S(uicide)mile

sad and horny lol

[understands]

[depressedaddyy]

words cannot describe this pain im feeling. the words keep repeating in my head. do i know you? are the different now? was it all just a bunch of bullshit? it can’t be. i refuse to believe that the person who loved me for me, and the person that i loved dearly, is just a fake. i cant, it doesn’t make sense. the person i loved vs the person now may be different. idek what i’m saying lmao. i guess he wins tho. the other guy. i couldn’t give u what u wanted i guess? u weren’t ready for this even though u said u were. leaving me here just confused, heart broken. fuck me i hate my life so much. i miss you. you’re different now so what’s the point. i’m hurting so much because of you. why would u say those things. maybe you didn’t love me. but then again what the fuck ofc u loved me. why did u say those things. FUCK i wanna fucking committ. life is so fucking bullshit. what is this all for. you’re happy now arnt you, with him. i did say your happiness first. and i’ll stick to it, maybe this is what i deserve.

[akaashikeji-archive]

❝  Y o u ‘ r e   b e a u t i f u l.  ❞

[sejubaek]

[alien]

[depressedaddyy]

i love you.

[nwumb]

“I wonder if you think of me If you talk about me If you miss me” // We almost made it happenings Pt 3.

[lback2kansas]

[hype]

hype

[goodquoteco]

[jpgmami]

[hoseoch]

“what are you gonna do, cry about it?” yes . the fuck

[depressedaddyy]

you look like you’re having fun baby, it makes me sad but if you’re happy then that’s enough . i have no idea what to think, idk what you’re thinking.. do you miss me? do you love me? do you think about me? i cannot stop thinking about you. you don’t leave my head, sure i’m tryna distract myself but nothing works. i miss you so much and i’m just so upset. if you’re happy then that’s enough.. i’d rather that over me. your happiness comes first my love. i love you dearly. you are not obligated to keep me happy, my happiness is not your responsibility and you’re focusing on yourself to be happy. moving on. i get it. i just wish we could be happy together. my heart aches so much it’s physically fucking hurting. every night is more of the same, i cannot stop crying. head is overflowing with thoughts. i miss you so much.

yuanfen. hopefully. please help me move on god! it’s all part of your plan right? there’s light at the end of the tunnel. fucking waiting. part of me just wants to just kill myself. like i just hate everything in my life, you kept me going. you made me smile. my motivation. my love.

[ahs-64]

Missing someone and not being able to see them is the worst feeling ever.

[tanya-nicole]

I won’t glorify or romanticize heartbreak. For me, it was a kind of death and I was forced to keep living.

~ Warsan Shire

[relatable-memes]

[depressedaddyy]

losing hope! giving up! your happiness comes first, even if i wind up being left out, which i am. i feel so alone and it fucking sucks. everything just fucking sucks, i miss you so badly. i cannot cope without you. though, i am not selfish. be happy and live your life. part of me just wants end everything right here right now. no motivation. just fuck all really. fuck living honestly, this world is so fucked i fucking hate it. people are just so ugh. my mind just goes crazy every day, every night. my heart hurts. everything just hurts. why did it have to turn out like this. if u weren’t ready to love then why did you, you awakened my love for no fucking reason. just to leave. if u knew it was wrong timing then why...i just hate myself so much. i really miss you. i love you so fucking much. i’m a burden. sorry.