Rei⋆

DNI 🔞 | ♡ | 19 | Infp-T 6w5 | a simple gal dedicated to the cost of worshipping, and protecting a cute patootie.

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Happy Birthday, Juuzou Suzuya.🎂

[06.08.26]

It's strange, isn't it? You were the first character I ever truly loved, and even now, after all this time, that hasn't changed.

I love your freedom. Your individuality. Your loyalty. The way you refuse to fit neatly into anyone else's expectations. I love your sense of humor, your chaos, your strength, and the parts of you that learned how to be gentle despite everything you've been through. And you've been through so much.

Watching you grow throughout the story made me incredibly happy. You matured, became someone people could rely on, someone others looked up to. You carried responsibilities that would have broken so many people, and somehow you kept moving forward.

But if I'm being honest, there are still days when I wish life had given you more.

I've always wished you could have had the chance to stop fighting someday. To finally put everything down and simply live.

A quiet life.

The kind where you could spend your days eating all the sweets you wanted, petting every stray animal that crossed your path, wandering wherever your heart decided to take you, and enjoying all the little things you were denied for so long.

Because in the end, you never chose to become strong. You were forced to be.

You kept fighting because there were people who needed you, people who relied on you, and you carried that weight for far longer than anyone should have had to. Maybe that's why I'll always have a soft spot for you.

Because beneath all the chaos and mischief is someone who deserved kindness, safety, and the freedom to simply be happy.

As promised, I drew you this year to make up for last year when I couldn't. I poured so much love into this piece, and I hope somehow that feeling reaches you.🎈

I truly love you, Juuzou. Every part of you.

Thank you for making me laugh. Thank you for making me cry. Thank you for being a character who stayed with me long after I finished watching.

I wish you nothing but happiness this year and every year after. And while Meguru Bachira may have become my ultimate type, you'll always have a special place in my heart.

You'll always be loved by me, for as long as I live.

(Ps. Sorta different from what I usually post I know but it can't be helped~ Juuzou is a very important character to me, and it's his birthday today! He deserves more on his special day..~)

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My lovely friend drew my oc in her tpof! outfit (above) based on my design (below) ߹𖥦߹♡♡ so pretty!

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A gift for a friend♡ Drew her a YKMET-Style character sheet for her oc~ Isn't she the cutest? (I'd like to thank my friend as well for giving me the creative freedom to dress her in whatever clothing♡♡).

(I'm quite busy with uni atm which is why I'm not able to post much of my drawings lately so this is all I have~ I'll be more active in a few more weeks or so!)

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Art dump of my girl-failure oc that I finally finished (she's a vampire with eyes for u 🦇🍷) tried my best to replicate Gato's style!

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re-blogging cuz I tweaked her.. again.. (may this be the final tweak)

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My old fanart

First post here!

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I just realized I haven't posted these on here either but these are a mixture of artworks, and art trades I've drawn for friends/mooties of their lovely oc's in the past few months I've been in the fandom♡ (so far I've only met very nice people! I'm quite fortunate)

(...in case I get asked about it on here too, currently my art trades are closed💦 I'm way too busy these days and I would simply feel too guilty making anyone wait for god knows how long for me to finish!).

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I love my friend sm they are so silly, look at these doodles they sent me the other night♡

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At long last I was able to conceptualize what my oc would look like in TPOF 🦇🩸

During this period, Tasya (otherwise known by her codename "Wisteria") has almost no autonomy of her own.

Nearly everything requires Fox’s approval before she can move forward, even small things. The dress she wears that day, the way her hair is styled, how her makeup is done. It’s simply become routine for her to ask first.

Her appearance hasn’t changed much over the years either. Due to her unusual biology, aging slowed drastically early on, leaving her looking almost identical to when she was twenty; back when Strade was still alive.

Soft white dresses trimmed with lace and ruffles sit beneath a black leather apron, giving her the delicate look of both a carefully maintained doll and a butcher. Crimson leather gloves cover her hands.. practical, really. Certain stains are harder to notice that way. Straps and harnesses keep her sleeves out of the way while holding the tools she needs close at hand: needles, anesthetics, and other precise instruments.

After all, Tasya serves as the organization’s quack doctor and harvester.

When work is finished and bodies are left behind, she’s the one responsible for recovering whatever valuables remain. Despite the years numbing her senses, she is still unable to inflict the level of cruelty Fox displays on streams; in this way, she is able to contribute to their line of work (Afterall, it's difficult to grow attached/feel pity for a corpse, no?).

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There is this one song in my language (Tagalog) that I really think fits Ren perfectly so I've decided to draw him just like the song's cover photo♡ The song is called "Pagibig ay Kanibalismo" which directly translates to "Love is Cannibalism 🫀"

The meaning is pretty clear-cut; A love that is all-consuming, to the point of deep obsession and wanting to/to-be consumed by it. Literally and Metaphorically.

Anywho~ I made 2 versions in YKMET'S different lighting as well!♡

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I got super duper inspired to make a proper one for my darling girl thanks to an art trade with a wonderful mutual of mine on X (who drew this idea for me first!); So, here we are. I really like it, to the point I'm actually thinking about making more art of Tasya based on official merch designs.

Originally, for the flowers I was going to give her Foxgloves because I love the symbolism behind them. They’re used as heart medicine, but if handled incorrectly, they can be poisonous. That duality felt very “her.” She loves deeply and sincerely, but she isn’t harmless in the slightest.

In the end though, the red spider lilies completely won me over visually! They just had that dramatic, striking presence I couldn’t resist. (But fox gloves are still very much her flowers~)

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I made this for my pookie♡ for Valentines and I thought I'd share it~

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I wanted to experiment a little with lighting and textures! happy to say this took less time compared to how I usually render.

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I technically commissioned myself for this (lol) here is my DoL pc! She's a fox girl♡ (This was a lot of fun to do! Tons of experimenting and overall, I hope to pump out a solo piece of Ren in this style soon enough~ 🦊❣️).

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Art dump of my girl-failure oc that I finally finished (she's a vampire with eyes for u 🦇🍷) tried my best to replicate Gato's style!

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When In doubt, just remember that you can do it... For him...