[desfora]

@ymagishi​

   “  Stop  that  .  ”   swats  at  yukako’s assailing finger .

[desfora]

gives her the last strawberry on the strawberry cake :)

       like  most  people  ,  maria  had  a  sweet  tooth  of  her  own  that  she  allowed  herself  to  indulge  in  on  rare  occasions  .  though  ,  that  usually  only  made  itself  known  if  someone  had  the  misfortune  of  dragging  her  out  somewhere  under  the  misconception  that  she’d  buy  her  own  sweets  and  not  simply  steal  theirs  .    still  ,  for  yuuta’s  sake  she  tried  to  at  least  leave  him  the  majority  of  the  cake  ,  there  was  a  ( small )  childish  worry  that  if  he  didn’t  get  his  regular  intake  of  sweets  he’d  shrivel  up  like  a raisin  in  the  sun  . 

      that’s  not  to  say  that  she  still  didn’t  want  something  though  ,  and  the  strawberry  he  gave  her  would  satisfy  her  for  now  .  while  she  ate  her  expression  didn’t  necessarily  change  enough  to  give  much  notice  but  her  eyes  were  a  little  less  dull  in  the  sunlight  it  seemed  ,  her  body  a  little  less  tense  ,  fists  loose  and  unclenched  .  how  sumire  got  her  involved  with  this  cotton  candy  shaped  human  being  she’ll  never  know  .

[desfora]

kind of want to change icons but number one white-i-fys her and i need to figure out how to stop that

[ediesedgwicks]

“(…) I found myself clinging with a death grip to things it was long past time to let go. I clung to my anger, for fear that without it I’d lose some mysterious (imaginary) “edge.” I clung to my resentments, because I had been nursing them so long I couldn’t imagine life without their poisonous satisfaction. I clung to my regrets, and they were legion, going over and over the smallest mistakes I’d made as well as the biggest, hating myself for all I’d done and all I’d failed to do.”

— Marya Hornbacher, Waiting

[desfora]

fatalitiez​:

@desfora

"are you maria?!" this had to be her! she looked just as strong as she sounded, yuzuko was almost shuddering from excitement and they werent even in the ring yet. hand held out for a shake, a smile on her face.

"my name is yuzuko mawatari! im so excited to have fun with you, I heard you were strong."

                                                       “ ....... ”

        there  was  something  about  this  girl  that  made  her  feel  less  social  than  usual  ;  perhaps  it  was  that  weird  ,  doe - eyed  expression  she  has  .  or  her  eagerness  to  shake  hands  despite  maria  not  yet  acknowledging  her  .  she  babbled  a  lot  too  ,  and  judging  by  her  build  was  clearly  a  fighter  .  stocky  and  short  ,  a  kickboxer  maybe  ?  whatever  she  was  it  wasn’t  something  maria  felt  like  being  bothered  with  .  “ You  must  have  me  confused  with  someone  else  .  ”  a  blatant  and  terrible  lie  .

[xshayarsha]

Surely she’ll grow out of it, they think. I grew into it. It grew into me. It and I blurred at the edges, became one amorphous, seeping, crawling thing.

Marya Hornbacher; from Madness. (via xshayarsha)

[desfora]

ddestin said to get back on nobara and i must

[vhsmeme]

* love ♥ starters

‘ want me to stay? ’

‘ we’re almost home. ’

‘ you should be in bed. ’

‘ we can share it.’

‘ stay there. i’m coming to get you. ’

‘ shh, shh. you were dreaming. ’ 

‘ grab my hand. ’

‘ i’m just going to pick you up. ’

‘ everything okay? ’

‘ i won’t leave you behind. ’

‘ don’t worry. better out than in. ’

‘ who did that to you? ’ 

‘ sit down and rest. ’

‘ sweetie, i would never think that. ’

‘ come lay down in my lap. ’

‘ i know you think you’re all alone out there, but you’re not. ’

‘ call me when you get home. ’

‘ we should change those bandages. ’

‘ you’re safe here. ’

‘ honey… ’

‘ of course we love you. ’

‘ wait here. i’ll go run a bath for you. ’

‘ take my bed for tonight. ’

‘ i promise. ’ 

‘ you’re always welcome here. ’

‘ don’t talk like that. ’

‘ bad dream? ’

‘ talk to me. ’  

‘ it’s okay to cry. ’

‘ you need to be more careful.’

‘ we should hug this out. ’

‘ i worry about you. ’

‘ can i hold your hand? ’ 

‘ because i care about you. ’

‘ it made me think of you. ’ 

‘ take care of yourself. ’

‘ put your seatbelt on. ’ 

‘ where did you go? ’ 

‘ i didn’t mean to worry you. ’

‘ i made breakfast. ’

‘ sing something for me? ’

‘ open it and find out. ’

‘ how long have you been like this? ’

‘ you look nice. ’

‘ here, take my jacket. ’

‘ close your eyes and try to get some rest. ’

‘ focus on my voice. ’ 

‘ i meant every word. ’

‘ i was here all night. ’

‘ look both ways before you cross. ’

‘ you don’t have to talk. ’ 

‘ this is your favorite, right? ’

‘ you’ll feel better in the morning. ’

‘ you have a nice laugh. ’

‘ here, take my jacket. ’

‘ you could stay here. with me. ’

‘ we’ll figure it out together. ’

[desfora]

maria has mental illness i’m sorry to say

[desfora]

her realizing jjt has his fathers inborn talent n her realizing she’s doing exactly as her father did when he trained jjt’s dad which got her entire family killed n burned alive outside the closet hid her in n the subsequent breakdown she has....the hallucinations....she’s unwell

[desfora]

ah i just remembered i never made my posts about how maria simply does not n cannot cope with the trauma of her youth n her attempted suicide after her family died

[desfora]

otp <3

[desfora]

pov u got into a prestigious school at the fight capital of the world n maria puts u to sleep in the ring in less than 10 seconds 

[desfora]

cha so-wol is the only other valid fc3 character

[desfora]

kainan​:

❝     self  practice  is  great  and  all,     but  don’t  you  think  joining  group  practice  would  be  more  rewarding?     ❞     in  enters  nekoma’s  scheming  captain  onto  the  scene.     among  the  ruckus  of  the  shared  gymnasium,     the  ambiance  of  the  practice  matches  gave  a  contrasting  entrance  to  the  grinning  kuroo.     ❝     mn,     ❞     his  hands  extend  towards  her,     motioning  for  the  ball.     he’s  been  eyeing  her  for  a  while  now;     a  player  he’s  never  seen  before,     an  outlier  amidst  the  shared  efforts  of  everyone  else.     a  volleyball  player  is  a  given,     obviously,     if  the  ball  she  was  spiking  against  the  wall  was  any  right  indication.     ❝     so,     what  position  do  you  play,     mystery  girl?     ❞     @desfora​

   despite  her  best  efforts  ,  despite  her  reputation  ,  despite ,  well  , everything  ,  she  found  herself  being  bothered  by  a  fellow  classmate  .    ❝ ..... ❞  there  was  a  silence  between them  as  her  glare  bore  holes  into  him  ,  piercing  him  down  to  the  marrow  .  it  wasn’t  out  of  malice  or  anything  so  complicated  ,  she  simply  didn’t  remember  .  never  caring  to  pay  attention  to  most  of  the  girls’  volleyball  coach’s  or  her  teammates instructions  will  do  that  to  you  .  ❝  Why  do  you  want  to  know  ?  ❞

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[desfora]

kisses 💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋

uah...yukako-chan.....:flushed: