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ex-muslim nordaf thirdie +#AsianSwag

professionally diagnosed by BMF as ENFP =^.^=

any more than this you will have to LURKMOAR to find out

#välkommen bienvenue welcome... to my crib

WHEN WE HUG OUR HEARTS CONNECT LIKE MAGNETS

my first sign of apostasy was in the first grade when i deliberately avoided learning الفاتحة & i was lucky enough to have a classmate whose last name was very vaguely similar to mine so when our teacher drew my name & called it up as the next person to recite the surah in front of the class the guy misheard & did it in my place. & she never knew !!!! & i never learned it since. in one ear out the other

#i also never learned how to pray in the real way i've had my own thing going already i just followed after whoever during eid prayer & that #i only know سورة الإخلاص the shortest one #i remember being proud of learning it when i was like 5 just for my family to humiliate me for only knowing that one #my mindset since birth if you make fun of me i'll prove you right immediately & forever #if you have anything bad to say about me C'est vrai Dorénavant tout est vrai 💯💯💯💯#i did eventually learn maybe 4 parts of different surahs for school but i don't remember any of them today #i was only interested in the stories

#spiritually pinned #fav #of all time #not for a religious reason though i just hate them

i hate my mutual's male oomf so much i literally start seeing red when i see his stupid icon on the dash GET THE FUCK OFF MY TURF !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#& it's my turf because it's MY dashboard #I LIKE HER NOT YOU 😑😑😑😑😑😑😑#my entire life has been a try to not look down on your friends for keeping male company challenge #would make better sense if i was raised in a sex segregated environment but i wasn't at all i'm just naturally sexist #i don't think i'll ever grow out of it #i don't want to #i can't even escape them here on the supposedly also sexist side of tumblr

gremlininho

matratzengruft-1

@derpinette

#sooooo cute i would've done this if i had a kitten as a kid #the حنوتة near my aunt's place used to sell fakies (pre-g4 mlp) & i loved them #in kindergarten we had this large used & abused silicone pony with marker all over i remember feeling bad for it #it was like a torture goblin

i'm really trying to get over my newly developed agoraphobia through online interaction but if anything i feel like i'm infinitely more stressed out by the internet than real life #Gay

#i've always felt this way though like aside from expressing homosexuality it's easier for me to be myself in person than online #i'm just mentally deranged now it's reached acute levels i mean everyone says that but #i can't even open messages or websites entirely without feeling like i'm legitimately going to puke #i'm just like avoiding everything because i'm randomly terrified & it's been costing me everything #even doing my job is hard i have to put up things so i can't see the little icon that tells me when i'm being remotely supervised #& i can't work at all if i can it's like paralysis #for a while i couldn't get out of bed at all honestly even now it's hard #even listening to music feels like a whole endeavor i'm too stressed out to take on it's so annoying #(but it's also because i switched from obsessive step counting to that so it's probably a good thing that i'm too stressed to do it)#my bestie surprised me by coming over for the first time & we had a really great day together i was normal & everything #even tho i haven't spoken to somebody my age since like december so i can actually be normal but i feel like it's impossible online #& everything is online now everyone is too far nobody likes calls #reasons why i can only ever be a reply guy audience member #but it's killing me because i'm really not introverted at all i DO want to talk to people all the time but i can't ♯ImprisonedByMyMental #*continues to gray & develop cancer*#i'm so annoyed by all this negativity ughhh i just want to have fun but i'm caged inside of myself & i keep sabotaging everything #to keep myself there even though i don't want to be

hebabutterfly

احنا لو قدرنا نهرب من اللي بنحبهم

هنهرب من قلبنا و روحنا فين ؟!

– صوت من الماضي (١٩٥٦)

#chimp scratching head photo I don't knowwwwwww......#keeps abnegating human connection anyway 😹 ♯ImTerrified #this film would've been absolute perfection if egypt hadn't mandated that its films should have at least one womanbeating scene #okay it was just a slap iirc but mannnn....

girlsuggestion

Eat cheese

#where would i be without dairy

missmirrorselfie01

sugartear

Lesson:

Whats the opposite of fuck well the truth is that its opposite is love. Fuck you is an expression of hate and love you is its opposite. Well whats interesting is that they are also synonymous. Fucking someone and Loveing someone can both mean sex well this is what some people call philosophy or linguistics.