Trying to be a better me. Be kind. Be humble. Not proana, I’m just trying to keep motivated to work on myself. My mental health sucks right now. 😭 I go through these cycles where I wanna be thin, like 120lbs, but other days I’ve embraced my curves and I’m fine where I’m at. But nonetheless, I’ve dedicated myself to losing weight for ME. I could do with losing some of my thighs 😓. I’m hella thicc. 😤 Not proud of it, just tryna lose some weight. Please do not come at me for being pro. I’m just here for me. If you wanna talk though, I promise I’m more scared of you than you are scared to talk to me. 😊
Growing up feels like your skin no longer fits. Like you just want to crawl out of that thinly stretched space and lay down in the grass and sob for hours. Instead, I am in a cafe eating lunch and trying not to scream. Looking around wondering if anyone else in this building is doing the same thing, wondering if they ever have and, if so, how they got through it. Maybe I would calm down if I just had the assurance that other people have looked in the mirror and no longer recognized themselves.