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[definitelydigital]

this random guy called me a pedophile earlier this month and he also called 3 others pedos and said they groomed/raped people so i can only assume hes spreading the same lies about me, oh well! truth prevails

[definitelydigital]

i feel so useless i think death would be so much easier than feeling this guilty i just make things harder for everyone im sat on a bench at the field at the moment cuz my mum wanted me to go to college but told me we were doing something else i really hate plans changing im so sad i wanna be home but i cant face her i feel too embarrassed i really hate myself and im aure everyone else does too

[definitelydigital]

im gunna put my all into streaming and making myself and others happy i dont care if that means i have to ditch college and make my mum sad because everytime we speak she lets me know that i will have no future doing this but i will do this i have to

[definitelydigital]

i just feel so useless all i wanna do is make sure i have enough money to eat and have a place to live as well as making people happy i will try my hardest to make this work ill do everything my mentally ill brain can!

[definitelydigital]

i really hope more people can find my streams the end goal is to make my living this way if this doesnt work out i will just end my life as im too useless to do anything else but im also really scared of having more people watching me as what if i upset them? if i hurt someone who took time out of their day to hang out with me i dont thinn i would be able to take it

[definitelydigital]

im determined to be a popular streamer! i want to make connections with as many people as possible!

[definitelydigital]

with my streaming i would really like to make it more idol based you know what i mean? if i get more popular i would really wanna do meet ups and stuff like that

[definitelydigital]

i hit 3000 followers on tiktok also! well im on 3200 now but still 3000!!! im sososo grateful i wish i could give them all a hug

[definitelydigital]

removed core and gothic from the server felt like i was a bit mean but it was deserved. dont lie to me or tell someone that youll piss on their nans grave youll get whats coming to you

[definitelydigital]

[definitelydigital]

streaming is going amazing!! i have a discord server with around 58 people in it but i cant stop the need for cutting i really really want to. BUT im now getting money from streaming how amazing is that!! im so grateful im going to put it towards eventually buying a better camera!! i want to make as good of content as i can for them im also making little gift boxes for the people going to the convention! its nothing fancy as i simply dont have the money but im going to put in a cute cat keychain and either a brownie or cupcake :)) its not a lot but i really want to show my appreciation any way i can

[definitelydigital]

my life is going so good right now im talking to kind people on stream more people are finding my streams and im just in general happy to be alive!!! thank you sertraline

[definitelydigital]

i went live on tiktok and spoke to so many sweet people i had an amazing time 🥹🥹

[definitelydigital]

had a guy chat in my stream! he was so nice yippie yippie!!!

[definitelydigital]

clean room!

[definitelydigital]

aside from posting and making new social media accounts today i worked on twitch alerts and a brb screen! im going for a pixelly style its sosososo cute!! i know no one will probably ever find my streams but even if 5 people do it makes me happy :)

[definitelydigital]

gained a lot of followers today makes me happy :)))))