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Just a Confused Plural

Welcome to Confused-Plural, sharing our& plural experiences!

We& are an OSDD-1 and BPD system. Our& members will sign their name at the end of posts as desired. We& are using this blog as an "anonymous" way to talk about our& system, as well as relate to other struggling plurals. Preferred terms: you&/your&, plural, alter, facet, system

This is a pro-endo, pro-non-traumagenic, inclusive plural blog. This blog does not and will not tolerate or support anti-endo, anti-non-traumagenic sentiments.

Our& system struggles with feeling fake, and some of our& posts may include discussion of attempted self-fakeclaiming. If you want to avoid this content, it will be tagged with #fake, #false, or #falsefake.

Asks and Submissions are both open, feel free to share your& experiences or ask us questions.

Rentry

[defunct-ampersand]

we& have had a lot of fusions over the last 2 months and are still plural, but a lot more cohesive. it's harder to tell people apart and we& haven't had a split in a long time, probably about 5-10 members still around

[genderqueerdykes]

living as a system is honestly the important part. coming out as one isn't necessary, if you all feel it won't be safe. you do not have to disclose being a system, but living as one in whatever capacity you are able to is important. realizing it and figuring out ways to express yourselves and live your individual lives helps a lot more than telling folks who may or may not get it, such as family

try to find ways to enrich your lives as best as possible. let yourselves dress differently, talk differently, act differently. do differently hobbies. eat different foods. go to different places. pick up new interests. engage with different media. create different types of art. whatever constructive influence you feel from others inside, go ahead and nurture that

you don't have to know everyone's names yet to live and be independent. whether or not you have dissociative or other types of barriers shouldn't hold you back from being yourselves, whether that's in your headspace or innerworld, or expressing it on the outside in a way you all understand. this is crucial for your collective health and well being. it just helps to be able to be yourselves

[plural-affirmations]

Here's some positivity for headmates who don't want to be seen/interacted with!

It isn't always the case where headmates want to meet absolutely everyone in their system, or people in the outerworld. We've personally had experiences where loved ones have gotten offended someone didn't want to front for them, so I just want to take some time to tell you: it's ok to just exist by yourself! You don't owe anyone anything, love. ❤️

With that out of the way, shoutout to:

System members who are misanthropic, socially awkward, aloof, or otherwise just not as extroverted as their brainmates

Alters who don't front due to trauma, anxiety, being a symptomholder, etc.

Headmates who only front for specific circumstances/people

People in systems who never front at all

The ones who want to front, but can't for whatever reason

Headmates who spend the majority of their time with innerworld duties, so they can't front even if they wanted to (we have several headmates like this!)

Those with OSDD-1A, P-DID, or another condition that makes them a non-switching system

Etc.

For us? Our system is quite literally too large for everyone to get an equal amount of fronting time. 24 hours divided into over 100 people is just not feasible for any of us.

The point is, you're not the only one that has these things going on, and we're here to support you& and the plural community as a whole, always!

🖤💜💙💚💛

[plural-culture-is]

Plural culture is;

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[this-punk-is-pissed]

“Who do you think you are?” Good question, I don’t know.

[defunct-ampersand]

uh so we& have had a complete shut down and restructure. we& dramatically reduced our& numbers and are still trying to figure everything out

[multiplicity-positivity]

Shoutout to systems with Paranoid Personality Disorder (PPD)!

Life as a system is not always easy, and struggling with a personality disorder of any kind can complicate things and make daily life a challenge. Here’s to the systems out there with paranoid personality disorder!

Shoutout to systems who feel like their personality disorder will make it harder for them to find hope and community among other plurals!

Shoutout to systems whose paranoia causes them to have difficulties trusting others, both inside and out!

Shoutout to systems who live in a constant state of fear and worry due to their disorder!

Shoutout to systems who consciously formed their system as a means to cope with their PPD!

Shoutout to systems whose plurality and personality disorder both formed as a result of trauma (whether in childhood or adulthood)!

Shoutout to systems who seem jumpy, nervous, or unreliable due to their disorder!

Shoutout to systems who are extremely suspicious of others, so much so that they avoid being in touch with other people as much as possible!

Shoutout to systems who are content to live a solitary life, and to those who long for meaningful human connections!

Regardless of how well you’re functioning in life or managing your symptoms, please remember that you are important and loved - and your life (along with the lives of your headmates) has value and is worth living! We wish you comfort, safety, and hope in your future. We’re rooting for you and we believe in you! No matter what disorders you deal with, you will always be a vital and cherished part of the plural community just the way you are!

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[defunct-ampersand]

we& had a system collapse within the last week which is pretty common for us&, but we& have had two fusions since and i'm a bit curious how this is going to go. we& haven't fused before i don't think

[is-this-plural]

anons are plural.

there are hundreds, thousands, maybe even millions of us, all in the same…account? Blog? not too sure myself

And yet, from the outside, nobody can tell who you are - the only way to distinguish between you is some sign you make for yourself.

We've been over this before, but plural.

[is-this-plural]

plural 2, the squeakquel

[multiplicity-positivity]

Here’s some positivity for systeens, systweens, and system middles!

Often in spaces, content, and conversations surrounding system littles, older syskids tend to get left out of the discussion. But systeens/tweens, middles, and older littles are still syskids and they’re still important members of their system and the plural community! This post is for all the system middles!

If you’re a middle who enjoys toys, movies, games, and other things geared towards a younger audience or intended for kids younger than you, we want to remind you that it’s perfectly fine to enjoy these things! Liking stuff meant for younger kids doesn’t invalidate you or your age in any way - it isn’t “cringey,” weird, or creepy, and you’re allowed to enjoy things meant for younger kids without feeling any guilt or shame!

If you’re a middle who enjoys things with mature themes or geared more towards adults, we want to let you know that this is okay too! It’s perfectly fine to be curious about or enjoy things with suggestive or violent themes, to get excited about things other kids might find boring, or to do things that are normally just for adults! Enjoying things meant for adults doesn’t make you any less of a kid and it doesn’t make you a bad person! It’s okay to be yourself and just like the things you like!

For all you middles struggling to find yourself and figure out where you belong, we’re wishing you the very best on your journey! It’s okay to take a lot of time learning about yourself and trying to understand where you fit in the world and your system. It’s okay if sometimes you feel younger and more vulnerable while other times you feel older and stronger! We hope you can have fun experimenting with hobbies, activities, causes, aesthetics, and other things as you learn more about yourself!

For age sliders who are sometimes middles, yes, this post is for you too! You are allowed to exist just the way you are - there’s nothing wrong with only being a middle occasionally! You still count as a syskid as long as you’d like to call yourself that, and you will always be welcome in our spaces just the way you are! It’s okay if your wants and tastes fluctuates with your age. It’s okay if you sometimes feel nervous, confused, or like you don’t belong! However, we promise that you absolutely do belong, and you don’t have to change one bit in order to be accepted here!

Whether you’re a middle who wants to grow up, who wishes they were younger, or who is happy being the age they are, we want you to remember that you are cherished and loved, both by the rest of your system and the plural community as a whole! And we consider ourselves so lucky to be able to share this space with you. Please try to take it easy and treat yourself with kindness in the future. Know that we believe in you and we’re rooting for you! You have a bright future ahead of you and we’re wishing you the very best!

[cerebralabyss]

“how was your day yesterday?”

see i would tell you but i actually can’t remember because i didn’t exist yesterday my buddy named Bill was living in my body for me and i don’t know what he did

- 🥀

[defunct-ampersand]

before we& realized we& are plural, we& would say stuff like “yeah it’s like i have a whole new personality every 6 months” and come to learn we& are a system that has a lot of collapses and rebuilding

[defunct-ampersand]

hello we& have been really inactive, we& had a system collapse recently and are struggling to function a bit. that and just life being busy. i wish i knew what was going on in here lol

[median-culture-is]

median culture is always being the same guy but also not the guy who did that, and not the guy who was here a few minutes ago but also being that guy always.

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[plural-plum]

Sure you're a queer inclusionist but are you normal about the identities of plural folks

[defunct-ampersand]

sometimes i really hate having BPD. i just have to put in so much work to be healthy when i just want to hide under the covers and cry. i'm already so burnt out from everything else, i don't want to also have to worry about relationships this much. nothing's even that bad anymore, i'm just anxious and attached to my fp