Golden Eyes Of The Sahara

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“How do you heal wounds you cannot see?”

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Autumn breeze stings.

Something about the fall ,the cool autumn breezes that come my way, seem to make my heart feel every ache and scab. Almost like the season brings back memories and feelings of empathy on the woman I once was and the mirage I was living.

The fall reminds me of college. When I thought I would finally persue my dreams. I’ve reached another step on my ladder to success and before I knew it I fell back down to the bottom of the ladder.

Life within itself is a constant battle, and I’m losing. I’ve lost the very light within myself. I’ve lost the passion I had, the love I had for discovering life. I feel beat up and washed up. Seeing everyone accomplish stuff and I, what have I accomplished. My family is lost. We were shattered apart int to pieces. And those prices were ground up to dust.

And the dust and tiny shards blow in the cool autumn breeze and embed itself into the tiny cracks of my broken heart.

And that is why the autumn breeze stings.

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“A lot of shit done broke my heart but fixed my vision.”

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Feelings going home

The vibes coming from this city and the energy throw me back to dark times with new hopes and beginnings. Seeing old friends seemed to pick right at the scab of wounds healing from years ago. She said “ you should go see your brother.” Because maybe she thought the last time I saw my brother was when we abandoned him in this city. Alone. Things cut me deep today and I never new how broken I was until I brought me myself and my feelings home.

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💕💕

[melonmemes]

Harsh truths will only make you stronger

[drxgonfly]

(by Alexandru Boicu)

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7 months in NY

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Today was the first time. He bumped that coke and I could literally see Lucifers yellow eyes.

[dailyinspirationquotes]

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❤️❤️❤️

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Goodbyes are always the hardest...

It hurts. My heart hurts. I carry so much weight by staying here. I am almost bound by chains. My heart is heavy. I don't know where to start. How do I say goodbye to a city? It's filled with people and sweet memories. It's filled with aromas of dinners I spent with my family. My mothers grilled lemon pepper chicken or when she makes shorbat freek. Who do I talk to when my heart gets this heavy? Who do I drown my sorrows in and they tell me everything is okay baby. Everything is fine. How do I find the courage to listen and feel hearts. How do I find it in me to drop everything and leave? Keep telling yourself, when the time has come and the chapter has ended, you open up a new book and write your own story.

[ghozydes]

As long as Allah with you 🍂

[makeuphall]

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Getting my shit together.

[nasem]

[m7madsmiry]

The strongest people are not those who show strength in front of us, but those who win battles we know nothing about. الأقوياء ليسوا من يظهرون القوة أمامنا ولكنهم هؤلاء الذين يربحون معارك لا نعرف شيئًا عنها.

(via m7madsmiry)

And those battles. Lord have mercy, they can be the size of mountains.

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Too much damage has been done

I feel as though I am in a constant state of daze. I don't recognize what's going on around me. I know I am depressed I know I am anxious often. I know I am lonely. I cannot make decisions. We stop looking for the monsters that are under our beds when we realize they're in our heads. I cannot live with myself. Mental health is no game.