Illiana’s Diary
Entry II
I saw him today. I don’t know how he found me, but he did. I saw him, but I don’t think he saw me. If he did he didn’t act like it but that’s what scares me. What if he did see me and now he’s watching me. What if he’s outside my house right now and I don’t know it. What if he knows everything and follows me everywhere and has been here the entire time and I just haven’t known it. Somehow I always manage to freak myself out and let me tell you I really freaked myself out today. Seeing him really got me on edge. My mind was racing my heart pounding I couldn’t think I couldn’t form a proper thought in my head. I felt as if I was going mad in side of my own mind. I felt as if I was losing all sense of me that I was becoming this ball of pure worry and anxiety. I’m not an anxious person so for me to feel anxious it had to be bad. I don’t typically get like this, I don’t let myself, but that man he brings out this side of me. He brings out the worst in me and that’s not a good thing. I am not a good person no matter how much I try to be. What he did to me, that has made me unable to ever be a good person. He took that away from me. He made me kill and that’s not even the secret I’ve been keeping. God I don’t know what I’m going to do. Maybe I’m just going to have to go on the run again. I can’t let anyone find out. I can’t let someone else have this power over me. I need to get away and I need to stay far away from him.