[delectablebeetle]

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[delectablebeetle]

wtf is that thing around his neck btw or does this get explained later in his route ive been wondering about it this entire time. is it some sorr of collar & lock situation??????? it doesnt really Look like that but i cannot think of anything else that it Could be. it wraps around behind his neck though so i have no fucking clue. i also never noticed the detail on his belt and his little bracelet before either what a fruit..........

[delectablebeetle]

tw discussing fictional sa

perhaps i should wait until i finish mink's route or get further into it before saying this, but it bugs me and i want to talk about it. i'll admit i'm not bringing up dmmd or mink more specifically to That many people, but to the couple i Have been like Mink is soooo handsome im excited for his route to the response each time has been haha yeah.............. yeah except for the rape.... or yeah he Is a rapist though, and that seems unfair to me. I WANT TO PLASTER A HUGE DISCLAIMER SAYING IT IS NOT UNFAIR TO CALL HIM WHAT HE IS HE IS A RAPIST HE DOES RAPE AOBA AND CALLING HIM THAT AND DISCUSSING THAT ISNT WHAT I FIND UNFAIR. What i find unfair is that koujaku and noiz ALSO rape aoba but they don't get the same push back when i talk about them with people. noiz's reconnect bad route is entirely a rape scene and koujaku rapes aoba at glitter. i am absolutely not saying people arent allowed to dislike or even hate mink just because noiz and koujaku assault aoba too by the way, i want to make that very clear, and seeing as All of his sex scenes (base game at least i havent looked at the reconnect content) are labelled rape and i've only seen one the higher hate percentages may be justified, but part of me has to wonder if it's unintentional or even blatant racism. Shocking i know. bugging the shit out of me; it's fine when a white guy rapes aoba and it's fine when his asian friend rapes him but god forbid a dude with darker skin does it. OBVIOUSLY IT'S NOT GOOD IN ANY OF THESE CASES BUT DO YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN?????????

[delectablebeetle]

i dont think Anyone is going to like what i have to say about mink's route so far. though if you read what i said about noiz's reconnect route..................................

[delectablebeetle]

my cpap btw is giving me insane ear pressure im constantly having to pop them and its getting to be really annoying. im gna phone the doctor tmrw to see if there's any settings i can mess with to perhaps get that to Stop but wow it sucks. im not rly enjoying the top hose design either and there's not much i can do to fix the set up for that. i knew i shouldve gone with the trunk style mask but this was supposed to be "better" to sleep on ur side with and well bertha i havent been able to do that with it so wtf is the point

[delectablebeetle]

it Seems like the pressure was from me lowering the air temp and in turn the humidity levels cuz of that, though it's still not entirely gone. 30C is as high as it goes though. the reason i lowered it wuz cuz breathing warm air makes me feel a bit gross LMFAO but it's better than constantly popping my ears i guess. it was also making my nose run. sigh.

[octobergurl]

ok well i rly did Not want to e-beg again but i fear i have little options here. i have a dermatologist appt on wednesday nd since i don’t drive i was gna take the bus but theyre so unreliable in my city n i dont wanna risk being late to my appt. so i decided to take a lyft there, problem is the ride there n back home will be like $100 in total which is money i unfortunately do not have. i would also like some extra cash perhaps since i also have a phone bill 2 pay n there will most likely b a copay at the end of the appt. so i will make my goal $250 for now. if anyone could pitch in to help me out thatd be so appreciated. ik everyone is struggling financially rn so rly any amount helps. thank u so much for ur time

$0/$250

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[octobergurl]

$10/$250

[delectablebeetle]

my cpap btw is giving me insane ear pressure im constantly having to pop them and its getting to be really annoying. im gna phone the doctor tmrw to see if there's any settings i can mess with to perhaps get that to Stop but wow it sucks. im not rly enjoying the top hose design either and there's not much i can do to fix the set up for that. i knew i shouldve gone with the trunk style mask but this was supposed to be "better" to sleep on ur side with and well bertha i havent been able to do that with it so wtf is the point

[delectablebeetle]

koujaku's reconnect bad ending ............... ........................... gross. i Loved noiz's bad ending i thought that was so sexy but this was...... not .... ...... ............... i really like "aoba's" design in this route though the pure white and red is so striking, and his blushing face Oh wow. Wow. Stunning...... i start mink route tmrw........ then trip & virus, mizuki, and i'm leaving ren for last. idk in what order ill do the other three im kind of vibrating over mizuki ngl so i mite watch that after mink

[delectablebeetle]

has anyone played nu: carnival is it good yay or nay. trying to determine what i should watch a playthru of next; other games of a similar vein on my list are togainu no chi and touchstarved, so if there are opinions on Either of those too i would love to hear them ..

[delectablebeetle]

u know what koujaku's good reconnect route was alright. just alright. it was cute even i would say. i dont know if it's taken me any farther from my original opinion though.......................... i enjoy a childhood friends to lovers arc but it So seriously feels forced here I DUNNO. I DUNNO! anyone anyone at all out there that gaf whats Ur opinion on this storyline from a fourteen year old game that hasnt been popular in about as long

[delectablebeetle]

hmm.... idk how i feel abt koujaku's route... ive yet to watch the reconnect portion, but ........... grumbles mutters mumbles...... rubs chin.. honestly his route fell a bit flat to me from a bl/romance perspective. sure the romance isnt Allllllll dmmd is about, but that's kind of a massive portion of it and i feel as though that direction was forced in koujaku's route if that makes sense. i like their friendship More and this isnf a matter of me disliking koujaku, i Do like his personal story. it's tragic and interesting and ryuuhou was a very fun and fascinating character to me too. but there was absolutely nothing that built up to aoba and koujaku getting together and i am Not counting what happened at glitter as lead-up At All because that was frankly more bizarre than anything else And also it wasn't really explained. koujaku touched on it Briefly i guess but ??????????? not really?? i dont know. it didnt do anything for me. i wish there was more prior development. something should've happened when aoba saw him washing his kimono that was a Huge opportunity missed. i liked the three months later scene a lot if that's Any solace like i Do think they're a cute couple but... there should've been a different chef in the kitchen idk........ P.S. AOBA WITH SHORT HAIR IS SCARY NEVER SHOW ME THAT EVER AGAIN PUT IT BACK PUT IT BACK NOW !!!!!!!!!!!!!

[delectablebeetle]

[delectablebeetle]

you're out of your fucking mind

[nineinchmales]

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[delectablebeetle]

i Did unfortunately go into work.

[delectablebeetle]

second night no sleep im so tempted to call in cuz this is fucking hell

[delectablebeetle]

actually that's kind of a lie I Really Like Ryuuhou but that's not Koujaku now is it. ryuuhou greatly piques my interest im excited to learn the rest of what's going on with him