The Invisible Writer

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Backyard Swing

Lonely boy on the backyard swing With the sting in his soul and a diamond ring No point to go home Empty house and all alone Dreams are but a lie to get through the day To escape reality to get away Look at how I'm emptied Life's only halfway through Minds gone crazy What am I supposed to do Can't find a path Lost any dreams long ago I just can't last I just can't grow Time can only torture me Or I do it to myself Its coincidence or purposefully I can't get help Who I am I, I don't know I miss going with the flow I miss my mind going quiet I miss my old friends I miss no worries And not having to pretend Like everything is fine Like I'm okay All the days gone by I'm a modern cliche https://www.prizerebel.com/index.php?r=8615731

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In The Game

Morning sun time for the next level Settle for another world otherwise my hands are the devils All that's left is a pebble where there used to be a peak Rebel back and forth till I dull myself not to tweak Cause I wreak of desperation A streak of aggravation Confused to a point I'm a freak without sedation It's the only way to pause only way to breathe Get up and walk away but the game continues on Get back its all done, I didn't do a thing I'm useless I know but my team won Drive 200, jump from a plane Live a different story feel someone elses pain Make choices you want not what seems best Stay up all night cause its better then rest Can't start a new file, create a new me Walk for a while to somewhere never seen Can't be the damn hero the savior of a land At least in the game I'm not zero in the game I understand

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Who I Was I Can't Get Back

Have you ever been just wandering along Wandering your mind Trying to understand what's wrong Thoughts actions excuses Wondering if the good intentions you say you had is what the truth is But the truth is what was doesn't matter Stuck in a moment eyes glued to the ceiling Bent outta shape cause of a damn feeling Like something is missing or too much inside Reminiscing good bad and shit you try to hide Its not gonna go away not while your around Doctors say there's something wrong take some pills to drown it out Yet the echoes in my head make my hands shake daily But mainly I'm out of it wishing I hadn't fed the habits that ate me Cause who I was I can't get back Who I was I can't get back The background to my life is just static mixed with endless doubt I don't get it Where did I trip where did I spiral Rivaling internal debates screaming why though Why am I like this why can't I find peace Left with the feeling i cant explain except bitter defeat But the battles just starting but I'm parting with the chance even though that's not me Startling its come to this fuck why am I so weak Already past my peak seeking something more Its all in front of me though I just have to enjoy what's here but I don't know where to go even though I've already been there before I guess cause where I was I can't go back Where I was I can't go back Who I was I can't get back Who I was I can't get back

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Aliens, I Had To...

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Where Time Goes

Fell down the rabbit hole Hung by a ghost rope Tied with those ghost words Lost all my living hope Slid up a steep slope Stayed there with fun pills Good friends but sheep though I had the soul I had the will Just don't know where time goes

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Learning

Kill me slowly With your words of hate This is one time I won't take your bait I'll take the punches I'll take the kicks So one day You won't be my habit Pushed against the wall Go through it all Over again To learn the lesson I tend to forget Then relive the regret

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Dark Days

The ink in my arms is to cover up the scars So at least the shells appealing And I laugh along cause I feel so wrong About the way I need to be dealing The voices in my head say you're already dead So whats the point in waiting Cause the way they talk and out the door they walk You're already way past fading You'd think I'd always be around but I'm just being drowned By this thing that we call living As the days go by I keep finding questions why I haven't left but I am leaving I wish someone held on sooner cause the fumes have knocked me out If only it wasn't bad humor cause what looms there is no doubt I am done with this I can't take the pain I am numb to bliss but I can't complain There's no tomorrow I'm a apart of Trust me I've decided no need to shove

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Life's Gotten Strange

With all the buildings burning Cars through the streets All the kids learning Wrong mentalities it's weak Lives taken early Some not chance Freezing on the snowy curb Without a second glance This world's grown cold Neglect is so common Things'll get better so we're told Or get a job then Another cog in the machine Replace a gear This is always how it's been That's a fact not a fear The plans to mature Grow up be in charge Shouldn't be a challenge Yet we crumble it's to hard No modern day dreams No prophets of today But no one has the means To do what they say It's all about money What you have to show Big house and a honey Wait there's no room to grow Something's gotta give Something's gotta change This isn't how to live Damn life's gotten strange How do we get better When theres no power struggle Writing down these letters I realize there's no light in this tunnel

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No Going Back

Pleasant winds blow Time turns the sand Adventurers got nowhere to go And no one understands Heart without passion Mind clears the light Everything turns to trash Cause nothing's in sight No far off land Where dreams come true So we try to occupy time But there's nothing to do Idle hands Dangerous we say Time equals delusion Then the devil starts to play Mind body soul Family and friends Once upon were told No longer pretend Light shines maturity Innocence goes black Forget where we left Happiness on the track Try again everyday But nothing fills the crack Die a little once again Knowing there's no going back

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The Irony

Push my back up against the wall Kick up the dirt say it's all just part of the fall, the fall, the fall, the fall Where's my heart Where's my head Where's the life that I dreamt of back then, back then, back then, back So lie to my anxiety Tell me it'll all be okay Some day I'll see the irony

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Of Course

Someone turn off the loop my life is on repeat Every day's seeming endless like I'm already beat Playing with fire that flickers with a breathe Questioning simply is this all I have left Rivers dance with light reflecting a purpose Living a life bent on self service Determined for greatness but nothing to find With all of the mess can't spot a real sign Nowhere to go crowded to edge Getting pushed constant finally slipped off the ledge Falling so fast rocks follow quick Blurring every second yet it started with a sip Blood sweat and tears blinded by mud bets and fears Whether right or wrong always judged by my peers How do I live with myself with relentless doubt A man in a cage screaming he wants out Can't break the bars so I scream till I'm hoarse If only I turned around the doors open of course

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Damn, I'll Miss You

I don’t fear god hell I barely believe Hittin’ rock bottom you’re taught just what I mean The demons inside of the people who preach denial Killin’ the innocence of the uneducated with a smile Might not be today tomorrow or the next One day you’ll face hypocrisy from a different aspect Looking through yourself staring in the mirror Wondering who that is with the empty lookin’ demeanor Beatin’ up and bruised lost without a hope Thought you found the bottom but fell down another slope Cause it can always get worse isn’t that what they say Screaming for another chance cause life didn’t go your way Lost in a nightmare that just won’t end Like playing when youwere a kid but its not pretend Consequences burn a hole in who you are that’s a fact So many betrayals I can’t count the knives in my back Yet gotta keep my chin up sun will rise again I think Been trying so long pretty sure my boats about to sink So much wasted energy and effort on a lie Picked me apart from the start yet all I did was try

For some reason though I think something’s gotta give It’ll turn around at some point as long as I look within But I’m empty so what’s there to find My darkest thoughts begin to guide my mind You know that’s never good it’ll never work out Fearing everything from your dreams to your doubts Please God I don’t fear you, I fear what I’ve grown into A demon playing human with no way to burn for what I do I’ve been cut open bleeding still i feel no pain I have no will I don’t have the strength to climb another hill Scars upon scars I can’t seem to find skin Losing my mind my sanity is wearing thin I know I have so many problems so many issues To the person I’m leavin’ behind damn I’ll miss you

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By This Time

By this time I thought I'd have it together Yet everything's falling apart Figured one day things would get better But it hasn't had a chance to start The dreams I have will never happen I won't see the world let alone be free Everyone I've ever wronged is laughing A dead end is all my life will ever be

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Keep

Someone tell me a joke Cause life ain't enough I hear I have it good So why do I feel so rough Maybe cause they don't see my shadow Grow in the dark Twitchin' like a junkie Sleeping in the park With all this good around me I can't force myself start Doing something useful No adventure to embark On another day, in another life I'd probably be smiling not going through this strife By myself Please keep the wolves away Keep my thoughts at bay Keep the man I was from showin' his ugly mug today Cause that's who I was and not who I wanna be I just need sometime to find what makes me happy

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Not My Best

In the trees In the leafs In the broken part of me Down the street Down to hell Down the roads I know so well You'd think I would find my way You'd think I'd find the words I can't say From my mind From the time From the things that aren't mine Tell the sky Tell the moon Tell me this will all end soon Cause I can't stand another day Cause I can't find it in me to stay

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How To Decide

The arguments are endless but I can't cut the tie Find myself smiling less and asking more whys The stress is overwhelming losing who I am I stay to make it work something I will never understand Is it love or dependence I can't see the line Everything comes out as the mistakes somehow mine A sign or reality that this just needs to end Is this what everyone goes through or are we just playing pretend Cause one of these days the demons will uncage I should've left sooner rather then let this be my last page It's not rage building inside but impatience for resolve The stage lights are off I'm looking to evolve Not revolve these painful circles I can't seem to split But I call this home even with all this bullshit

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Spinning Stars

I try to succeed but fail in grace All I believe is it was not a waste

As the stars start to spin and the shadows seem to grow I know I’m moving forward but I don’t know where to go Fireworks skip like stones not knowing there alone It all feels like a dream cause that’s my only home

Bleeding sky screaming moon tell me what to do This place feels like a wasteland that has endless greedy fools Nothing to explore and no way to achieve The only way it gets better is to hope and believe But that’s a lie that’s a lie to carry my mind to sleep Every day every action is just to miss another beat To a song or a my story that doesn’t play out well Not written all that good and no one wants to tell

As the stars start to spin and the shadows seem to grow I know I’m moving forward but I don’t know where to go Fireworks skip like stones not knowing there alone It all feels like a dream cause that’s my only home

You think I would’ve learned from movie cliches Life works against you to find another way You may not want it but is it what you need Some heart breaks and knee scrapes that always seem to bleed Good things at a price that start with some hurt Dreams don’t come easy they take a lot of work The rocks that feel like bottom the words that cut like knives It’s the only way to learn that you will survive