Lost

Mandy // destruxtion.wordpress.com

[katzenmusik-blog1]

i don’t know whats wrong with me but it’s alot

[whatsleftofmypoetryblog]

Do not mock a pain that you haven’t endured.

Arabic Proverb (via bl-ossomed)

[xbloody-thighs-hollow-eyesx]

IM

NOT

IN

THE

FUCKING

MOOD

FOR

BEING

ALIVE

[sadhearts]

no offense but when is it my turn to get better

[hipstered]

have a relationship thats mature enough to sit down and be like “ look this is our problem and this is how we’re gonna fix it..” SIMPLE

[mindonnone]

Distract me.. put a number in my ask

1: Is there a boy/girl in your life? 2: Think of the last person who hurt you; do you forgive them? 3: What do you think of when you hear the word “meow?” 4: What’s something you really want right now? 5: Are you afraid of falling in love? 6: Do you like the beach? 7: Have you ever slept on a couch with someone else? 8: What’s the background on your cell? 9: Name the last four beds you were sat on? 10: Honestly, are things going the way you planned? 11: Who was the last person whose phone number you added to your contacts? 12: Which hurts the most, physical or emotional pain? 13: Would you rather visit a zoo or an art museum? 14: Are you tired? 15: How long have you known your 1st phone contact? 16: Would you ever consider getting back together with any of your exes? 17: If you knew you had the right person, would you marry them today? 18: How many bracelets do you have on your wrists right now? 19: Is there a certain quote you live by? 20: What’s on your mind? 21: Do you have any tattoos? 22: Next time you will kiss someone on the lips? 23: Who are you texting? 24: Have you ever had the feeling something bad was going to happen and you were right? 25: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to? 26: Do you think anyone has feelings for you? 27: Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes? 28: Were you single on Valentines Day? 29: Has anyone upset you in the last week? 30: Have you ever cried over a text? 31: Where’s your last bruise located? 32: Last time you wanted to be away from somewhere really bad? 33: Who was the last person you were on the phone with? 34: Do you wear hats if your having a bad hair day? 35: Would you ever go bald if it was the style? 36: Do you make supper for your family? 37: Does your bedroom have a door? 38: Does anything on your body hurt? 39: Are goodbyes hard for you? 40: How is your hair? 41: Do you wish you were somewhere else right now? 42: Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile? 43: What was your last thought before you went to bed last night? 44: Have you ever tried your hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end? 45: How old will you be in 5 months? 46: Where is your Mum right now? 47: Have you held hands with somebody in the past three days? 48: How many people have you liked in the past three months? 49: Has anyone seen you in your underwear in the last 3 days? 50: Will you talk to the person you like tonight? 51: If your BF/GF was into drugs would you care? 52: Who was your last received call from? 53: Have you ever trusted someone too much? 54: Do you get along with girls? 55: Are you keeping a secret from someone who needs to know the truth? 56: Everybody has somebody that makes them happy, do you?

[des-truxtion]

Haven’t been on tumblr in ages and just saw all the messages in my inbox. So i’m really sorry i’ve been mia for so long i will try to reply to them asap

[actuates]

i hate that if you let me shatter i’d apologize for being so  fragile

from the drafts pt 2. |(morsus engel)| (via actuates)

[des-truxtion]

That live color change doe haha

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[des-truxtion]

Everyone keeps calling me "super skinny like a tooth pick" thinking it's a compliment or something but It makes me want to either break down and cry or rip their head off!

whats wrong love?

[des-truxtion]

I need advice. I would never commit suicide, but I have bad thoughts about seriously hurting myself. Sometimes when I'm driving alone I will zone out and just think how easily it would be to turn the wheel and ram into a tree and one time I almost went through with it. Sometimes when I'm doing the dishes I'll see a knife and hope that it cuts my hand or arm open. Sometimes when I'm really sad and not doing ok I will cut myself. idk if this is depression or what but I would love your opinion

I think its best if you tell someone u’re close to about this bc this was how i started self harm. I can’t tell you if u’re depressed or nah but if u’re rly worried, i rly encourage u to see a counsellor or psychologist. update me x

[des-truxtion]

I love you babe, have a great day! <3

thank u xx

[des-truxtion]

Hey, I'm here if you wanna talk

thanks love

[ecchipeach-deactivated20160407]

I want someone to look at me and think “wow, you mean so much to me, I don’t ever want to lose you.“ because fuck am I sick of chasing after people who don’t even want to be in my life in the first place.

[depresseddemise]

When you’re in the middle of sobbing and you start dissociating so you’re like “okay I’m done now” and turn into an emotionless zombie

[paralysing-sadness]

[thesecretletter]

We had chemistry. I felt a spark when we kissed a week after breaking up. I still look into your eyes and feel myself drowning inside them. I loved you. You said you did too but how it is possible for you to be attracted to someone else after everything we had. It’s been two weeks since we started building our separate kingdoms, two weeks since the last “i love you”, a week since the last “i miss you” and still you’ve found yourself another queen. I cannot believe that you loved me that much if you delete everything we had, you simply erase me from your life, ripping the page in which i was the subject, recreating OUR moments with somebody else. I cannot trust you after you told her about me and my secrets, yes i get it, you trust her but those were MY secrets. I would’ve never told anyone, anything about what’s hurting you. I would’ve died with that secret of yours. I am keeping them. I haven’t told anyone. I still keep the memories, the places we have been to. But here you are, taking her everywhere we’ve been, taking her to OUR place,eating everything we liked , planning the near-future with her. We gave each other everything we had, we poured our souls, cut our hearts open, i was always there for you and now you say i don’t even have a place in your heart. Why are you trying to replace me? We had amazing moments toghether. We share a lot more than you and her. I miss you, sometimes.

Your secrets are safe here (via thesecretletter)