All The Little Broken Things

I wish I had something wise to say. . .I binge all of my entertainment. I wish I could say that I were a single fandom blog, but I dabble in a bit of everything. Actually, I'm not even certain this qualifies as a blog. I can't make a gif to save my life, soo. . .a lot of reblogging. Occasionally you'll find some of my awful poetry. Just move past it.

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happy birthday

Force fed a nightmare  We Die, choked on stars and stripes.  Tempest toss’d Refuse. 

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Helium

It is rare on earth. Coveted. Unseen. Once known You are infinite.

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Entropy for dummies

You fall into my orbit and we Push and pull So long i think you belong to me I think I can keep you. You continue on your journey to Decay, your return To nothing.  Somewhere something Is learning of your beauty and they See me But we have returned to the dark Belonging to everything, And nothing.

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Spectral

We spend our lives looking at tomorrow. Not now, but then.  Someday. We tell our children “when you get older” And lament that they do not enjoy Right now. We put aside our meager earnings For a rainy day Wiping from our brows drops From a leaky roof. We spend our lives gazing at stars That are already dead Convincing ourselves that We have more time All the while our time is…

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the right to choose

I will meet my kin. Those who chose the sea, before I’m shackled anew. 

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grown up lies

When we were small Africa was a country Overflowing with tiny black bodies Bent over from hunger  Bellies bulbous with disease.  Eat up, they said.  There are children starving in Africa.  We patched our wounds with strips from  Burned flags Grew brittle from lead filled water.  I wonder at the vastness of what is now A continent And I wonder what lies  African children were told…

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Diabolical Devices

In this universe I welcomed you to the world And, convinced I would leave it, settled into despair. I did not behold you for an eternity or a day But this was the celestial event And the diabolical device: There was a world where your name was uttered And in agony for all that would not be seen Or known Nothing more was said. She did not see you babble Or cry Or wonder And she does…

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Of Tiger Balm and 9 O’Clock Bedtimes

Fortieth winter. Still cold. Sad. And poorer now Than I was last year. 

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The Lucky Ones

As children we get to prepare for Adulthood. Moving in and out of  spaces we hate, in stasis. We get there. “Older.” All our time Accounted for. If we are to  Survive, we must earn it. Even if we earn it, survival Is never a guarantee. There is talk of paradise on earth, though we will never see it.  Our only hope is just beyond a cloud At the base of a rainbow, The only toll our…

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Obituary for the newly [disgraceful] dead

Your drying blood is Paraffin, the fire you stoked Indiscriminate.  

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thanks be to god

I prayed tears of blood. No answer. He was busy Finding keys instead.

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The Dead Daughters' Club

I am two weeks dead, this time. . An ordinary Wednesday caught me unaware. She said “you are dead to me” and like that We are motherless children. . I have been dead before, though Death was cold and lonely then. Death now has lost its sting or perhaps I have felt worse barbs. . The ghost I am become marvels. The skin that she pierced has grown callused She breaks it open again and…

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interred in my bones

The tide ambles in Washing its mouth with the remains of our day. Defiant, we dig deeper And build stronger No wind can topple it And ours.  We are magnificent The water does not run. It does not need to.  It strolls slowly along before Swallowing our marks Erasing us, its heavy tongue Smoothing our grooves And all that we made. We will return again, Pretending to recognize The…

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Infinite Loop

I dreamt of work. Then I awakened. Despaired, and I went to work. Then

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A Reading

When I was a child Hell was a lake of fire That would burn my pretty brown flesh Through the marrow in my bones To the very soul of me Leaving only my eyes intact So that I might see the separation Between myself and God Whose only requirement Was unfailing devotion Unquestioning love Penance Pardon Unwavering commitment To lack. Now I am old And hell is where it has always…

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Tempest tossed.

Each day there exists Less of me than the day before. Years ago ink stained my hands And I could barely get the words On the page. Today I threw the books, empty, Into the trash. I set down roots in a rest stop There is a me shaped stain on the bench. A few weeks ago I asked my boss to meet He ignored me And I smiled at him after. Years ago I would have stood on My morals And I…

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Columbia

They told her his violence was love, first. Tugging her hair. Staining her dress. Screaming at her. They offered her bandages and said It is envy. He wants what you have. What you are. His feet crushed her windpipe His fists battered her vocal chords And it felt like something Real And painful And not at all like envy. In some [distant] future he will be  Remembered for his…