interesting moments.”

“you strike me as someone who trusts their gut. am i wrong?”

“i've noticed you always leave before everyone else.”

“i think you enjoy keeping people guessing.”

“you seem restless.”

“it's strange how you can be surrounded by people and still feel alone.”

“have i ever told you that you're difficult to read?”

“you look like you haven't slept.”

“you know this place well enough that i'm starting to wonder if you've always lived here.”

“do you ever worry about the kind of person you're becoming?”

“i've known a lot of people. none of them were quite like you.”

“i can't decide whether people truly change, or if they just become better at hiding parts of themselves.”

“i had the strangest dream last night. do you remember yours when you wake up?”

“the more i get to know you, the more i keep noticing little similarities between the two of us.”

“i didn't realize you'd remember that.”

“most people seem uncomfortable with silence. i never minded it much.”

“you seem to know more than you're saying.”

“you seem comfortable on your own. i wonder if that's the same thing as never feeling lonely.”

“do you always look this serious?”

“you're easier to talk to than i expected.”

“i've always thought trust is harder to earn than people pretend.”

“you always seem to be watching.”

“i think you've been avoiding me.”

“you're not at all what i thought you would be.”

“whenever i ignore my instincts, i end up regretting it. what about you?”

“i wasn't expecting to run into you again.”

“i can't tell if you're someone who enjoys solitude or just tolerates it.”

“i know it sounds childish, but i can't help believing some people are meant to find one another.”

“you make a terrible liar.”

“you don't strike me as the sort of person people forget.”

“i think people underestimate you.”

“i can't decide whether you're charming or frustrating.”

“i don't think i've seen you smile before.”

“i wasn't sure you'd come.”

“it's a little strange. i think i've started looking forward to seeing you.”

“sometimes i wonder if we ever really know anyone.”

“you're surprisingly good company.”

“i think most people would like to believe they're good. i'm not sure it's always that simple.”

“i think being truly understood is a far rarer thing than people realize.”

“i don't usually tell people this...”

“you make that look easy.”

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under the cut for bnd spoilers!!

ALRIGHT I'M SO SORRY but i literally cannot help myself. like this post for a starter from her.................. iykyk. i'll be trying to tag any and all posts (ic & ooc) as bnd spoilers //, but if i need to be doing anything more or if you think i shouldn't be posting spoiler-y stuff at all yet please let me know and i'll wait a bit longer!

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ALSO SINCE I'M PRETTY NEW TO THE MCU FANDOM or at least to writing in it, my question for you all today is what's the etiquette for tagging spoilers for marvel movies?? i'm gonna see the new spiderman movie next weekend and i suspect there's at least one muse i'll want to add, but i don't want to like. spoil anyone, obviously....... ;w;

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GUYS I JUST WATCHED THE MOVIE (which i loved so much btw!!) AND I WANT TO ADD #HER AS A MUSE SO BAD.............. but i don't know if it would be too spoilery/how to navigate spoilers for the movie here in general like. at all. if anyone has any suggestions i am desperate for your help!!

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you know what. i'm growing more and more fond of natasha lately. maybe i should add her as a muse..........??

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i want 2 write....... emma frost................... ;w;

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ALSO SINCE I'M PRETTY NEW TO THE MCU FANDOM or at least to writing in it, my question for you all today is what's the etiquette for tagging spoilers for marvel movies?? i'm gonna see the new spiderman movie next weekend and i suspect there's at least one muse i'll want to add, but i don't want to like. spoil anyone, obviously....... ;w;

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also thinking about the horrifying implications of hell and mephisto's existence in the marvel universe atm.......... it's absolutely 100% my Religious Trauma (tm) that has me always so interested/fascinated by depictions of hell and the afterlife/judgement after death in general in fiction, but i kind of love how intertwined with mephisto doom's story is??

like, his whole initial motivation being to save his mother from her torment in hell.... idk, it gets me!! and the way he himself is tormented by nightmares of her fate after the machine he made exploded........ honestly i don't know entirely where i'm going with this post but i definitely feel a certain way about it. i wonder if he ever fears his own fate after death, and if it ever factors in to why he thinks so highly of himself (as a defense mechanism to avoid believing that could ever be him, etc.)

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i was today years old when i found out that apparently doom had a redemption arc of sorts in the comics at one point?? and when i looked into why he became a villain again afterwards, the resounding answer that kept coming back was just "yeah it's comics status-quo syndrome/no reason is really given" which is like man.

doom deserves better tbh............... i am growing increasingly intrigued by him as a character in the comics even outside of my hype for doomsday lately ngl. i read books of doom and i think that helped me wrap my head around his traumas & reasons for his mindset more than reading people's opinions second-hand did, lol............ i'm sad we've still got like half a year until doomsday because i really want to write him now ;ww;

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"You've gotta get it, right? I mean, come on."

Though he was going for nonchalance, there's undeniable frustration that seeps into the undercurrent of Tony's voice as he speaks; flexing his fingers slightly as they uncurl from the fists they'd become at some point. It's not directed at Thor, who Tony hasn't even met the eyes of yet, pacing around the room instead - and it's not like he's even bitter at anyone in particular, but. It's fine to get frustrated sometimes, isn't it? It's pretty normal, Tony would say. Even if it always seems to end up with something going poorly.

"Being a god and all. ...It probably makes all these petty human problems seem pretty small, huh?" But then Tony smiles wryly for a moment, and finally lifts his gaze from the floor again, trying to force the tension out of his body at the same time. It's actually a bit easier than he expected. Maybe that's just exhaustion, or because he managed to get his feelings off his chest... and it doesn't stop the headache, but hey, you can't win them all.

"How do you do it, anyway?" he asks, firing off the question before he's had a chance to overthink. "Dealing with all that, uh. Kingly responsibility, pressure... you know, all the good stuff."

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it's time for a starter call for tony or yelena! like this post for a starter from either, and please specify who you'd like if you have a preference <3

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TRANSMISSIONS ━━━━ STARSET ₍^. .^₎⟆ below is an assortment of lyrics from the album transmissions by starset. feel free to adjust as necessary!

we can change our fate.

we can change our future.

we can change the past.

can you tell me what's real?

i've lost my way again.

can you tell me how to feel?

i dont feel anything.

I can see you running every night from the same darkness.

if you just say the word, i'll be there by your side.

even if it means the death of me, i won't let go.

when you're backed against the wall, i could be the one who's always there to break your fall.

who are you to change this world?

no one needs to hear your words.

could you come and change me?

take away everything i am.

bring it to an end.

i'll be what you wanted.

make me fall, make me bleed.

who i am is not good enough. never good enough.

i hear you calling from behind the star fields.

i feel you radiating energy like eternal northern lights.

i see you washing over me across the sky.

but everyone knows by now, fairy tales are not found, they're written in the walls.

we will face the odds against us.

they think I'm crazy, but they don't know the feeling.

you take all of the pain away.

i cannot stop this sickness taking over.

it takes control and drags me into nowhere.

i need your help, i can't fight this forever.

i know you're watching, i can feel you out there.

don't let me go.

the more i fight, the more i work.

i am awake, i am alive.

i won't come down.

if you wanna break free, you know where to find me.

there's no hate, there's no love.

i call your name as i walk alone.

send a signal to guide me home.

but i found in you what was lost in me.

i could lie awake just to watch you breathe.

in the dead of night, you went dark on me.

how could you just walk away and leave me here?

you were all i've got, to guide me home.

i can't do this on my own.

there's nothing left, but i'm not leaving.

i've been looking for a way, to bring you back to life.

and if i could find a way, then i would bring you back tonight.

but you told me, if you love me, let it die.

your eyes stare right through me.

you're so far gone, but i'm not leaving.

and you left me more dead than you'll ever know.

they said there was no way.

i'm gonna take the past away.

there's a memory of how we used to be.

i know, this is the point of no return.

it's uncontrollable, such a beautiful desire.

there's something sinister about the way it hurts.

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valeria richards my beloved <333333