cryingatthetrees

16, UK, millie:))

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i’ve realised nothing helps enough

weed, meds, no weed, therapy, counselling, eating better, sleeping more, being at college, being busy, being in a relationship

nothing works, i just do want to die now

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i am unlovable

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i have no money fuck

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why can’t someone just acc love me and wnana be with me

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been smoking a lot of weed again, been drinking a bit too. the boy i like i convinced he is talking to other girls but it’s probably just me overthinking his actions

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been kinda inactive, my weight has fluctuated a bit but nothing bad i don’t think. my back is in a lot of pain but hopefully it’s just a soft tissue problem and not a spinal one. i had both counselling and therapy today which were ok, my dad just found a card my mum bought for a future birthday of mine just a week or two before she died. she hadn’t written it yet but the words printed on it were really sweet and i miss her. i don’t have to go cornwall with my dad, his gf and his gfs daughter. i scratches the boy i liked car :(( he’s really lovely

kinda having a bit of a bad day, woke up feeling a bit drained but i’m alright.

!!! TW SELF HARM!!

i cut today but i always think i do it for attention even tho no one or maybe one person will see it but idk i feel like i just do it because i think i should even tho i don’t. i’m just over thinking

i wanna sleep or smoke a joint, i smoked yesterday but i’ve been good at not smoking a lot :)

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BDSM? If so, what's your kink?

fuck off

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so i think i’m falling for someone

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so idk what to say, i’m starting therapy again, got counselling every week. my anxiety is getting worse and i’m worrying about my past a lot

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i had a nightmare, today’s been not great

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thought a friend of mine was stealing from my house but i think i was just really really paranoid. feeling in a bit of a weird mood today, i smoked yesterday but not to extent that i feel as if i need to smoke all the time. i feel kinda anxious i think i’m not really sure.

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it’s 7:26 am and i haven’t been to sleep, i’m seeing my counsellor in 5 hours and then going out with my friends :)

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so my brother has been accepted to uni which is great but that means it’s only gonna be me and my nan sleeping in our 6 bedroom house as my dad sleeps at his gfs. this means that we will either move, or she will live here which is not happening under my watch. i don’t wnat my nan to live alone and i don’t want to live with my dads gf especially not yet, so i’ll probs live with my nan

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so today i’ve been ok, i haven’t cried yet which is good and i’ve managed to keep my worries low. i think i’m just gonna try have a fuck it attitude and if people don’t like it that’s there problem. the things i worry about most and regret only effect me therefore it’s only be who has to learn to live with the guilt and move on. hope everyone’s ok, i haven’t eaten much at all today

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so today i’ve had a few cries, a lot of over thinking but another day sober, day 3 in the morning and after that i’m seeing my friends for like 4 days straight so that should distract me. i just want me own privacy but i feel the need to tell my future partner all my small imtimate details of my past because i regret it

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really struggling with my anxiousness atm, thinking about getting some weed but i know i shouldn’t