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Hans Bellmer (1933-34)

Re: nudes and future nudes

Usually I would feel wrong or shameful for posting pictures I like of my body on the Internet. What a way to be cultured. Here's real life where you don't have to feel bad about yourself.

Here's me!

No matter how much tumblr fucks me up sometimes, it helped me get through some shitty times and also educated me on feminism, world affairs, the U.S. government, and nihilism. Thanks T

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Wow I can't believe I ever loved you.

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This is a recent photo. I used to hate my body. Specifically my stomach, breasts, and thighs. I used to wear only black or dark colors to make myself appear slimmer. I wouldn’t go out if I was feeling bloated or guilty about eating fast food. I would exercise whenever I was physically capable (in the shower, in bed). I formed an eating disorder where I would sneak food into my room, binge, and sulk about it afterwards. I was unhealthy and suffering from myself. I’m so happy to say that I’m separated from this lifestyle. I’ve never been more appreciative of my body. Now I want to show my curves off and not hide them. I love my fat and I also love the muscle I’ve built. It’s like a weight is lifted off of my chest and I’m going through recovery of fucked up brainwashing that started early on. The media, the self conscious women in my family, and my misinformed peers are some of the contributors. But there are resources and the strongest one is in yourself. The bullshit is hard to get past but when it’s cleared out, it’s something incredible.